Trust.
I have always been taught that trust must be earned and once broken, it will never be repaired. It was one of those things my father said as I was growing up. He was one of those rough and tumble guys who shook hands when entering agreements with someone. And if one broke that agreement, well...let's say he didn't do business with that person again. It was one reason why Matt and I were as tight as we were. Even when he was schmoozing with folk through high school and beyond, I knew he always had my back.
This comes up because I heard talk around the office about Marcie. I was never asked directly, but some thought that Marcie had a side piece as they call it. Or they thought Marcie was with me because of my financial status or whatever. This was because she is such a beautiful woman. Many who work with me had seen Missy, my late wife. They thought the same about her except it was before the business took off.
Now, I know what you're thinking. These folks thought this because I am unattractive, right?
First, ouch.
Second, I want you to know that in both situations, they approached me first. Missy introduced herself to me while we were at college, and we hung out before I asked for a date. Marcie, as most readers know (Good Neighbors 1) seduced me. Truth was, both ladies could have had any guy they wanted. They were both gorgeous. The fact each of them chose me at a time when they had their pick makes me feel like the most fortunate man in the world.
So why then would folks do that? Jealousy. With Missy, I had a beautiful woman who allowed me to be driven for success. She dealt with my anger management issues by allowing me to have an outlet to focus them on. She was the spirit behind our marriage. The only time she didn't fully trust me was when she received the cancer diagnosis. She was scared because she thought my drive would stop. It was a combination of my therapist and Marcie who convinced her to tell me. The last few months of her life, I made sure she knew she was the most important woman in my life.
So, what about Marcie? The first time I knew she trusted me was when she took me to a swinger's club (Good Neighbors 32). This was after she drove me to a strip club where her friend, Nikki, gave me my only lap dance from someone other than her. She drove me to the swinger's club after and proceeded to help relieve my stress. Then when propositioned by another guy to join in for a threesome, she declined. She knew I told her that I was a monogamous man, and she took it at face value. That night, she saw that I was honest.
As an exercise during our play time, if we want to do something different, asking about trust is always the first step. I would never make Marcie do something she was uncomfortable with. It's one reason we never had other partners or went to a dungeon or some other things. I love Marcie with all my heart and would never want to destroy that trust for that very reason. Likewise, Marcie knows my limits as well.
So one night, when I texted Marcie about dressing up to go out prior to getting home from work, she was curious at to what I was thinking. So, she called.
"Hello, Amor," I answered when I hit the button on my console.
