The Door
Pacing wasn't working! I'd fluffed the pillows ... brushed my teeth... brushed my hair... Straightened my blouse a million times... And, I still couldn't steady my mind..
I'd been waiting on this day for so long... Finally ... Dreams coming true... A world colliding... as it was meant to be ... Finally...
Who would have thought you would have taken the chance ... That you would have left your safe little world... To take a walk in mine...
When I sent you the letter, I almost didn't expect a reply, much less a phone call... "Of course, I'll be there!" I'd heard you say. Those words ring in my mind, so clear, so profound! You're coming to me ... Finally...
Years before, we'd fallen in love at the wrong time ... in the wrong place... only to find each other again. The time spent talking, remembering, needing, wanting had come to fruition ... Finally ...
I checked my watch, again ... Another few minutes, and you'll walk through that door ... Will it be enough? ... Can I walk away, yet again? ...
The little travel agency I'd chosen was quaint & smelled of lilac... The lady had laughed at me when I told her our story ... "You're taking quite a chance, young lady."... "I know," I said. "But, he's worth it."... I left with our tickets. 5 days & 4 nights of sunshine, waves & love making. We were to set sail one month from that day, from Cape May, PA. A 'love' cruise. Perfect!
Sounds from the boat filled my head... People mulling in the hallway... My heart racing as I sat on the end of the bed, watching the door... Anticipating your arrival ...
Remembering the day I'd mailed that letter, containing the ticket ... I licked that envelope with all the love in my heart, hoping & praying, you wouldn't throw it away ... I needed this getaway with you ...
The ship was vast, with many floors ... I'd chosen a quiet suite with a beautiful view ... Wide windows would let in the sun during the day ... and the moonlight at night ... With them open, we would hear the swell of the ocean ... Hear the music from the deck .... And, they may hear us, too ...
My breath completely left my body when I heard the knock at the door ... Would my legs work? ... Could I make it the 10 feet to the door to open it and let you in? ... Would I be able to speak? ... What would I say? ...
Finally, making it to the door ... softly, as in a dream .... I opened it, without looking out ... I knew it was you ... I felt you ... I stood there, against the wall, behind the door... waiting ... You peeked around the edge of the door, and found me there... looking at you ... smiling ... tearing up ...
The pure joy I felt as you entered the room rushed across my body, into my heart and exploded ... Like holding a thousand sunsets in my hands ... You were here ... finally ...
First Cum, First Serve ...
There were no words ... only our eyes ... You read everything my heart was saying in that first moment ... You put your bag down & closed the door without taking your eyes from mine... Taking my trembling hands in yours, you raised them to your mouth ... That first breath to hit my skin made my senses explode ... I really was trembling ... visibly shaking ..
You took me in your arms & held me so close ... I felt your heart beat with mine ... I was in your arms ... Finally ... In your arms...
Still holding me close, you raised my face to look at you ... Your thumb captured the tear that fell down my cheek ... That kiss ... You kissed where my tear had been ... and I felt my knees go weak ... You held me closer, still ...
I'm not sure if I was holding on because you were finally in my arms, or because I was afraid of falling down... I was just glad to be there... in your arms ...
I'd yet to close my eyes... I couldn't take them off yours... I was reading all the years of want & need that mirrored my own ... "I love you.' I whispered, as you breathed air into my life ... Your mouth covering mine in a sweet escape... My mind flashing ... I finally closed my eyes ... and surrendered to all the years of wanting you...
Your arms gathered me closer ... our mouths tasting each other ... Finally ... That kiss ... .Where our souls met & melded as one ... Our hearts beating against each other ... Finally ... I was in your arms, where I belonged ...
I felt you raise your mouth from mine ... I waited ... After a few seconds, I realized I could still feel your breath and I opened my eyes ... The look of love on your face completely melted me & I felt my knees grow weak, again ..
You took my hands in yours & walked me to the bed ... I started to sit, but you stopped me ... I couldn't take my eyes off you ... You were here ... in front of me ... My hands rose to your chest, and my eyes closed once more ... Finally ... I could touch you ...
Brushing a strand of my curls from my face, you grazed my jaw with your hand and continued until it rested along my neck, tilting my head back by gently pulling back on my hair. I opened my eyes, just in time, as you planted tiny kisses along my lips ...
I tried to engage & give you my tongue & you pulled back & grinned down at me ... "Not yet, my love ... not yet. "... Your mouth was whispering kisses along my face ... across my cheek ... capturing my left ear in your mouth & breathing so deep I could have sworn I heard you growl ... All I could do was tremble against you ... Hands still against your chest ... raising up to surround your neck ...
We stood for what seemed an eternity ... holding & getting to know the feel of each other ... Your mouth along my collarbone made me quiver & I heard you laugh and say ... "I love you."
I opened my eyes from your drug induced kisses to find you smiling down into my face ... Your whisper was faint... But my heart heard you... "My God, you're beautiful." ...
Did I just blush? ... Was my face as red as it felt?? ... I had no words ... I couldn't make them come out ...
You reached up & took the collar of my red lace blouse in your hands on either side beneath my face ... Following the material across my breasts to the buttons which held it together, you unbuttoned the first button and bent down to place a small kiss in the middle of my cleavage ... The second button garnered a kiss to the top of each breast..