I've finally done it. It's taken months, of depriving myself of desserts and carbs, of walking on a treadmill until my feet protested, of daily weighings, but I finally hit my goal weight. The lightest I've been in 20 years. I have, little by little, started to enjoy buying and wearing clothes again. When my weight reached a plateau and wouldn't budge for weeks, I kept my resolve by promising myself something really special if and when I hit my target. And I have. I treated myself to a turquoise blue, shimmery, silky teddy. The top is lace that is a little see-through, just enough for a peek of nipple here and there. The thin straps that hold it up are easy to slide down my shoulders, letting it drop to the ground in one quick movement. Looking in the mirror, I feel like a gift-wrapped present waiting to be opened. I can't wait to show it off, to feel his hands touching my body through it, pulling the top down enough to get a nipple in his mouth.
I wait for an evening when I know we'll have the house to ourselves and plenty of time. I greet him at the door with a glass of his favorite whiskey and tell him to relax for a minute, that I have a treat for him. A while ago, I read a book set in a strip club, and it gave me the perfect idea of what to do. I run up to the bathroom and change into my new lingerie. I've been sipping the whiskey as well, to make me a little more daring and less self-conscious. I come downstairs in my new outfit and enjoy the look of surprise, and then of appreciation on his face. He reaches out to touch my hip; I feel the warmth of his hand through the material. His hands are warm, but they make me shiver.