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Standing on a hillock overlooking the Carolina coast, the wind whips around me, trying to rend the clothing from my back. Below me, a white wooden-frame house with a wraparound porch is perched on tall stilts meant to spare it from the hard wash of the tide. The turbulent sea has eroded so much of the shoreline the house seems to be barely hanging on. I question its stability, wondering if it'll be pulled out to sea with the next tide.
Shivering in my California clothing, I think how very lonely and unfriendly the place looks. And very sad. Itâs the kind of place where a girl with sad eyes, who lives off e-mail communications, could live and pretend she's happy. My heart races at the thought of her, because I know Iâm finally about to face her. My e-mail lover.
This, the most important episode in my life, started just a year and a half ago on the seventh of June. The e-mails. Theyâd become so erotic, so passionate. There were severalâsometimes dozens of e-mailsâeach day. For nearly five hundred days, we made love over the wires, and I had fallen in love.
Iâd been in a chat room one day when I noticed her eyes. Her logo was the saddest, most mournful, yet beautiful, pair of eyes Iâd ever seen. "ONLY4U" was her moniker. We chatted for a while and when we finally signed off, I was amazed that several hours had passed. Something simply clicked between us. Only us. It wasnât long before we were having these wonderfully frustrating and erotic e-mail conversations. And they perpetuated themselves over time.
I was a writerâno, thatâs not true. I wanted to be a writer. Thereâs a big difference. At the time, I hadnât sold anything to anyone and was quite discouraged in my chosen profession. I almost didnât tell her I was a failureâbut I did. And when I did, I discovered she was an editor.
She suggested I send her one of my stories, so I sent her one that had been refused by every magazine to which I'd submitted it. Later that same day, she returned it to me and I sat in my small apartment reading it with a sense of amazement. It was beautiful. Sheâd taken my plot and developed it into something vastly different from what Iâd written. And it worked. God, did it work! I didnât care where my own words went as long as her words replaced them.
I resubmitted the story to the same magazines that had refused it before and not only was it accepted, but there was a flurry of interest, publishers outbidding each other for the honor to print it.
The check that arrived in the mail soon after excited and humbled me at the same time. I felt the money was hers and let her know it. She refused any portion of it out of hand and said she didn't need money.
She asked me to send more, and still more, storiesâwhich I did. All of them were published and soon I had magazines asking me to write stories exclusively for them. Then she completed a novel I'd been hopelessly entangled in and it was a huge success. Movie offers were being made and suddenly, I was making a lot of money. I became more and more popular, doing TV and radio. I'd become a personality!
She still refused to accept money and our erotic, wanton e-mails went on. It was frustrating. I knew nothing about her except her e-mail address, that she had the saddest eyes, and that she was a great editor. I felt incredibly guilty; because I was only feeding her story ideas and letting her do the rest. While I was becoming famous, she was relegated to anonymityâthrough her own choice, of course.
It was then I began having dreams, very vivid dreams, of this beautiful flaxen-haired woman atop me, availing herself of my hardened maleness. I'd watched fixedly as she mounted me and began sliding up and down my shaft, the tips of her small breasts bouncing with her movement. The perspiration gathering between her breasts and on her belly fascinated me. Our wetness would grow and mingle as she flung this way and that, up and down, fore and aft as she came and came, her long tresses flinging about her. Unable to hold it any longer, I'd erupted into her with gusto.
I'd wake up the next morning feeling sated and complete, but there'd be no mess on me. Just my softening member receding against my leg. How could I have a wet dream with no cum? I still don't understand it.
Another night, she'd mount my face as she sucked my maleness down her throat. What heaven. But by morning, she was gone and I'd know it had only been a dream. Then night would come and so would sheâagain, and again, and again.
Eventually, I found I couldnât stand it any longerâthis ill-gotten fame. Not to mention, living without her completely in my life.
Now that I had money, I used it. Through a reputable private investigative agency Iâd hired, I got this addressâthe address from where the e-mails originated. In our modern age of transport, it was nothing to anxiously fly across the country and rent a car to drive to this Godforsaken, yet beautiful, spot. After I eased out of my car, I walked up the incline to the crest of the hill.
So here I am.
Will she be fat? Or thin? Ugly or misshapen? Short or tall? Old or as young, vibrant, and truly beautiful as Iâve imagined her? Dreamed of her. Will she be happy to see me? Ready to see me? Will she be as wanton as in my dreams? As in her e-mails?
Standing there looking down at the dreary house below, the swirling gusts become a seductive whisper in my mind, vocalizing my love's most scintillating words . . .
"You own me. Every part of meâmy heart, my mind, my body . . . my cunt. I'm all yours. You possess my very soul. And you're always with me. Just the thought of you invigorates me, charging every cell in my body with vital energy, warming me from the inside out.
"Even now, with so much time and space separating us, I'm so wet for you. I'm so agitated with wanting you I can't help touching myselfâfondling my breasts, pinching my over-sensitive nipples, threading my fingers through my damp pussy, feeling the juices coating my cunt lips.
"I need you so badly. I can't wait until we're together and I can feel your hard cock slide into my tight, slick core. I want to taste your skin, breathe your scent, and hear your voice rasping in my ear, telling me how good I feel and how much you love fucking me. I want to see your face contort with pleasure as you fill my womb with your cum, indelibly marking me as yours . . . finally claiming me forever."
And that's exactly what I intend to do. Claim her.