As Chad held his wife's sleeping form against his body, he reflected on the past year. Everything seemed so surreal now. Chad stroked and kissed Sara's hair causing a small sigh of content to escape her lips. She did not awaken, however. He thought of how lucky he was to have someone so special in his life. He would gladly take back any pain that he had caused her within the past year but he knew that he couldn't. The only thing that he could do however was to love her with all his might, which he certainly intended to do. Chad was going to shower her with so much love that she would never be in any doubt as to how he felt for her.
Chad was over the moon at the news of her pregnancy. Fearing that he would never have another chance at naturally fathering another child of his blood was a hard pill to swallow. He knew though, that it was probably worse for Sara considering how badly she wanted to have the first baby they had conceived together. Chad had been overwhelmed with a sense of helplessness when the doctor had originally informed them that Sara would probably not conceive again after that devastating miscarriage that she suffered. Chad had blamed himself.
Although his dreams included starting a family with Sara he was just pleased that his wife was okay. Sara had been so devastated about the miscarriage that she slowly began to withdraw into herself as if her spirit had died. It had taken them a while to work out their problems after that. Now that Sara was pregnant again it was like God smiling down on them letting them know that everything would be okay. Holding Sara close to him now, taking in the sweet scent of her, feeling her heartbeat next to his, Chad knew that it would be.
Chad couldn't exactly pinpoint when their problems had began but it seemed so far away now. From the moment that they exchanged vows, everything seemed perfect. Everything was right in his marriage and his career was heading into a new exciting direction. Chad still missed playing football but at least he was still apart of it, giving play-by-play commentary for a popular sports show. The media attention and sudden fame that seemed to have dropped into his lap was a bit overwhelming. The kind of attention that he was now receiving was nowhere near the amount that he received when he had just played football. After a while he was eating it up. Hell, he was only human. It felt good to be admired and as much as he hated to admit it now, his ego had gotten a little on the big side. Chad didn't realize that in the beginning, and as far as he was concerned all was right with the world. His career was reaching heights he never imagined it would and he had a happy loving wife. Or so he thought.
In the beginning Sara would accompany him wherever he had to make a television appearance and she seemed happy enough to do so. At night they would make love and each time would be like the first. He still couldn't get enough her scent, her taste, and the look on her face when her told her that he loved her. Soon, however, Sara became quiet and withdrawn. She started to make excuses for not traveling with him. She grew distant no longer wanting to make love as often and when they did she would turn her back to him afterwards. He could swear that he had caught he crying a few times and each time he would ask what the matter was and she would deny flat out that she had been crying at all. Sara didn't talk to him about what was going on in her life while he was away and she didn't seem to show any interest in his either.
Chad was hurt because he didn't know what was happening between them, and Sara was certainly not volunteering any reason for the changes that were happening between them. After the initial hurt, anger set in. What the hell was her problem? He hadn't done anything to deserve the treatment he was getting from her. He worshipped the ground she walked on but yet she treated him like a stranger in his own home.
Chad confronted her one night with his feelings when he had finally had enough. That was the night that he received some good news from his agent. When Chad came home he was so thrilled that he was practically bursting to share his news with his wife. Sara was in the garden pulling weeds. Gardening had become one of her hobbies. Sara was in her usual withdrawn state but Chad was so excited that he didn't take any notice. "Sara, why don't you finish up your gardening it's getting dark out and besides, I have some super news!" He exclaimed holding his hand out to her to help her up.
"What?" She asked ignoring his hand and really not even looking at him as she continued to pull weeds. She either didn't note his enthusiasm or really seem to care for that matter.
He sighed but went on anyway, somehow his news didn't seem so big anymore, "I've been offered a role for a movie! It's not a lead role mind you, but it's an opportunity for bigger and better things. Isn't that fantastic?" He bent down to kiss her but she pulled away from him. That was when he had finally snapped. "What is wrong with you?" he demanded angrily.
"Nothing, that's great news." She said sounding as if it were anything but.
Chad wanted to shake her he was so angry. "What the hell is with you? I mean you have been walking around this house looking right through me. You don't want to make love anymore and you don't want to come with me to the studio anymore. I thought you could at least conjure up enough emotion to be happy for me when I bring home news like this but you can't even pretend for my sake can you? I'm asking again, what is your damn problem lady?" he yelled with a tone he never thought he would use with Sara.