Lauren
Four
Lauren stood at the gate, coffee cups in hand. The gangway was fairly steep due to a low tide, so I was looking up at a vision.
My heart went 'thunk'. Again.
Long legs leading to short, tight, form fitting white shorts. A blue blouse capped with her honey - blonde hair. No matter what she had to say I was probably a goner.
"Hi John, I brought a peace offering."
"I didn't know we were at war. Come, we'll talk on the boat."
"Be careful, the ramp is steep. I'll take a cup so you'll have a hand free."
The way she walked along the floats it was obvious she'd never been on one before - often first timers tend to stay in the center, walking carefully.
"Is this your boat? Blue Moon? That's a beautiful name."
I helped her aboard, pointing to seating in the cockpit. "Blue Moon was one of my mother's favorite songs. Dad named her for mom."
We sat sipping coffee. I was determined to let her go first since she wanted this. I didn't mind the view, She was just as beautiful as ever.
"This is a beautiful boat. You said your father named it?"
"Yes, I was twelve, dad had been looking for something like this for about a year. He wanted a decent sailer, but at the same time enough engine power to get home properly. So he bought a motor-sailer. Mom loved it because when the sun was too much she could retreat to the wheel house for the shade, but still have a good view, rather than being down below with just a couple ports to look out."
Again we sat in silence.
Finally she sighed. "you're probably wondering why I called after all this time ..."
I waited. I wasn't trying to make anything hard on her, but I wasn't going to fluff off what she had said either.
"John, I owe you at the very least an explanation, and probably - no, certainly - an apology."
Looking at something on the water, or another boat, anything but me, she began; "One of my co-workers, Margaret, she's older than me, married with kids. She asked me if something was wrong. I tried telling her it was nothing, but last week she took me to lunch, with drinks, and told me to 'spill it'. I denied there was anything but she called me out. Said I'd been moping around the office, just radiating sadness. She had known about my ex, the way he'd controlled me, verbally abused me. She was concerned I'd gotten into a similar situation again."
She took off her glasses and looked over at me.
"I told her about our date, the way you took charge and ordered everything and how that made me feel. She asked if you had done anything inappropriate. I had to say that honestly you hadn't. 'Girl, I wish my husband would do that every once in a while'. That's what she said."
She watched a gull paddling by.
"She made me think. You didn't do anything but be a perfect gentleman with a lady on a first date."
Her eyes shifted to the gull again.
Then came back to me; "John, I am oh so sorry I reacted the way I did. See, I feel something for you and it scares me because i don't want to be in another relationship like before."
Her tears were heart breaking.
I pulled her into my arms and just held her. I don't know how long we sat like that, but she finally sat back and asked for a tissue. I had a box in the wheel house. She wiped her eyes and blew her nose. Her mascara had run and some of the color she'd daubed on her cheek had rubbed off on my shirt.
She was beautiful.
Yeah, yeah, I know I'm a sucker. Hell, I was suckered when she first joined me at the coffee shop table.
But, I have my limits. I am quite willing to compromise, even apologize when I'm wrong, but I won't kow tow. I was about to find where she was going with her apology and crying.
"John, can we start over?"
At least she was smart enough not to pull the 'I must look a mess' routine. I might have escorted her off the boat.
"If you mean having coffee, sure. If you mean a date, maybe. I don't know about beyond that. I'm not playing any games here. I've been burned too, so I'm just a bit leery of where you're coming from."
It was my turn to stare off and away. "My ex wife was a manipulative bitch. That's not a term I use easily. It took me almost five years to learn the truth."