No, this couldn’t be happening, she thought. This was not something she would ever dream of doing, no, she was a “good girl”. She had never even had a one-night stand, how could she now want to do
this
? She couldn’t help but relive
that
day.
It was a warm late winter day, the kind that makes you know you’ve made it through the winter and that spring was on the verge of blossoming. I had had flights of fancy before, but something was brewing inside that was totally new. I had taken to calling it “My Awakening” in a sensual and sexual way. For so many years, I had repressed this part of my life, for various reasons. But those reasons no longer held the power they once had and this awakening was real to me. It wasn’t just a slight feeling either; it was looming large over my every thought. Rather incredible but oh so nice.
I had heard that women reach their sexual peak in their late thirties and early forties, well that was what this must be I figured. The strength of these emotions was compelling beyond my wildest imagination. In fact I’d never really had much imagination or experience when it came to sex. Well, no longer could I say that, for I had become more than imaginative and the astonishing thing was that I wanted to act upon my thoughts. Perhaps this was my “mid life crisis”, but it surely didn’t feel like a crisis, in fact the only crisis was
fulfilling