I awakened to the faint scent of coffee, so I knew Todd had been up for awhile. Yet, I could not quite will myself to get up, because a new sense of well-being and contentment seemed to engulf me. But then, I began to doubt. I wondered if last night had been a dream. Maybe, it had all been a dream.
How could I have reacted so sensuously to Todd's body? Last night my body behaved in a way I had never experienced before with the one man I have made love to for over forty years. How could my body respond in a way that I did not even know existed? I am sixty-two, and I behaved as if I were a wanton whore moaning and screaming out in ardent love making and then giggling and laughing as cum came gushing and jetting out of me. Yes, it could have been an odd dream that brought out something sexually in me that I must have read about sometime during my life.
And then I remembered the towel. I rolled onto my side to look down at the floor. There was the rumpled bath towel. I picked it up and was surprised at its extra weight. "That cannot be full of cum," I thought. Suddenly, I was aghast as I realized that Todd had not been honest with me. "No, it had to be pee," I insisted.
I threw the covers off and walked naked over to our closet. I stood in front of the sliding mirror doors and smiled at the curves of my body. No, I was not a thin Barbie doll but had a voluptuous toned body. I always marveled how much it looked like the full-figured goddess body carved in stone by ancient cultures. Suddenly, my mind went back to several days ago when I had put on my most seductive attire to deliver my letter of appeal to Santa's helper.
"Such a silly idea and almost manic behavior," I said to myself. "No, it was manic and very unrealistic to write Santa for help in restoring passion to our marriage," I said to myself with a chastising look.
I put on my warm purple velveteen robe that tied around my waist. I enjoyed how it revealed my cleavage and draped open to expose my thighs when I crossed my legs. I went into the kitchen and found Todd rinsing the dishes from last night's dinner. "Odd," I thought, wondering why he was not in his office checking on the stock market.
"Good morning, Beautiful," he said with a broad smile as he turned to the sound of my footsteps. I wondered how it was that he did not get cold in his black tee shirt and black thigh-hugging briefs. Suddenly, I found it difficult to meet his eyes, and I realized that I had become shy around him. He must have sensed my reticence, because he immediately asked, "What?"
I reached across the counter for the glass carafe and poured myself a cup of coffee. Then I walked over to the little dinette table in the kitchen nook and sat down on a chair. Todd followed my lead and joined me. I stared into the black liquid for a few moments before speaking.
"I peed while making love last night. You behaved so gallantly, but I peed, and I am so embarrassed," I confessed.
"I will be right back," replied Todd.
I sat there wondering where he had gone. I thought about how he often seemed to excuse himself when I was almost in mid sentence. Then I'd find him checking the scores of some ball game or stock market trends. He would apologize for having become distracted. At times, I would become jealous as if some mistress that I could not compete against had once again seduced him.
Yet, Todd returned quickly. "Come follow me," he commanded. I did not dare defy that look of authority, which he rarely displays.
"What?" I asked.
"Just come with me," he repeated.
Todd took my hand and guided me into our guestroom that also serves as his office. "I want you to sit down and look at this," he instructed. I hid my frustration, because I was not it the mood to look at some chart to see how his investments have met his goal. A positive stock market was not going to take away my humiliation.
"Sit down and click at this arrow."
The photograph on the monitor surprised me. My eyes rested on a nude dark-skinned man with a huge erection preparing to place his cock into the slit of a slender young blonde who was reclining on a chaise lounge. "Why do I want to see this?" I wondered silently. However, I behaved, and I clicked the arrow, which turned a stationary picture into an erotic video.
"Now watch," said Todd.
And there it was. Suddenly a stream of liquid was spurting upwards from the woman's cunt. It happened over and over as the long hard erection teased the lips of her vulva as well as thrusting deeply inside of her.
"That is what you did last night. You squirted and gushed. You have always gotten wet, just not so profusely."
"How do you know about this?" I asked. "No, that is not what I mean. How is it you knew about this but never told me?" I asked somewhat irritated that such an experience had been kept a secret from me.
"I believe that lots of people know about this, even though it is almost a taboo topic for conversation," explained Todd. "However, I only thought that a few women did it. I did not understand how it was that women ejaculated like this, so there was no reason to ever tell you."
"As I said, you have always become wet for me, and I believed that was very natural," he added. "And then, I figured that after menopause, you would have less interest in sex due to the changes in your body. So, why would I give you this information about squirting?"
Todd's explanation made sense. But now I had to wonder how much there was to Todd that I did not know. After more than forty years of marriage, I am suddenly discovering that he not only reads erotica and but watches videos of women squirting cum all over her partner's balls.
"He always seemed to act like such a pure and gallant boy scout," I thought silently. And suddenly I began to realize something. Had I always responded to him sexually as if he were a pure and gallant boy scout? If such a thing were possible, could that mean that I responded to him all these years as if I were a pure girl scout? Is it possible that we each played some role of "proper sexual partners" (whatever that means), while desiring to explore more luscious titillations? Had my erotic writing really opened some new door?
Images of last night's love making flooded into me, and I broke into a belly laugh soon followed by a fit of hysterical laughter. "I squirted!" I exclaimed.
Todd was standing behind the chair. He reached from behind me and stuck his hands into my robe. He squeezed each heaving breast. I felt his warm breath on my neck as he began kissing me behind my ear while twisting my nipples. "Oh, God!" I exclaimed as an intense throbbing of my insides stifled my laughter. "No, we can't. You will be late to the gym," I protested.