It happened again last night,
Like every night for the past two weeks
I try to clear the haze and fog from my mind but it is difficult to say the least. Maybe the harder you try to remember the dream, the less you ultimately remember. Itâs a shame too because I know it was sexual in nature. The reason I know this is because for the past two weeks I have woken to soiled sheets and cum filled underwear.
Wonder if I will dream again tonight.
Donât get me wrong; I am not a believer in dreams. I donât believe that dreams are some sort of a premonition or a forewarning of some apocalyptic catastrophe. Heck I donât even believe that it is your subconscious trying to tell you something. Dreams are just that, a state of mind during REM. It is a late night pizza with anchovies; or itâs a horror movie right before bed. Like I said Iâm not a huge believer in prophecy- I just like to cum.
The bus was running late and I paced back in front of the bus stop. If the bus was running late, that meant I was running late; and of course thatâs never a good thing when you are heading to work. I guess it all goes along with the joys of not owning a car.
Yet I still couldnât get that damn dream out of my mind. If I could remember what I was dreaming or who I was dreaming about- Iâd spend my time daydreaming instead of worrying about what time the fucking bus was going to get here.
6:17 a.m. is a lonely time of the morning especially if itâs been two years since youâve dated anyone special. Hell there is nothing that burns my ass more than seeing this lovey-dovey couples shit first thing in the morning. You know, sweet devoted wives walking their husbands to the car giving them a kiss- telling them that they love them. Yuck! Or better yet- a new boyfriend or girlfriend locked in some sort of fuck me embrace staring into each others eyes like it was going to be the last time they ever saw each other. Get a fucking room already
Like I said it was 6:17 a.m. and the sun was just coming up over the hills. Thatâs when I started to get this strange feeling of deja vous. Okay so you will think Iâm a bit strange, but I swear to god that the amber and orange hues that painted the sky were the very same that pleasured me in my dreams.
The eerie feeling that washed over my entire being seemed to run in succession. The woman across the road that had the audacity to breast-feed her baby right out on the front porch. Now come on, do I brush my teeth, comb my hair or do any other bodily function in public?
I started hearing echoes of past dreams- âRunninâ late Mac- backed up ten minutes.â
This was too weird for me.
It like it was all coming back to me.
Although her face remained shadowed, I could see her figure- her legs. I could almost see her mind and personality also. Her shapely body was incased in a tight black dress that came to just a little above the knee. I remember the dress- no gown was backless. I believe it was formal. Wait, she had red hair⊠No it was not so red, more strawberry blondish. Oh now I remember there were freckles, lots of them.
I told her some sort of joke. I really think it was corny but for the life of me I couldn't remember what it was. I do remember though, she laughed and reached out and touched my hand as if she were telling me to stop. She cleared her throat and asked, âwould you like to have a drink?â
I had to laugh. Hell lately I couldn't even get the fat girl down the street to take me out. How in the fuck would I ever get a goddess?
Dreams are not real.
They say that men have hundreds of erotic thoughts a day. For me this was one of them. If it werenât for the breast-feeding mom across the street I would have been out there yanking my chain. Yeah, right out there at the bus stop. I bet I could have cum with one or two strokes. Wonder if miss mom over there would have minded?
Okay so sometimes I think badass thoughts and okay, I can be opinionated at times. But that doesnât mean I am not a romantic at heart. Yeah- even me. So I long for someone to love me for who I am. Someone that would pull me close to them in some sort of fuck-me embrace. But you know what? Two years of almost dates, two years of âkinda busy Saturday, maybe some other time.â Or how about- âIâm washing my hair that day.â Kind of makes a man bitter.
Guess love isnât for me,
Unless of course dreams are real
Old bus 68 finally managed to show up and it was only what 6:27?
âRunninâ late Mac- backed up ten minutes.â The bus driver grumbled as I padded up the decaying bus steps.
I quickly scanned the bus to find an empty seat. Preferably one that didnât consist of enduring a 15-minute trip across town sitting next to Mrs.- 5 extra rolls on the belly, and oh yeah forgot to shower for a month- Bertha.
And there she was.