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Violet
Things were going to get sorted. Slowly, maybe painfully. Not likely to end up perfect, but at least bearable.
We got back pretty late. Amelia opened the front door before David got his key in the lock. He was right, that she'd be angry. The first thing she saw was his lip, and she frowned with a trace of confusion. Then she saw the bruise on my cheek, and her eyes went livid. She shot David a glare.
He could've bullshitted about how we ran into some trouble, but of course, he wasn't a liar. The guilt was far too obvious on his face.
"For God sake, David," she snapped. She looked about ready to slap him, but that would be hypocritical, wouldn't it? She did nothing of the sort.
"It's okay," I said. "Please, really, it's okay."
She shook her head, but left us to it. We went upstairs, took a shower together, and went to bed.
*
The next day was mostly spent with Wesley. He was ready to talk, too. He'd been stewing and thinking, and now he finally made his mind up on how he felt... Or not. The three of us sat on David's bed for a couple of hours, going through everything.
"You know what pisses me off the most?" Wesley asked. "It's that I saw this. Well, not this, exactly. But there was always something about you that seemed 'off', Vi."
I couldn't forget him coming into social sciences and having a go at me, nor his very first introduction. "Yeah, I looked like a 'gang kid' to you, huh?"
"Well I was right, wasn't I?"
"Not exactly."
"Yeah, okay, it's your parents' gang, you're still basically in it."
"But I'm not-"
"Look, shut up, stop being pedantic. I thought you were just a bit of a shady bitch, but it was worse than that, wasn't it? I just feel like I had something, like some gut instinct, and I didn't follow on it."
"And you feel like this is your fault?"
"No, not really. Sorta. I dunno. I just hate the whole thing, I hate everything that's happened."
"What were you gonna do? Tell David not to be with me and fall out with him?"
David smirked and Wesley shrugged.
"Well, I did tell you not to fuck with my family, Vi. And you still went and did it. Worse than I ever expected."
"I know."
"It's so fucked up. I want to be angry at you but I just... I can't. I mean, I like you. And it's kinda not your fault, and it kinda is."
"For what it's worth, I'm really sorry, Wes."
"I don't want to be angry, that's what it is. I don't want to hate you, I don't want to lose you as a friend. I don't want you and David to break up. I don't want Dad and Darren to yell at each other. I don't want things to not be okay. And I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I don't know if I should be taking some kind of stand here, or just letting it all fade into history."
"Everything
is
gonna be okay," David said.
"Yeah, I guess. But I'm just really confused. It's like I don't have an opinion."
"You want more time to think?"
"No, I'm done, I'm fuckin' done thinking about this shit, man." He sighed. "I just want to move on. I mean, is that okay? Or does it mean I'm just ignoring this whole thing and not dealing with it?"
"Forgive but don't forget?" I offered.
He chuckled. "I guess that works. I dunno. I wanna know how you feel, Vi. What were you thinking?"
David snorted before I could come up with an answer. "What was going on in her head, right? Wes, don't even bother. I don't understand her.
She
doesn't understand her."
I tossed him a look, but didn't really take any offence. He was right, so what was the point? "What was going through my head, was that I had to do whatever it took to try and save my parents, because I knew they'd do the same for me."
"And that's it?"
"Yeah."
"I mean, you shot people. You killed people. You're not even gonna get in trouble for it. How do you feel about that?"
"Honestly, nothing."
"Nothing at all?"
"Nope."
There was a genuinely troubled expression on Wesley's face, and he looked at David. "Fucking hell, it's just like Tyler. He doesn't give a shit either."
"I know," David replied.
"And Dad. Zero fucks there."
"Darren shot people too," I said.
"Yeah, but he actually feels a bit bad about it."
"Wes, if we didn't kill them they were gonna kill us. Do you get that?"
"It's so fucked up."
"There was one I didn't kill," I said. "Because he was actually, well, nice to me."
There was a pause of silence, and even David looked at me with a frown.
"His name was Alex. When I... when I first got the gun out and shot Driscoll, he just stared at me, I guess in a kinda shock. But when the others went for me, he didn't move. And then when I pointed the gun at him, he just kinda held his hands up," I demonstrated, "and shook his head. So I didn't shoot him. And when I turned my back on him he didn't go for me."
"Well that's something," Wesley said.
"The police got him anyways, so I'm sure his life's not great right now, but at least he's alive, right?"
"So you're not a completely cold-blooded killer. Always good to know."
I had no idea why David suddenly got emotional. His eyes watered and he tried to wipe it away without much success. "God," he muttered. "I hate this too, Wes. I wish it'd never happened. I hate that I was right there through everything."
"Hey, mate..."
"I'm fine, it's just... When does Dad get home?"
"Well he said he was coming home early, so I guess that means three?"
*
Zack did get in around 3pm. David went downstairs to check up with him while I waited with Wes. Five minutes later he was back, and gestured for me to follow.
I was nervous. I didn't know what to expect. I entered the lounge with Zack casually sitting on the sofa in his suit, like he was some therapist and I was walking in to a session. I took an armchair, not sure I wanted to be within a certain distance of him. That hole in the plaster was still there.
David left after I'd sat down. I didn't know how I felt about it, but didn't have much time to think because I looked around to Zack leaning on his knees, staring right into my eyes.
"What do you want?" he asked.
"... What?"
He gave me a look - 'don't waste my time'. "What do you
want
?"