I was only 19 when I started this nanny job. The reason that I was looking for a job in the first place was because I needed to pay for college. My family didn't have much money, and if I wanted to go to college I'd have to pay for it on my own.
I began working as a nanny by day and using the money I earned to attend college courses at night. I moved in with the family and struck a deal to get a reduced rent in exchange for a lower weekly paycheck.
As soon as I started the job I knew that I was attracted to the husband/father of the family. His name was Gabriel, and he was over 6". He had strawberry blonde hair and a pretty lean body type. I found out that he was almost 30, but strangely the age gap didn't turn me off. I tried to avoid him in the beginning; I knew that if I got close to him I might get myself into a situation that I couldn't handle. I tried to only speak to him when spoken to - and even then only about things that mattered for my job. I suspected that he was attracted to me, but I didn't want to mix business with pleasure and tried to stay out of his way.
My room was in the attic, along with the playroom for the kids and the washer and dryer. I came across Gabriel one night, throwing in a load of laundry into the machine. Honey, his wife, was puttering around in the kitchen downstairs while he and I started chatting. We realized we were similar in many ways. We shared common interests, had similar personalities, and experienced similar situations in our youth. Gabriel seemed eager to hear more about me, and he made me feel valued and special. I cut the conversation short that night because I couldn't handle the emotions I was feeling towards him. That night was a turning point in our relationship.
We started talking about all kinds of stuff after that one night up in the attic, and we had a lot of fun sitting around getting to know each other. Sometimes Honey was present while we talked, sometimes she wasn't. When she wasn't, I shared some personal secrets with him that I'd never tell anyone else. He divulged some secrets of his own. When his wife wasn't around he would say little things that made me blush. Once he told me that I looked beautiful and attractive. Another time he told me that I smelled good. I'd look away and smile, embarrassed by his attentions.
Honey suggested that I drive Gabriel to the train one morning because he was running late and he needed to catch a certain train to make it to work on time. My heart was thumping in anticipation of spending a few minutes alone with him.
He drove us to the station, but the train hadn't pulled in yet, so he parked the car in the lot. I looked at him out of the corner of my eye and smiled shyly. Gabriel was looking at me, and I knew that he loved me. Then there was the sound of the train pulling in, and he pulled his eyes away from me and told me he had to leave. Just before he left the car, he reached over and squeezed my hand. "See you later." He said. Then he was gone.
I was flushed from the encounter, and drove back to my job in a haze. When I got back to the house, Honey asked me if I was ok. "I'm fine, don't worry." I said. At that moment my phone dinged with a text message entering my inbox. I rushed over to my phone and opened a text from Gabriel; "Thanks for the ride -- I'll be thinking about you today. xoxo" I grinned. He was thinking about me! I looked up into the face of his wife who was asking me a question. My heart sank. How was I going to do this?
Though I practically swooned whenever I saw him, I attempted to keep a low profile in the house for a while. I knew that a relationship would never work out between Gabriel and I, especially while I was living in his house with his family! Meanwhile, he kept connecting with me. A meaningful glance thrown my way during dinner, more personal texts, smiles meant just for me.