This story is an idealized work of fiction. The setting, even though inspired by history, is by no means reflecting events of the past with historical accuracy. Essentially it is a love story that has been close to my heart for a long time now. Feedback is welcome. :o)
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Chapter 1 - Shattered Dreams
"Through a millennium we have prevailed upon this land, the throbbing heart of a bleeding continent."
The words lingered in Amalia's mind long after the flames had consumed her father's memoirs along with his letter and last words of instruction. Soon the mysterious glow of the fireplace would be the only reminder of the past. Century old family treasures, certificates bearing the seals of kings and rulers long gone, their genealogy and linage, even her brother's letters from the Eastern front were reduced to ashes that would soon turn cold and be forgotten along with her family's unfortunate history.
Averting her eyes she glanced out the window, far into the snow covered endless darkness that stretched across the lake.
Peaceful, just like the grave, she thought sadly.
Looking up she searched for stars through the thick mantel of the cloudy winter sky, just like she had done countless times when missing Rudolf.
"Should you miss me just look up and up and up, right into the night sky. The same stars you see will shine down on me, where ever duty calls me," he had told her comfortingly when saying goodbye.
She had just turned eighteen then and felt highly insulted for being talked to in such a childlike manner. Years later she stood there, trembling, gazing out into the same night sky, looking up and up and up and seeing nothing but the darkness that had befallen their world, the same empty darkness that must surround her brother now, out there, somewhere, abandoned in the cold soil of the tundra with no cross to bear his name.
The frantic knock on the door tore Amalia from her mourning, her maid entering with a feverish rush.
"My lady ... my lady we must hurry," Mariska panted breathlessly. "They're at the village already!"
As toddlers they had played together, down by the lake shore at times of peace. When the first war had become but a stinging wound to their mutilated homeland, another boring topic of debate for the gentlemen hunting alongside her father high up in the hills. Looking at Mariska now, her eyes bloodshot with worry, her face pale with fear, she couldn't help but wonder, did she look the same?
Her mother's room had remained unchanged. Her health had started to dwindle rapidly after learning of her son's fate last winter. By the time the forget-me-nots started to bloom, her soul was reunited with that of her beloved son. At least Amalia liked to think so.
The baroness' presence still lingered in her rooms, even as her daughter stepped in front of the antique dresser eying her own reflection in the mirror critically.
No, she didn't look like Mariska at all. The evening gown she had chosen for the night was a dark, shimmering black complimenting her pale complexion and emphasizing her slender beauty. The jewelery sparkled elegantly in the candlelight. Oil for the lamps had become a rarity and electricity was gone from their daily lives since the first days of the occupation. The pins in her dark hair matched her mother's most precious collier and ear rings perfectly. She touched up her make up with great care, as if perfecting a piece of art before gesturing for the rich fur coat.
Mariska caressed the soft material for a moment sadly then assisted the young lady in draping it over her shoulders.
A final glance into the mirror: a majestic view. At twenty one years of age she looked utterly adult, gracefully noble and seductively feminine. When she was a little girl, she had admired her mother in her long, beautiful evening gowns, watched her enthusiastically as she got dressed for the opera or one of the governor's famous parties in the city. The image starring back at her now from the mirror, so proud, so elegant, would have made people's head turn at any of those events, Amalia noted contently.
Mariska didn't dare to hug her farewell, her sobs echoing through the empty corridors and rooms of the summer estate as she ran, frantically, helplessly after being dismissed.
"God be with you, my lady," she had cried.
The young baroness watched her run, out of her mother's rooms, heard her hurry down the steps that led away from the west wing of the villa, heard her run and cry, run to die probably in the forceful arms of an invader.
Gunfire sounded from afar at first, bringing her attention back to the velvet box placed carefully on the dresser by the trembling hands of her maid. Amalia opened it slowly, greeting her companion for this night with respect. Certainly worthy of any noble lady in beauty and style.
Her gloved fingers slid over the fine craftsmanship carefully, lingering, much like a loved one's caress. The gunfire was drawing closer to the estate now, she could make out distinct shots and the occasional cry for mercy, sounds of defenders' and invaders' fear in the dark.
She picked up the weapon gracefully, intent on not giving the satisfaction of raping and killing an Orlay to any of those dogs howling outside the doors. Determined to save their family's honor and follow her father's silent instructions, carefully embedded in the final words of farewell he was able to send her from his prison. She was determined, she would not fail. And yet she couldn't help her eyes blurring with tears.
Her thoughts drifted to her secret, a wound so fresh, her father in captivity could not have known about. To the one person she had given her word to forget. Her broken promise. Erich.
And with him came a thunder of emotions crashing down on her, blurring her noble plan with doubts. Somewhere, out there, he was most likely dead by now, wasting away atop a heap of corps or maybe resting just like her brother, far away from his home, in an unmarked mass grave. Or if not, he had forgotten about her by now. If he was not dead yet, he was soon to die. So in the end he would follow and find her anyways, wouldn't he?
"Oh God have mercy, what am I doing?!" she cried out desperately.
And there, in the middle of her panic, with the gunfire of foreign arms singing their deadly melody right below her balcony, she remembered the words that were now but ashes, that didn't exist anymore but in her mind.
"Through a millennium we have prevailed upon this land, the throbbing heart of a bleeding continent."
She dropped the elegant little gun as if burned, her breathing quickening, her mind running frantically on it's own accord.
"Forgive me, forgive me! Please, forgive me" she pleaded breathlessly, tearing at the smooth, rich fur and the exquisite material of her gown.
The late baroness' collier broke into pieces and elegantly set, tiny sparkling stones flew across the room. Gems to be picked up by pigs in time. What had been once whole and of most precious value fell apart that night.
Darkness stretched across the lakeside, only illuminated by the occasional gunfire, until a tiny spark appeared on the Northern shore, growing slowly, steadily into an all consuming fire that brightened the cold winter night of the invasion across the lake, leaving but a few burnt walls of the summer estate of the noble Orlay family behind.
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She floated. Slowly, softly rocking and drifting away. A pleasant numbness engulfed her body and she finally felt peace settle over her mind.
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