Why did he invite her over to his place? What on Earth had come over him? Christ, Max was doped up in the back seat of his car, his house was a mess, and he barely knew the girl. He probably freaked her the hell out by even asking, and Jackson cursed himself as he looked back into the rearview mirror at her old Toyota following behind him.
There was a strange sense of excitement in his chest as they rounded the corner to their cul de sac. There was something that attracted him to her in a surprising way and he felt equal parts entranced by her, and like a dirty old man. The girl was over two decades younger than him, had a half-crippled mother to contend with, and was more timid than a skittish cat, but he couldn't seem to help himself. He wanted to crack open that shyness and see what was inside, to hear the things that she really had to say beyond polite conversation. Not to mention that delicious outfit she had on today.
He mentally cursed himself again. He couldn't think that way, not with someone so much younger. It was dirty and wrong. He was friends with her mother, for Christ's sake, and now he's attracted to her? Those curves, her smooth and glowing skin, her indifferent confidence, and her lips. The things he'd do with those lips...
He slapped himself on the side of the face and pulled into the driveway, watching as Aymie parked in her own driveway and then got out, leaving her paint stained apron in the car, and headed across the grass patch that divided their houses to meet him at the car. Jackson turned off the engine and hopped out, then opened up the back door to the car and hefted Max out as well, carrying him inside.
The door to his house was still slightly ajar from this morning so he nudged the door open with his knee, carrying Max in to his dog bed in the TV room and setting him down gingerly. He called over his shoulder for Aymie to make herself at home, then took her dirty afghan downstairs to throw into the laundry. He threw in a few towels of his own, set the washer to a quick wash, tossed in a soap pack, and started the wash. Then he turned and took the steps two at a time to get back upstairs to Aymie. When he came up, she was still standing in the doorway with her sandals kicked off by the door. She looked astonished.
"...This is...what your house looks like." She stated it matter-of-factly.
Jackson ran a hand through his hair. "Well yea. What, did you expect something else?"
"It's just so different from ours," she said, timidly stepping inside. "All the houses on this street look the same but...clearly they aren't"
Jack chuckled and led her into the kitchen, pulling out a chair for her to have a seat. Then he fetched two clean mugs from the cupboard and rummaged around for his tea bags.
"Let's see, I've got some green tea left...an orange and mint herbal blend...some Earl Grey..."
"Herbal sounds perfect." Aymie looked around nervously as he set the water to boil. "Are you sure you don't mind me hanging out? I don't want to intrude."
Jackson let out an exasperated laugh and turned to her, leaning against the counter. "Aymie, why would I have invited you if I didn't want you to be here?" He pulled out the chair opposite her and took an easy seat. "Take a breath. I'm not upset with you about what happened. I am more grateful than you could ever know, honey. So just relax, okay?"
That seemed to shift something in her, and Aymie slackened back in her chair a bit and allowed her shoulders to release down from her ears. A small smile came to her, those lush lips pulling up at the corners and she met his gaze and held it for longer than three seconds, which seemed to be a record for her.
"There now. Better?" he asked, teasing her.
She blushed. "Yea...better. Thanks." She looked around the kitchen then, admiring the interior design. "It really is beautiful. I love what you've had done."
Jack found himself looking around as well. "Thank you. The company I worked with did an excellent job of tailoring the place to my tastes."
"And what tastes are those?" she asked him, folding her hands atop the table.
That question made him tighten. "In regards to my interior design?" She nodded, and he continued, willing his head to clear. "Hmm, I like natural materials in as many ways as I can have them. Bamboo, balsa, willow, maple...woods that grow relatively quickly and have a variety of uses. That way it's not chopping down ten trees for what can be done with two. Make sense?"
Aymie nodded and he fetched their tea and mugs, handing hers to her. Their fingertips brushed as he passed the cup over and he swore he could feel it shock right up through his arm. What the hell was that?
"I really like the look of it all," she commented, steeping her tea. "There's a good energy in this house. Natural and bright and welcoming." She looked over. "Kind of like you. You make people feel comfortable. Or...well, at least you do for me." She blushed again and sipped.
Jack plopped his tea bag in his water and let it sit. "What's your house like?" he asked her, crossing one leg over his knee and shifting the conversation away from himself.
"Dirty, mostly." She chuckled once. "Mom and I aren't the cleanest people and it's mostly me that does all the cleaning and the tidying up." She set the mug down but kept her hands closed around it, adopting a more thoughtful look. "There's a lot of clutter, but I don't mind it most of the time. It's bright in there too. I like to have the windows open."
He tilted his head and regarded her closely. "What is it like?"
"What's what like?"
He looked down into his water. "Living with a woman who can't live on her own?"
Aymie let out a laugh at that and it surprised him. "Don't ever let her hear you say that, she'd skin you." She sipped at her mug and left a faint, pink outline around the rim. "Mom is...She's always had a type-A personality. She's a go getter and she didn't let that injury stop her from doing everything she wants to do." She looked back up at him and her hazel eyes looked deeper, for a moment. "But what does stop her is the fatigue at the end of all her jam packed days. She goes out and does what she wants, and I'm left to pick up her slack."
Jackson leaned forward and closed his hands around his mug. "That sounds difficult."
"It is," she replied immediately. "It's exhausting, which is why I'm so thankful that she is gone during the day. It gives me time to just...exist...without worrying about what she needs me to do next."
He felt an ache in his chest for her, but wasn't sure what to make of it. Empathy, sympathy, and irritation towards her mother all came to the forefront of his mind. Aymie was so young and had such a bright future ahead of her. That she was saddled with all of her mother's baggage made him angry on her behalf.
"I hope that doesn't make me sound terrible," she added on, grimacing into her tea. "I love her very much. I just can't stand her sometimes."
Jackson looked over and smiled softly. "Honey, it sounds human. It makes perfect sense. You have every right to feel what you feel. I would too, being confined like that. It's like a cage. You can shine it up, fill it with paintings and open windows and all the comforts you could ever want, but it's still a cage. It's still trapping you in."
Aymie looked at him for a long few moments after he said that. "Yeah...that's exactly it. It's like I don't have much identity beyond 'the crippled lady's kid' and I hate that. I want to be. I want to exist to someone, yknow?"
He leaned back in his chair and folded his hands over his stomach. "Well you exist to Max in there, I'm sure. If it hadn't been for you, he might not have made it." She chuckled, peeking in at the dog as he snored in his dog bed. "And you exist to me."
She looked over and caught his gaze. "Really?"
"Absolutely." He pushed up from his seat and moved to lean against the counter again, closer to her. "You might not even realize it but I love when you say good morning to me every day. I look forward to it, to seeing you. It helps set the mood for my whole day."
She looked up at him and smiled, her eyes seeming to almost drag up his body to meet his gaze. He shifted, crossing his legs. The look in her eyes had shifted once he drew closer, from something timid to something a bit bolder. She didn't say anything for a long moment, just looked up at him with those doe eyes, scanning his. Her lips parted a bit and he watched her swipe her tongue across them to moisten them, and if he didn't know any better he'd say she wanted him to kiss her.
"Thank you. Th-that's...really sweet." She cleared her throat and pushed up to standing as well, nearly knocking into him. "Um, thanks for the tea. I should...probably get going. Lots to do today."