Sierra's approach to her huge emotional poser was first to wash her hair, something she did automatically after being at the beach. Then she creamed her skin leisurely. Those activities provided quality thinking time.
The bastard.
Harry had humiliated her and then as he haltingly tried to explain his action she was thinking perhaps he was rejecting her for some odd reason. Then as her initial surprise and hurt diminished she'd thought his explanation was beginning to sound...well...rational.
But the mean devil. Never had a male pulled away from her like that. She'd read about it in fiction, but always it had been the woman to falter, filled with some fear or a high sense of moral obedience seizing her.
But a male doing that? Males were programmed to go in like a hungry dog to sate their appetites in single-minded frenzy... well some of them.
But Harry had pulled away, sending her mind and emotions into a spin. He'd eased her out of that with his talking. She was aware he'd talked softly without any real attempt to persuade or manipulate. His influenced began to take hold and he transformed from a cad she'd felt like strangling into someone presenting her with the prospect of really falling in love.
This was very, very peculiar, decided Sierra, ensuring she filmed cream between her toes.
The man was amazing, in being able to pull away when almost into her slit (she only uses the c-word when supremely aroused and the pre-cum of her guy of the moment dripped on to her).
That really must have been an excruciating withdrawal for Harry, perhaps proving the sincerity of his subsequent explanation. But why he hadn't come clean with his thinking even when driving to the cabin? It would have saved them painful anguish.
An hour later Sierra had decided they would marry, having thought about it incessantly; but no way would he ever again be allowed to treat her like he had this morning. Such treatment was inhuman.
Harry was so different that he was exactly right for her. Clearly he'd allow her to run her own life without neglecting her or if he wanted change he'd talk it though, just as he had three hours ago after breakfast...after he'd had her writhing on that ancient and dirty floor rug screaming for his cock and everything that went with that.
Squirming at that recollecting she had wondered whether he'd be any good. Well, she'd be prepared to mark that one minute of frantic foreplay ninety out of a hundred. She'd all but ejaculated without his fingers near her clit or thrusting into her.
Atta boy Harry.
Yeah they would marry because it was destiny. His role of helping her to control the company, a public company but with her father and mother holding 51% of stock, and to take the company forward made it necessary for him to be at her side for a decade or more.
"I need you Harry," Sierra said aloud, accepting she'd always be a little flaky because nature had given her a wild streak and she didn't think in the nip and tuck orderly way most other people seemed to do. It wasn't anything to do with rich kid syndrome.
Saying that made her feel better and she was tempted to call him and say let the wooing commence. But why do that? The scoundrel deserved to sweat.
She'd already acknowledged coitus interruptus was a huge new experience for her and an unpleasant one because she hadn't been sexually satisfied, her emotions had been laid bare and she'd suffered a bit of an ear-bashing by a lover so earnest-faced that he looked like a teen-age preacher. She laughed at the absurdity of that image, and felt a lot better.
Sipping coffee, light opera wafting into her senses from one of her quieter CDs, Sierra wondered if wooers still brought red roses to the woman of their desire. A little later her door intercom sounded - "Courier package for Miss Bycroft."
"Bring it up," she said, pressing the electronic door lock release, tightening her robe and walking off to find her wallet to extract a tip. Someone must be filthy rich to commission a courier delivery on a Sunday, she mused, returning to the door.
Sierra walked to the elevator and the over-fed courier didn't even have to exit as she reached through to hand him a five and take the delivery - flowers.
She smiled at the card, just one word, 'Sorry'.
He was such a beautiful boy. They weren't red roses. She adored the twenty white carnations.
Sierra lay back on her leather armchair, flowers held lightly against her cheek. She thought this could make a scene in a movie and a tear rolled down that cheek into the flowers, not because she was posturing and she definitely was not unhappy, not now she was listening to Mirella Freni singing the haunting 'Un Bel Di' from
Madam Butterfly.
This was no co-incidence because the player had been set to repeated replay of this track before the courier announced his presence.
Sierra drifted into a nap, tears drying on her cheeks.
Fifty minutes later Sierra took the setting off replay, in case she was driving her neighbors mad, turning down the volume.
As she put the flowers into two vases she recalled that some weeks ago Harry had undertaken to arrive at a special place - the cabin - and seduce her when she decided to summon him there. Now she was immensely grateful he'd pulled away like that. It had been a heroic effort but she, too, now accepted she wanted their first union to be romantic, in fact she wanted it to be beautifully romantic, and then she could she tell him about her 'Un Bel Di' fixation without making it sound corny.
She grabbed her phone and called the poor man who might be wondering in despair what he'd done to her.
"Harry, I want romance!" she yelled into his ear, and cut the connection.
She'd only reached the count of nine when he called back. She settled into the chair for a long chat, heart pounding.
Finally she had to go, declining his eager offer to accompany her to the studio:
"There are times when I need to be alone Harry and this is one of them. Please don't take this personally."
The lovely man said he understood, and she knew he was sincere in saying that because he was one of those rare creatures on this land: a male who understood the ways of a woman.
* * *
Sierra took the bright lights and frantic action at the television studio in her stride, actually thinking there was far greater buzz, pushing and shoving and visual and sound chaos at a night in a crowded bar. She went through the 30-minute live interview in queenly calmness.
The young interviewer Linda Canon was understandably nervous, telling Sierra that the half hour 'live' was the biggest moment of her life and she was terrified.
"A few channels are taking it live. Many others are buying it for later viewing. I just cannot believe it."
Linda had been given a minder but Sierra asked the woman, who was the regular Sunday night Special interviewer if she would kindly sit somewhere out of sight.
"I'll settle her," Sierra promised.
Sierra told Linda that while this might be the biggest moment of Linda's life, to succeed she must cope with that. There would be many far bigger moments ahead of her.
"Try to imagine me going into the quarry. At the gates I was uptight and almost peeing my pants. Then the gatekeeper after looking at our media credentials waved us through and pointed out where 'the boss' was standing, waiting for us."
"From that moment I just slipped into professional mode and became a changed person, accepting I had a job to do to the best of my ability. It's easy Linda, remember when you charged into our newsroom desperate to be permitted to talk to me?"
"I could see you were shaking liking a puppy but it suited me to talk to you and I smiled and called to you and you went into professional mode. Believe me sweetie that will happen tonight."
"After your introduction you simply say, "Why did you do it, Miss Bycroft?"