A Fuck for the Ages
After our heartrates slowed to normal, I asked Mineko if she wanted to spend the night. I was hoping to fuck until dawn. We kissed and then she reminded me, “Let’s savor this.”
As we settled into pillow talk, Mineko spoke very seriously and directly. She told me that what we were now doing would not happen again. She would not cheat on her sponsor with a lover. She further explained, “this” was not a violation of her fidelity to him because it was a one-time compensation to me for helping instruct her protégé. This was an honorable commitment to her Geisha life. She felt obligated to repay me for my service to her Maiko and former teahouse.
She shared that her own lacking sexual skills was put to a severe and embarrassing test when she was first auditioned by her benefactor many years ago. She wanted to ensure that her Maiko was better prepared for that same test by some well-healed patron years from now. We had done our best to prepare her. This was my reward for assisting.
Mineko further admitted that she had fallen in love with me during our months of platonic whisky evenings. But we could not be lovers unless her benefactor either died or left her for a new mistress. It was a matter of honor for her to keep her word to him.
I realized this was a crazy, convoluted rationale for the sex we had. I even suspected the instruction was just a self-deceptive excuse manufactured by including the Maiko in the blowjobs. This in turn provided her with a rationale for sex as compensation for my efforts. It was a byzantine rational to convince herself she had not cheated on her patron. Sex was just a justified reward for my service to her teahouse. Who was I to argue with her rationale?
I knew I would never be able to convince Mineko of the irrationality of her commitment to her impotent and absent benefactor and, moreover, I shouldn’t try. Instead, I told her I understood completely (which I did not) and respected her for her purity and honor (which I truly did). I could see she was stifling tears. So, I kissed her.
She composed herself and said that my compensation was not complete. It took us three tries to help her apprentice pass the fire and ice test, so my reward was not yet paid in full. And with that, she slid down my body and started sucking my cock back to hardness. In reality she was the one most in need of sexual compensation and fulfillment. After years of forced abstinence, she found an honorable way to release her sexual frustration. I did not see any value in telling Mineko she manufactured this whole charade to justify fucking me. Better to leave her with this comforting self-deception and show her only love.
I tugged on her shoulders as she sucked by cock and she knew what I wanted – for her to stop playing the
shakuhachi
and slide up to ride me cowgirl style. Without telling her, I was about to give Mineko her own second round of compensation. She was the one who deserved a reward for her years of fealty to her aging benefactor.
Mineko rode me like rodeo champion and seemed to really enjoy being on top, a position that Japanese women rarely enjoy in the male-dominated culture who deem it submissive to let the woman control her own pleasure. She came hard, screamed “iku” again, and then fell forward on to me kissing all over my face like an over-enthusiastic child showing appreciation for a gift from an adult. It was very cute and loving. She assumed I had cum along with her, but I was saving myself for the final payment she thought she owed me.
I once asked another very cultured lover why the Japanese say “I’m going” when they cum. She told me in old Japanese literature the phase
Tengoku ni iku
meaning “going to heaven” was used to discreetly describe an orgasm. I find this akin to the French phrase
la petite mort