Looking back at the "incident" with Eric, I tried to conceal and control my feelings. I tried to cast him in the light of a temporary, partly washed-off tattoo.
But in reality, Eric is more like an indelible tramp-stamp at the top of my ass. And eventually he'll have me on all fours with my butt in the air.
So, whenever I think about Eric, the tell-tail blush returns to my chest. I only hope it won't climb up onto my neck.
And that is my state of mind, as I wake, from my secret space, to the sound of Jeff's spoon tapping at the bowl of broth soup on his plate. The broth soup is my intentional metaphor and counter-weight to the sea of froth I willingly create.
"Jeff, i'm taking a road trip tomorrow to meet with a client."
"Good for you, it should be a nice day for a drive."
"Yes, I think so too. I'm taking the Carrera, it could probably use a few miles. I haven't driven it in a while, and it will be nice to have the top down."
"Sounds good," said Jeff.
And with that step off the edge, I put the decision to bed. And that bed was made for Eric, at least for the time being. Eric is up for the role, I think. If he plays for me, I'll no doubt pay for him, and only God knows how high that price will be.