The clouds are high. Probably means no rain. The wind is blowing. It's cold without a sweatshirt.
I am standing just above the high-water line, watching the surf. "I think the tide is coming in," I said out loud--to no one. There was no one within 150 yards of me. I had walked away from a busy section near the Pelican, a brewpub highly recommended by Mike, to find a deserted part of the beach.
Staring out to sea. This would make a great Ansel Adams black & white: "Lonely Man Watching the Sea." It reminds me of the Hemingway novel,
The Old Man and the Sea
. Except I am not old. And I am not supposed to be lonely at 28.
Gulls sweep overhead, squawking as they draw circles in the air above me. That is the totality of sound. Waves, wind, gulls.
I have come here to get away. Maybe 'run away' would strike closer to the truth. Liz, my wife of almost three years, announced 10 months ago she wanted a divorce. Out of the blue, as trite as that phrase is. It seems she had no complaints about me. She didn't like being married.
I don't buy it. I didn't buy that line then and I still don't. I think she was having an affair and wanted to pursue that, or perhaps pursue any person who crossed her path. Since we had no children and the house was mine before we met, the property division was simple and quick. She would have agreed to anything to end it quickly.
Funny thing is, a month after it was final, my grandmother died. She left most of her estate to my mother, her only child, but she left me--her only grandchild--the princely sum of $500,000. Liz filed a petition with the court to reopen the divorce, claiming I did not disclose my grandmother was old and dying. The judge told her to get lost, that an inheritance is not marital property anyway. He also scolded her attorney for filing the motion without any basis in law. My attorney said the judge was hinting to me to file a motion for attorney fees, but I had no stomach for any more fighting.
I graduated from Oregon State--OSU--with a degree in Computer Science. Then I went out of state for a couple of years to get an MBA. I was hired by a well-managed boutique software company in the Beaverton area. I was one of the early hires right after they got some major VC funding. The plan is to go public in 1-2 years. Since I have risen quickly within, I am considered one of the "main guys," whatever that means. At least that's what people in the company say.
All I know is I am paid a small fortune each year and bank a sizeable amount every month. I have no one to spend it on.
HR demanded that I use some of my accrued vacation time. They were a little testy about it. It seems I had not used any for the past four years. It's possible that had something to do with the divorce.
I called my best friend, Mike, and asked for suggestions. I told him I wanted solitude. Mike grew up in Newport, Oregon. He was in my first class at OSU, when we were first-semester freshmen. He became one of my closest friends and has remained so. A few years later, he introduced me to Liz, although he has since begged my forgiveness. "I will make it up to you," he promised.
I let my mind empty out as I watched the waves. Too soon, more thoughts intruded.
I don't have any firm plans. On Mike's suggestion, I rented a nice place in Pacific City. "Avoid places like Cannon Beach," he said. "That place is overrun by Portlanders." To Corvallis people, that was a damning epithet. "Pacific City is prettier. Check out the Pelican. There are other good restaurants as well."
More silence. Watching waves.
"Looking for company?"
Oh crap! There goes my peace. I turn to see. There is a woman standing about 8 feet away. I will just smile and say something about seeking solitude. Wait!
"Mindy! How are you?" Mindy had been one of a group of friends. Our group. Most of us met as freshmen at OSU and stayed together until graduation. I had always liked Mindy. I liked her a lot as a friend, but we never dated. I don't remember why that was. I do remember she was quiet, easy to overlook. But cute.
She walked over and gave me a hug. "I am great, Tom. It's really good to see you! How are you doing? I heard about Liz. The divorce."
"Well, then you probably know how I am doing. Between news of the divorce and me standing on this beach by myself. How about you?"
"Oh, you know. Life happens. I was engaged last year."
"Only engaged? Not married?"
"No, two weeks before the wedding I caught him in bed with my maid of honor."
"Had to get a new maid of honor?"
We both laughed.
"I'm sorry, Mindy. No one deserves that."
"I look on the good side. At least it wasn't two weeks after the marriage."
"Timing
is
everything, you know. Where are you living now?"
"In the Phoenix area."
Mindy shivered.
"Too long in Phoenix? Cold now in Oregon? Let's get out of the cold. Do you want to join me for lunch at the Pelican? Mike says I have to try it. I was planning to come back around sunset--he says they are great here--but I am starving now."
"That would be nice. We have more catching up to do."
An hour later
Mike knew of my love for root beer. The Pelican brews its own.
"Mike was right. The food here is great! What did you think, Mindy?"
"I loved mine, too."
"Mindy, I've been postponing asking a question. Why are you here?"
"You mean my appearance on a deserted beach at the precise moment you were also there didn't fool you?"
"It did seem to defy probabilities."
"Tom, I... um..."
Her eyes suddenly filled with tears.
"I came to see you, Tom."
"From Arizona?"
"Yeah. After I heard about Liz, I called Mike to get your number. I wanted to tell you how sorry I was. We got to talking and he told me you were coming here. He knew you were staying in Pacific City."
"So you knew where and when, but Mindy... why?"
"Tom, I guess this is where I have to put my heart out on the table. Remember when we met as freshmen? You were introduced to me by Mike. Wasn't he later your best man, also?"
"Yeah, Mike has been everywhere. I had forgotten he introduced us!"
"Well, he did. From almost that moment I had a huge crush on you."
"Seriously? Why did I never know that? I always thought you were really cute. You still are, you know."
"Thanks, Tom. I was too shy to let you know. I kept hoping you would ask me out. There were times I was determined to ask you out, but I died a thousand deaths instead. Finally, when we were seniors, I made up my mind to ask you out, come hell or high water. Before I had the chance, I found out you were dating some bimbo. That's probably unfair, but that's what she was to me."
"I never knew. I am so sorry, Mindy. Really. I would gladly have gone out with you. I can't even think why I never asked you out. I suppose I put you in my friend zone. That wild social life computer guys are known for must have clouded my thinking!"
"I am sure that was it!" She laughed.
I love her smile! In some way I had not yet put my finger on, she seems more vibrant, more self-assured than I remember.
'Tom, I was only attracted to one computer guy. He was a friend and the most handsome man I knew. I feel a little silly telling you this today. Like, 'Hey, I'll show up on a beach and ask him out now.' Great idea. I'm sorry. Maybe it was foolish to come."
More tears.
"Mindy, I'm flattered you did this. That's not the right word. I am thrilled, I am almost moved to tears. I want to kick myself for not asking you out back then. I might have saved both of us a lot of grief later. I want you to know I don't think you have changed much at all. Still the wildly cute girl I remember from a decade ago."
Mindy was wiping away tears and I was close to it.
"So, Mindy, are you here to ask me out today? You already know what happens if you wait for me to act!"
"Tom, I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to go out with her."
"Nice! 'Notting Hill'. One of my favorites, Hugh Grant and Julia Roberts were magic together. But Mindy, before I accept, I need to know what you are asking me out for, what we are going to do, and when you will have me home. My parents will want to know."
Mindy laughed. "Tom, I guess this is where my plan, or my lack of planning, falls apart. Maybe I didn't expect you to accept my invitation."
"Just to be clear, I haven't accepted yet. I'm just asking you all the questions girls always asked me. Especially in high school."
"You dated in high school?"
"Ouch!"
Mindy was laughing. "Sorry, but that was too easy. Ok, how about this? I will text Mike and get his top five recommendations for us to do together tomorrow."
"I like that! Text him now, Mindy."
It took Mike about 20 minutes to get back to us, but we were having such a great time talking, we probably would have been there for an hour more anyway. Here was his list:
1 -- Spend a half day on the bay front in Newport. Have lunch at Mo's (get the clam chowder). Ask someone where the sea lions are and go see them. Then go to the tide pools by the Yaquina Head Lighthouse (make sure about the timing of low tide).
2 -- Drive north and visit Fort Clatsop at the Lewis and Clark National Historical Site. Then drive across the bridge at Astoria to the Washington side and return. Return and sit in the hot tub together (if one of you has one).
3 -- Drive south to Otter Rock. Stop at the Flying Dutchman Winery and pick out a bottle to share later. Cross the bridge at Newport and follow the signs to the Oregon Coast Aquarium and visit it.
4 -- Drive (farther) south to Cape Perpetua. Stop at the visitors center and ask for directions to the Cape Perpetua Overlook. Take a selfie of the two of you and send it to me. Visit Thor's Well and Devil's Churn (at basically the same place).
5 -- Make a reservation for dinner at Tidal Raves in Depoe Bay and share a romantic dinner together (if you are still speaking).
Mindy and I read through these and laughed together at the last one (I think the laughter was more a nervous reaction than anything).
I asked where Mindy was staying. (At the Anchorage Motel there in Pacific City.) I told her I had rented a quiet, private place in PC, and I had a hot tub, so #2 was possible.
"Mindy, you choose."