Jeanette sat down at her desk after fetching a pen and box of old stationary. She could not remember how long it had been since she had written a letter by hand. Her hand trembled anxiously when she touched the ballpoint to the page, but two deep breaths steadied her penmanship.
Dear Sir,
Over fifty years have passed since I have written. But, the past ten years have torn at my heart. In fact, I believe that I was robbed of the enjoyment of a significant portion of my greatest sexual prime due being incarcerated within grief's prison for over a decade. No, it is not my grief that I am talking about. Everyone I love has been affected by grieving; my husband, Todd, most of all. That is what happens when a young life is taken; although, death always comes too soon.
I could have followed my friends and family members out of grief's prison. Years ago, they accepted parole one-by-one when the return of happiness unbolted their cell doors. I chose to remain behind in my cell next to Todd's even though my acceptance of our loss had dissolved all the imaginary iron bars.
Todd refuses to believe that his confinement has been self-imposed all these years even though I've tried to explain it differently. There are times when reason just cannot convince the mind to release the grip of painful emotions. I have tried to live in peace with this.
But, this is not the place to go into such details, because I suspect you know all of this. It is just that Todd and I are both getting older, and I do not want to allow grief to rob us of any more passion. I know I cannot have my son back, but what about my husband?
I just cannot believe that I must live in a platonic relationship with the man whose simple smile or kiss on my cheek has caused my body to quiver, belly to spasm, and nether regions to throb for over forty years.
Now, Todd just rolls over and bids me goodnight. Sadly, I have run out of ideas for rekindling that fire within his loins. I have been very patient and loyal to him in spite of my desperation. Okay, I do stray in my mind. I imagine all kinds of delicious affairs, but I have never acted on any fantasy. And that is nothing new; this happens in one way or another to everyone. Yet, again, I must not digress.
As you are aware, I am still an attractive woman in spite of my sixty-two years. My greatest defense against aging is my mind. I keep my mind young by imagining myself as a young vixen in spite of the wrinkles at the edges of my eyes and skin losing it tautness around my neck.
Your helper must have observed from my sexy short dress worn over a low-cut plunge bra that my full chest and voluptuous cleavage still attract wandering eyes. The mid-hip length shows that my shapely legs carry me with lively steps that create a natural sway of my hips.
I can still capture the gaze of any man with my sensuous smile and coquettish demeanor that suggests, "I can see you, and you are quite saucy even though I am not available." I see my recipients' shoulders straighten up, and their gaits become a bit more assured and purposeful. I believe that strokes their egos. And, the change in their posturing assures me that "I still have it." Yes, it is a two-way street.
But, I must keep myself from becoming tangential. Yes, I must stay focused and remain on topic, because my mind has already trotted off with some imagined stately gentleman who turns around and sprints after me. He walks beside me divulging all the delights that his masterful skills are going to offer me. Oh, how I stray!
What I am trying to explain is that Todd is the man who I desire. It is my husband that I want back, but I have no idea how to reignite his passion. I need help. I know my appeal is out of the ordinary, but I just have to believe that you are the one who can assist me.
You are the recipient of my plea for one main reason, or maybe there are many reasons. I could have written God, Jesus, Mother Mary or some pious saint. But, there is a problem as far as I see it. I cannot find anything written in the scriptures suggesting that any of "Them" had enjoyed a passionate sexual relationship. I could digress deeply here, and it takes all my focus to stay on track.
Maybe I am incorrect to place God in this group, because certain scriptures were created by the pens of a select group of men under the scrutiny of one king who must have wanted to ban sensuality.
I have to marvel at the ancient sculptures of gods and goddesses entwined in sensuous embraces. No wordsβjust pictures that do not require any interpretation. But, oh, how my mind wanders here and there.
Yet, you are a saint. I used to write to you, and you always fulfilled my wishes when I was a child. Plus, you have been married for eons, so you must know what it takes to remain passionate for one's true love and the deep longing for the sexual reunion that can restore a couple to the depths of their souls.
So, Santa Claus, here is my question. If something tragic happened within your world, and you mourned so deeply that you could not be guided back into your senses, what might bring you back? What might arouse passion within your mind and set fire to your loins in a way that brings back that twinkle in your eyes for Mrs. Santa and your jovial laugh after taking delight in her treasures?
I must believe that you, too, must have experienced some kind of tragedy eons ago, overcame it, and even grew through it to become the everlasting passionate great jovial St. Nicholas. I must believe that you know some secret that keeps your marriage to Mrs. Santa young, and if so, might just be willing to share it.
That is what I desire, my dearest Santa. I want to reignite my marriage with the fires of passion. I know I have been good enough, so I believe you will answer my appeal. I will watch for signs.
With deep gratitude for your assistance,
Jeanette
Jeanette folded the two-page letter and put it into an envelope. She pulled the adhesive strip away from the flap and sealed the letter once again missing that unique taste of glue that had once set memories of mailing a correspondence. Now, she often forgot if she had mailed letters. However, this letter was not going to be mailed.
She went to her closet and then placed her sexiest short low-cut dress and a complementary pair of two-inch heels across the bed. Jeannette pulled a matching set of red-laced string bikini panties and plunge bra from her drawer. She stood in front of the mirror and opened her floor-length silk robe. She began to study herself as the deep burgundy robe fell off her shoulders and onto the floor. Denuded, she nodded her approval.
Jeanette's eyes admired the shapely padded curves outlining her rather short stature of only five feet. Her chest always reminded her of an upside down heart. She smiled at the symmetrical fullness of soft muscles followed by full breasts that lifted gently upwards while resting on her upper ribs. The image along with the soft pink areola tips still caused Todd's eyes to widen.
Although her belly, hips and derriere had plumped into full womanhood, the effect created an hourglass shape rarely extoled by the media. Yet, she had seen the same image in many Renaissance paintings. "Todd exclaims his adoration any time he sees me nude," she thought.