Lay there my angel; my One; so removed from this world and moment, arrested and motionless ; still and indifferent To your Protector and Shield; the One who has desired you for so many seasons ; so many days and countless nights; and who has wished to have you - and to enjoy the warmth of your passion and embrace, and to taste the sweetness of your tears and sorrows.
Our flesh has never had the chance to dance or sing together, or to walk side by side through the halls of life ; or feel the refreshing waters of the falling rain or the warming waters of a morning bath. Our hands have never felt the softness of the other's skin, or the smoothness of the other's back, that table and harbor of the Earth's weight and anchor. No, my sleeping child and angel we have only been able to enjoy our desires and temptations silently and secretly, far removed from the worlds stare and judgment ; where shadows rest and time falls continuously down the walls which separate our hopes, wishes and dreams.
I have wished to visit you in your dreams time and time again. I have longed to awaken you behind your diamond midst of slumber where you play in the field of dreams, dancing to star drops and rainbow fountains, and mountains made of snow, and lakes filled with honey and cream, but our time was not right. There are many obstacles yet to cross and gulfs yet to be enjoined.
I have fought many battles during our separation and have heard of your plights with Satan's beast as well. Our many scars bear witness to the power and temper of Lucifer's dragons ; the conspiring demons who strip us of our dignity, rob us of our strength, and play against our hearts and emotions rendering us bitter and angry. They have told me of your many trials and about the enemies which have placed themselves just outside your gates and who have taken from you the few remaining treasures you have held deep within the secure and private chambers of your heart. Many stories have made their way to me ; telling of your courage and bravery and the fortitude and tenacity of your unyielding soul. I am very proud of you and marvel at your wisdom and insight and at your ability to deflect the darts and arrows of your adversaries. I was told how you also demonstrated a power and strength far greater then a team of a thousand horses; the occasion when you finally mastered the inner demons of your own heart and forced the self destructive natures of vengeance and retaliation aside. With this I was very well pleased and felt my passions and desires for you thicken as I learned of your victories and of the battles you won against your enemies and emotions.
For many days now I have listened and watched and allowed our fates to move closer and closer ; neither resisting this current nor attempting to influence the pattern or outcome of this ensuing stream. I have remained alert and attentive to the call of the gods ; but have done my best to station myself just close enough to be used if asked of me ; yet far enough to minimize the growing fire which has continued to burn within my soul. But never have I allowed myself the chance to forget those few times so long ago; when our paths crossed for the first time and when we shared for a small moment similar destinies and fates. And when we shared each other's cup and bread, and when we spent a few secret moments together offering insight and thoughts on our lives and on the people and dogs who wanted everything from us but offered nothing back but the razors and knives which even through this day remain logged and embedded deep within our backs and souls.
