Do You Remember How It Was

Do you remember how it was between us?

Because even now, even after all this time, you are still the only man I want. You are still the only man whose image steals into my thoughts when I'm alone and dreaming of what might have been. Your eyes still smile at me in my dreams, your voice still rings in my ears even as I try to find another to take your place. I am drawn to you, in a way that I've never felt before or since. The memory of you is more alluring, more intoxicating, than the reality of anyone else. Even the sight of your name makes my heart skip a beat, and makes sharp, sweet memories flood my mind. And when I close my eyes, I can hear my name on your lips and I melt.

What magic do you possess, to do this to me? To make me want you so badly? Other men praise me, adore me, want me, but you - in your own quiet, knowing way - you alone pull me in, tease me with your silences, intrigue me with your distance, summon me back with your simmering, elusive heat. With you and you alone I am the hunter, not the prey.

No one else reduces me to nothing but a desperate need. No one else can make me tremble, can steal my breath, can make my pulse race and my fingers itch to touch you. Just you. Always, and only, you. I confess, I have tried to replace you. I have sought the smile, the body, the laughter of another, I have tried to feel for others even a sliver of what I feel for you, but I have failed. You are in my heart, my body, my soul.

So lay beneath me, love. Let me admit my defeat as you gloat, as you smile up at me in your triumph. Lay back. Put your arms behind your head, clutch the pillow, let me run my hands along your muscles and skim the surface of your warm, male skin.

Let me kiss my way from your fingertips to your shoulders, tasting you, savouring you, breathing you in. Groan softly when my lips find the sensitive spot at the base of your neck, where your pulse begins to beat a little faster with every kiss, with every lick. Smile up at me with those knowing eyes....and let me love you.

Let me kiss you, tenderly, with quivering lips and unsteady breath. Let me press my lips to yours and feel you kiss me back, slowly at first, resisting, wanting to prolong my torture....but finally surrendering to the heat of my mouth.

Feel my hair fall across your face as I kiss you deeply and sensuously, as our tongues tangle and dance, as my lips take yours so hungrily. Lift up a little and kiss me back, demanding, insistent, reach for me as I reach for you. Remember how I used to make you feel, how I drove you wild with lust, how I excited you more than anyone else.

And when we break, breathless, panting, staring into the sharp desire of each other's eyes, watch as I trail kisses down your chest. Kissing, licking, sucking your nipples into my mouth and making you groan - know how much I've dreamed of this body beneath me, how it has fueled my dreams and filled my fantasies since the first moment I laid eyes on you. Watch and feel as I drift lower, and lower, kissing down your belly and your hips to where your cock waits, hard and rigid and aching for my lips.

I want to prolong this moment - perhaps I want to torture you too, just a little. Watch as I slowly caress my face with your cock, grasping you by the base and passing your shaft gently across my cheeks, my nose, my lips, rubbing your cock against my skin, breathing you in, resisting the urge to taste you. You don't know how I have dreamed of this cock, a thousand times, maybe more, how I've tried to forget the way it makes my blood rush and my pussy grow damp. This cock is the one I want...then, now, always.

Let me taste you...slowly, running my tongue around your head, dipping inside, closing my eyes in ecstasy and moaning with pleasure at finally feeling you beneath my tongue again. Taking your head into my mouth, suckling you gently, swirling my tongue over your head....so sweet, this beautiful cock, so sweet this man allowing me to savour him.

Pre-cum glistens in opalescent pearls as I lift my head up and meet your eyes. I see such heat in them, such potent male desire. It isn't enough to fill my mouth with your cock, you need to fill my pussy. And I need you inside me, gliding into me, thrusting and stretching and taking. It is all I have ever needed.

Wordlessly I straddle you and dip down for another kiss, and hold myself just above your aching cock. Can you feel my warm, wet pussy hovering just above your head? Can you feel the velvet sheath of my cunt about to envelop you? Kiss me, lover....kiss me while I pin you down by the wrists and take you, lowering myself onto your cock in a slow, sultry slide of ecstasy.

My God the pleasure....how your cock invades me, so stiff and hard, opening me up to you as I slide all the way down. You groan into my mouth, the sound muffled into a low, throaty growl. Yes, lover....let me fuck you.....lay back and let me hold you down, let me sink down onto you until your cock disappears within me. Slowly, torturously, I raise myself up even as my pussy clenches and grips your cock, even as I whimper into our kiss and gasp at your size and your strength.

This is what I want....just this....this simple joining....riding you slowly, sensuously, taking all of you inside me and rolling my hips around to feel every inch. Feel me circling my hips against you, gyrating against your balls, my breasts brushing against your chest. Let me suck your tongue while I ride you, let me suck it long and deep the way I suck your cock...groan for me as the pleasure builds, as my pussy milks you, as my hips grind against you and I moan your name. When I tear away and rise up, capture my breast in your mouth, suck on my hard nipple as I bounce on you, harder, faster, in a perfect rhythm as your cock thrusts up to meet my pussy.

Fuck me as I fuck you - show me how much you want me. Show me you've missed me as much as I've missed you. Oh yes, my lover, my gorgeous man....let your hips drive your cock up into me, grab my ass when I release your wrists, grab me so fiercely your fingers go white as they dig into my flesh. Hold my ass and fuck me, love.....guide me up and down on you, make me ride you....faster now lover, faster and harder....groan and moan as I bounce on you, as the pleasure builds inside us both...feel my pussy clenching around you, desperate for release.

Hear me moan your name, see me bite my lip, lost in the sheer ecstasy of your body moving inside mine. Make me cum with a desperate cry as you fuck me with abandon, as you pant and moan and utter my name between ragged breaths.

Release one hand from my ass and grab my neck, make me look at you. Hold me above you and stare into my eyes as you finally explode, as you buck and thrust and spill yourself inside me. Let me see those beautiful eyes sharpen with pleasure as you empty yourself into my throbbing pussy, as you growl and hiss and battle for breath. And with your final thrusts, pull me down to your mouth and kiss me, savagely, as though we may never kiss again...

And when we finally still, when I finally fall against your chest and hear your thundering heart begin to slow, run your hand gently up the middle of my back and hold me against you. Say nothing, love. Everything's already been said. Press your lips to my forehead and linger there, poignantly - stroke my hair away from eyes and caress my cheek. Lay with me here like this, our hearts beating in time with each other. And when I finally move beside you, spent and warm with the glow of pleasure and passion and love, gaze into my eyes and show me.

Tell me, without words...that you remember how it was between us.