This is an excerpt from a story which I wrote called "A Stranger At The Well". The story is a fairy tale, set in another time and place. Rachel is not a modern day character. She is eighteen, but naive and ingenuous, having been raised in isolation before she meets Donald, a more worldly and experienced person, who falls in love with her and marries her in a private ceremony on her small farm.
Donald could not help wondering how much Rachel understood about the part of marriage that took place between sundown and sunup. She was a virgin in the purest sense of the word, in every element of her being, and he dared not change that roughly. She deserved the most tender handling.
When she laid down on the mat with him at night, she seemed to welcome his presence as a natural thing and to curl up into him as easily as a kitten with its litter-mates. Donald sometimes kissed her playfully on her cheeks and forehead, and rubbed her back and arms. She would smile and giggle at the tickling sensation of his tongue and lips, gently nibbling at her.
But once, when he had moved to her mouth and put his lips on hers, a surge of sensation had brought his body suddenly into tension, and he had pulled her to him, kissing her with hunger.
Rachel had become immediately rigid. If Donald was hungry, then she was the prey, and she didn't like that feeling. Donald had felt her response, and released her at once, dismayed to realize what he had secretly suspected--that her desire for him was as yet unawakened.
"I'm sorry," he had murmured, slightly embarrassed by the intensity of his own reaction.
Rachel felt bewildered by the sudden predatory feeling she had gotten from Donald, but he hurried to reassure her, asking cautiously, "Can I just hold you?"
"Well...alright," she had agreed.
So he had carefully placed his arm over her and lay still, putting space between his energized body and her timid one until he felt calm again.
* * * *
After their fanciful private ceremony, Donald and Rachel had returned to their shack hand-in-hand.
Rachel didn't know what to do next. There wasn't much she could do in this confining dress. What else did one do on their wedding day?
Donald suggested a picnic lunch, and Rachel thought that a perfect idea.
When they had spread out the blanket and food in the back field, they sat and fed each-other. It was another of Donald's good ideas.
"How fun!" Rachel thought, chewing the dried apples Donald dropped into her open mouth. She laughed as he playfully nipped her fingers when she thrust the bread and cheese in his mouth, and gargled the water she poured into it.
With their stomachs full, Donald pulled Rachel into his lap and leaned against one of the ancient oaks that stood in the field. He had thought it through carefully, and he decided that now was the right time to address her backward upbringing. He plunged ahead, hoping it would be well-received.
"Can I ask you something?" he began.
"Yes."
"Well, you know that people marry so they can raise a family, right?"
Rachel nodded.
"Well...is that something you want to do?"
"Oh, yes!" Rachel replied, swelling with enthusiasm at the idea. Just as she had never expected to marry, she had never thought of having children. But once it was proposed, the idea excited her. How sweet to have a tiny baby to love!
"Well, Rachel...Do you know how children come into the world?"
"Well, I know how baby lambs come into the world," she offered.
"...And, do you know how they get into their mother's belly?"
"They just start growing there."
"How?"
"I don't know. It's magic."
"Would you like to have some of that magic?" he asked hopefully.
Rachel grinned. "I sure would."
Donald felt desire trickling into his loins. He paused and took a breath in preparation for the revelation to Rachel. Then he looked deeply into her eyes.
"It's the ram that gives the magic to the ewe," he stated.
Rachel stared blankly, and then jolted upright, jumping away from him and grimacing with a sudden remembrance.
"No!" she protested. "No! That ram--he was nasty!--And noisy!--And that ewe, she yelled! She didn't like what he was doing at all! She ran away from him, and he caught up with her, and she squealed and squealed!"
"Rachel..." Donald interrupted, realizing he hadn't quite managed to convey what he had hoped...
"Rachel," he cajoled. "It's not like that at all...I mean..."
His words trailed off without a sure direction.
Then he tried again. "Rachel, it's not the same with people...Oh, Rachel..."
He suddenly felt weak with longing for her. How could he tell her what he was feeling? Surely, she was feeling something too.
He took her hand. He closed his eyes. A wave of desire moved through the mid-line of his body, its origin indistinct, coming at once from his heart and his groin.
"Can you feel that?" he asked.
Rachel closed her eyes. A sudden, warm current seemed to move to her insides.
"I love you, Rachel," Donald whispered.
And Rachel understood, in a moment, in an instant. Love.
He took her hand and began to kiss it softly, holding it against the smooth skin of his shaven cheek. He took her other hand and pressed it together with the first, locking them together in silent prayer and sealing them with kisses.
Holding her clasped hands in one of his, he pulled her toward him, laying her head against his shoulder. He stroked her hair gently, and closed his eyes, rocking slowly back and forth.
The day was warm, and Donald removed the dark jacket he had worn for the ceremony. Suddenly, Rachel was worried about her dress. She tried to jump up, but Donald held her, commenting, "Don't worry about it. I'll take care of it later. You look so beautiful in it. Lie down."
So she reclined on the blanket, and Donald propped himself on his arm, leaning over her with his other arm for support. He placed his lips to Rachel's, watching her eyes. She stared back at him.
"Close your eyes. Relax," he murmured, kissing her again. He kissed her cheeks and her forehead, gently brushing his cheek against her wispy eyelashes. He kissed her chin and her jaws and her neck, breathing softly on the skin made wet by his mouth.
He returned to her mouth, his breaths becoming longer and deeper. His tongue moved evenly across her lips, gently pressing them apart. He explored her mouth with his tongue, and she opened it to receive him.
He pulled away to look at her, reached for a tendril of her hair and arranged it around her shoulder. It curled gently over her breast. He leaned forward and kissed her chest, brushing his blond curls against her skin and nuzzling his nose softly into the folds of her dress, as they heaved softly with her breathing. A sweet longing swelled in her breast, and she wanted to hold him close, as she had held the baby lamb.
He ran his hands up and down her torso, her arms and shoulders. The sensation in her breast spread to every part of her body he touched, and a strange yearning rose up deep in her bowels.
Unfastening the buttons of her gown, Donald kissed the white flesh of her breasts passionately, sucking the skin tenderly into his mouth. When he reached the nipples, he sucked hungrily on them, and Rachel remembered the lamb again, pulling on its mother's teats.
She felt her body responding to him with new and powerful feelings. He looked at her with gleaming eyes, and professed, "You're so beautiful. I love every inch of you."
As he returned to her breasts, Rachel became aware of a pressure against her leg. She flashed on the ram, and she couldn't get the ewe's bleating out of her mind. She felt suddenly frightened, panicky.
Donald stopped kissing her, feeling her abrupt withdrawal.
"Rachel, " he promised. "I'll never hurt you. And I'll never force you to do anything you don't want to do."
He sat up and rested his arms on his knees, with his broad back to Rachel. He took two long breaths, closing his eyes and willing against nature for the river to flow backward.
Finally, he asked, "Would you do me a favor, Rachel? Would you stroke my back?"
"Oh, yes. I will," she volunteered, reaching her arm up from her supine position. She stroked firmly and willingly, running her long fingers through the wiry hair on his shoulders and back.
"My body is yours to explore, just as you like," he reassured. "I don't want to scare you, Rachel."
"Alright," she agreed. She felt calmer, as they backed away from the abyss that had appeared without warning.
He laid down, and she rubbed her firm hands across his chest and belly, stopping now and then to bury them in the curly hair that accented the muscular lines of his sun-bronzed chest and abdomen.
"My father had hair like this," she commented. "It used to mat together when I poured the water over him in the washtub."