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Chapter 22
HOLES
Late Evening Day 8
Jonny sat me on his bed and turned on the shower.
I thought of nothing as I rubbed the bullet hole in my chest. Why wasn't it bleeding or painful? Only a few moments passed until Jonny was in front of me. He was naked but I was numb. His lips moved but I didn't understand what he was saying.
He led me into the bathroom and stripped off my sweater gently. "I'm going to lift your dress over your head and put you in the shower." He said but he sounded so far away.
I think I nodded.
He gently lifted off my dress and tossed it onto his black tactical wear. The dress was covered in blood. I hadn't realized there was so much. I looked at my hands in front of me. They were covered in sticky redness.
"It's not mine," my voice sounded distant and coldly calm. I stared at the glimmering red. The bathroom light seemed so bright in contrast to the dark blood. "I killed a Police Officer," I whispered. I should be panicking.
He undid my bra and slipped it off my arms. The vial fell to the bathmat.
The bullet hole gushed blood. I gasped as pain shot through my body. I grabbed Jonny's arms, on the edge of losing consciousness.
Jonny held me to him. "He fucking shot you?"
"It hurts." I gasped.
"We have to get the bullet out of you."
"Hand me that glass thing."
Jonny handed me the glass vial. "I'm going to fucking kill him. Slowly."
"It burns," as I said it the pain faded and the blood slowed.
Jonny led me to his bed and laid me down. "I'll call the Doc." He picked up his phone.
"No." I put my free hand over his phone. "No more doctors."
"You have a fucking bullet in you."
"Please? Maybe in the morning. I just want to sleep." I couldn't handle someone touching me at that moment and I was obviously not thinking straight.
He shook his head but put his phone away. He dug in his side table and pulled out a small, round, metal tin. "Mi Abuelita made this. It's a poultice from a recipe handed down from our Aztec ancestors."
I nodded and looked over at the fire as he gently rubbed the poultice over my chest. At some point, he had turned the fireplace on, and the lights off. It left the cabin feeling safe and warm.