It's been almost a month since she has had any sexual pleasure from another man. Her divorce still fresh but she was ready to be pleased the way she wanted to. Her ex-husband left her feeling like sex wasn't anything special, he did cheat on her with two women.
There are moments where she asked herself "Was I not good enough? Did it get boring for him?"
But she usually came to her senses quickly. She IS enough. He didn't deserve the love she gave.
She can't remember the last time she had sex when it was about her. It may have been the giver in her.
Enough of that. She was done putting herself second. Ignoring her needs to fulfill the other person.
Sex is a gift between two people. She was ready to experience it in a way she never have before. The divorce made her realize what she really wanted and needed in the bedroom.
Being alone can make someone think.
Lately she has been feeling lonely.
But she was not going to settle again.
She comes home after work, takes a hot shower, and collapses on her bed.
Sending messages to her best friends. They helped her through this time but of course they couldn't give her what she was longing for, sexual pleasure.
When it came to erotica, she enjoyed the words. The phone was her place of ecstasy. She didn't need a single touch as long as they gave her descriptors.
Everything about phone sex sent her into a frenzy.
The way a man lowers his voice. She could almost feel the breath just behind her ear. The way he shows restraint despite the fact he just wants to go for it.
The way he gets excited because she shows excitement.
The list is endless.
When was the last time? So long ago.
She scrolls through her social media. Unwinding after a long day. She notices someone.
A childhood friend.
It's almost like something was awakened inside of her. She always wanted to be close with him but she was a loyal women with eyes only for her husband.
Now that it was over she decided to take a chance and talk to her friend from long ago.
His name was Sean and he was her first long term male friend. He was funny but most of all, he never ridiculed her for her weight issue. She always admired him but he had his eyes for another.
Well, they weren't kids anymore. It's been 15 years give or take. Life has happened and they've had their experiences.
Around their 30s now, they have changed in many ways.
She messaged him.
Casual conversation.
Asking about friends, family, life.
He opened a bit of himself to her so after a bit of some time she opened up about her divorce. He listened and understood. Before she knew it, the feelings came and washed over her.
She began telling him how deprived she has been of late. She got sex at least twice a week with her ex-husband. She felt like her body was firing up.