I can't believe it... in a few short weeks it will be an entire year since I first met him. Although I share him with you, the readers of my stories, only 1 person knows about my secret lover... my best friend, solely because she was with me when he and I first met. She has truly remained loyal to me and our friendship having told no one and interestingly treasures the secret she has been able to keep.
Although, as I look back on the year, I wonder...
How has this relationship lasted a year... a year of talking every day... searching to see when we could be together again... where, when for how long this time. It seems like only yesterday that he sat down beside me smiled and said "Hi, I'm John."
I am just as fascinated by his mind and his manner as I am by the package wrapped around it. Each giving to the other what they never realized they were missing in their lives.
I wonder, is it possible to feel so deeply for another while still having feelings for the one solid in your life? Is it really possible... I always thought it not... yet here I am a year later.
I want him daily... dream of him nightly. And, I still get butterflies in my stomach each time we meet.
The time spent with him is precious and difficult to come by because he travels approx. 300 days out of the year... me a steady existence.
Just recently he had an extended break and went home. I didn't know how I was going to go that long without being with him... more so being able to call and talk to him whenever I wanted. So, when confronted with the opportunity to go to New York for a meeting I readily accepted and worked it so it would include the weekend.
There's song that says something like this... "I wanted you so bad I begged you to get on an airplane and come see me." Of course, I can't remember the exact words or who sings it. But, as my secret lover reads this β he knows what I'm talking about because he has sung it to me numerous times [stop laughing my handsome lover]. All I know and all I care about is that he left his home and came to me.
As we both flew into the same airport within an hour of each other we agreed to meet at baggage claim and take the taxi ride into the city together. If you've ever been in a NY taxi you know the back seat is somewhat concealed from the taxi driver. Knowing this I dressed for the occasion... leaving my bra and panties in the suitcase!