After a few minutes, I steeled myself and joined him outside. We were at the corner of motel, so Charlie had his back turned to the door and faced the rest of the building and the parking lot.
"Why do you think that your brother and I stopped being friends?" He asked out of the blue, his back turned to me, his eyes focusing on highway far off as he puffed his cigarette.
"Do you have any idea how bad those are for you?" I interjected, not wanting to answer the question that made my heart flutter.
Charlie and my brother, Danny, had been friends for a long time. We all went to school together, albeit, they were three years ahead of me. But when the two of them went to college, they started to fall off, even though we lived in the same neighborhood. In fact, he lived right next to us. If I looked out my window at night, I could see his.
"Yes I do. Do you have any idea how bad I could be if I didn't calm down?" He bit back. "Answer the question. Why do you think your brother and I stopped being friends?"
I swallowed, unsure what he meant by him being bad.
"I don't know." I said, "You just grew apart?"
He chuckled and took another puff, then blew the smoke out in a slow breath. I watched the smoke wisp away in the air.
He leaned back against the wall and still didn't look at me, even though I was still staring at his profile. "It was because he knew that I wouldn't be able to keep my hands off of you." He took another deep drag and breathed out, "And I was too much of a bastard to let you go. So he told me to stay away. And when he died... I knew that I had to honor that. So I kept myself away. I thought that if I didn't see you, it would go away. But when I saw you again... I knew I was a goner."
"I...I don't know what to say to that." I confessed. "I didn't know..."
"I know," he said, letting the back of his head fall back against the wall as he let out another puff. "You were never meant to know."
"I used to watch you change," I blurted out, then covered my mouth with my hand. In the face of his confession, I felt like I had to give him at least something in return.
He raised an eyebrow and finally turned his head to look at me. "I wasn't expecting you to say that," he said. "Now, when you said you watched me change, what are we talking here?" He grinned.
I flushed a deep red and looked away quickly at the ground. "I don't think that's relevant."
He threw his cigarette butt on the ground, and in two steps, he was in front of me, palms splayed on the brick wall on either side of my head. He breathed out his last breath of smoke, which would normally disgust me, but with him, it was... pure sex. His short hair hung slightly over his forehead and he tipped his head toward mine. We were inches apart.
"Oh," he said, leaning closer and pressing his weight against his forearm now. "I think it is very relevant. Tell me," he ordered, his voice dropping lower. With his free hand, he reached up and tucked a strand of hair back from my face. He crooked his finger under my chin and pulled it up slightly so I would meet his eyes. "Tell me," he repeated.
"Not here," I whispered, looking side to side to see if there were others around.
He grinned a wicked grin before picking me up, one arm under my ass and one around my lower back. I took in a quick breath of shock, but as soon as I regained my breath, I was on my back on the bed, caged in by his body. He straddled my legs, keeping me locked in place while he looked down at me. He balanced on his forearm and leaned his head down so his lips were brushing my ear.
"Tell me, baby," he murmured. "Tell me how you used to watch me. Tell me how it made you feel. Because I can guarantee, I've felt it too."
I was in dangerous territory.
"I..." my breath skittered. "It was an accident." I whispered, remembering vividly the first time it happened. "I didn't mean to watch."
"Mmm, but you kept watching, didn't you?" He murmured, and I could hear the smirk in his voice. "Tell me what you saw." I gulped when I felt his lips on my neck. "Come on baby girl, tell me so I can reward you."
I let out a shaky breath and stared at a spot on the ceiling, trying to keep my focus, but it was damn hard to do with him breathing against my skin and causing goosebumps to ripple across my neck.
"It was hard not to considering that you changed right in front of the window," I mumbled. "I was studying, I was 18 and you were 21. I looked up from my paper for one second and you were in front of your window... When I realized that I could see you I tried to look away but I couldn't make myself..."
"Go on," he urged, granting me a kiss below my ear.
I blushed a deep pink. "I think you were working out. You took off your shirt and your shorts, and I saw you pull off your boxers right before you walked into the bathroom. I didn't see your dick!" I rushed out, wanting to bite my tongue off so I couldn't speak any more.
He chuckled deeply and inched lower, placing a kiss against my collar bone. "Good girl," he said, "Did you like it? How did you feel?"