I was probably about ten when I first fell in love with Matt. At the time, I figured it was just puppy love – infatuation. But now I know it's real love. No one stays infatuated with someone for nine years. Yes, I've had a few boyfriends before, but I've never loved anyone as much as Matt. Matt has been best friends with my brother Sam for as long as I can remember. Both of them are a year older than me. He's always been gorgeous. I think of him like stage lighting. If you want a play to seem really bright for the entire play, you begin with something like seventy-five percent light to start and slowly increase it so that the audience never gets used to the brightness. The same goes for Matt. When I was ten he seemed beautiful to me. I made a collage of all of the pictures of him that I could find and hid it away. I could spend hours just staring at that piece of paper.
He has dark brown hair, softer than any I've ever felt. It's long for a guy, probably just past his ears. He has beautiful black eyes that I could just lose myself in. His lips look so soft and silky. I've never felt them, but I fantasize about it. He has broad shoulders and a wide back that I love. He started working out a few years ago so he has a nice six-pack and well-defined muscles, but not body-builder status. He has his own cologne that no one else uses. It's not just the Axe or Tag that everyone uses but a musky, masculine scent with spicy touches that makes me just lose my mind.
I used to have trouble making myself take a shower or shave or follow any hygiene at all, but a few years ago I started to pretend I was getting ready for a date with Matt and ever since it's been no problem. It's easy to shower every day, thinking I need to get my hair smelling nice for Matt. I keep my mound clean-shaven for Matt as well.
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I wake up on Saturday morning, just a week after my nineteenth birthday, with a beam of sunlight piercing the darkness and shining directly in my eye. I squint and roll over, stretching to wake up. I yawn and cuddle into my covers for a few minutes before sitting up and stepping out of bed. I rub my eyes as I open the doors to my walk-in closet. I enter and laugh as I see my reflection in the mirror. I am the poster-girl for bed head. I go to my lingerie drawer and pick out a pink silk thong with a little bow at the top and a push-up bra that shows off my B cups flawlessly. I tousle my hair as I scan my clothes. I pick out a cute new pair of jeans that show off my well-rounded ass perfectly. I slip them on my toned legs and examine my reflection in the mirror. Satisfied, I pick out a shirt. I find a slinky silk top with thin straps that skims my curves and flaunts them to their best advantage. I take my brush to my hair, combing out the tangles that linger in my waist-length, midnight-black hair. I spread some de-frizzer through it, and swish it behind my back. I locate my eyeliner and draw a harsh black line under each of my pale blue eyes. I line the top lids and spread some dark grey shadow on. I apply a light coat of powder and some lip gloss before smiling into the mirror and going downstairs. I see a note on the kitchen table.
"Went to Sam's soccer tournament. Will be back around 9:00 p.m. - Mom, Dad, and Sam"
I smiled. I loved having the day to myself. I made some toast, ate it, and went to brush my teeth. I popped a mint into my mouth. I was just coming out of the bathroom when I heard a knock on the door. I peeked into the driveway and saw Matt's car. An excited feeling weighed in my stomach. I dashed back to the bathroom to check my reflection. I gave my hair a toss, took a deep breath, and opened the door. I pretended to look surprised.
"Oh, hi Matt!" I said.
"Hey Steph," he said, his eyes looking me up and down, then lingering on my ass. He blushed when he saw I noticed, and hastily said, "Is Sam there?"
"No, he's got some soccer tournament all day."
"Oh. Okay. I guess I forgot." He said.
"Yeah, me too." I said with a smile.
"Beautiful day, huh?" He said.
"Yeah, it really is."
"How'd you like to go on a walk with me?" Matt asked. My heart jumped.
"Sure," I said, hoping I didn't sound too enthusiastic. I slipped on my flip flops and exited, walking next to Matt. He smiled as I walked out the door, and we walked slowly along the sidewalk. We didn't talk for the first few minutes. Finally, Matt brought up an easy subject. Work. He was working at the local bike shop. I smiled. His family was really rich so he didn't need to work. He got $100 allowance a week. However, he did love bikes. He was probably working there because he actually liked what he was doing. Unlike me. I was cashier at the supermarket because I desperately needed the pocket money. I hated my job. Anyway, we talked about that for about ten minutes, not caring when we branched into other subjects. I made a point of inching nearer to him when I walked. Finally he stopped and turned to face me.
"Do you have a boyfriend?" He asked.
"No," I said, my excitement growing. We finally stopped walking when we reached the park. We sat down on a bench, nice and close. After talking for another ten minutes or so, he slowly turned to me. He leaned in, and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. I kissed back. He took this as encouragement, so we started kissing more. Soft at first, then getting faster. We realized that people were watching us, so we walked back to my house, holding hands. As soon as we walked in the door, he had me up against a wall, pressing into me while his velvety lips and moist tongue massaged my lips. He kissed me little kisses on my cheek, eyelid, and ears before going back to my lips. He nibbled on my lower lip and I couldn't help but let out a little moan. He smiled as he pushed into me harder. I could see the little bulge in his pants. He realized that I noticed and blushed deeply, pulling away.
"Oh ... uh ... I'm sorry ..." he said, looking down.
"No, no, it's okay," I said breathlessly. I pulled him back to me and kissed him.
"I love you," he said.
"I love you too." I said, looking into his dark eyes.