Chapter 13: Separation sucks
The downpour of winter rain monopolized my mind from the time I hit the city limits. Paige talked me through the unfamiliar streets, saying she would remain inside the building until my truck was sighted.
"I'll run out and jump in when I see you coming down the street," she said, cautioning me to drive carefully.
"These people are crazy. Is it always like this or is it just the rain?"
Paige laughed. "The kids are out of school this week. They're in town to exchange gifts that are the wrong size or don't suit them. The rain is a contributing factor, but yes, it's always like this."
The windshield wipers struggled to clear my view of the street, and I didn't see her until she squeezed between two parked cars. I stopped as quickly as possible, causing the guy behind me to squeal his brakes.
Paige dropped the small case she was carrying, and threw her body at me, dripping rain from her hair, eyelashes, and off her nose as our lips collided. She pulled away, gave me an appraising look, and spoke in excited amazement, "You came back to me."
If she heard the barrage of horns and abusive language going on around us, Paige disregarded its existence. She pulled me to her for another steamy kiss before shaking her head and laughing at the way cold droplets hit me in the face.
I felt the truck shake, and looked in the rearview mirror to see the guy in the small car behind us shout something. I couldn't make out what he was saying, but from the way he was battling the elements to put his point across, he was not exchanging pleasantries.
Paige directed me to the highway, and we drove southward. We didn't talk because the rain was monopolizing my concentration.
We entered the house, saw the mail on the kitchen table, turned up the heat, and went upstairs to the bedroom on the pretense of drying our hair and getting warm.
We huddled under the covers, and wasted no time in getting into position. I don't know which one of us was hornier. After a vigorous workout, we rested, laughed, and eventually talked, about our short separation, about our kids, and about our concerns.
"What are we going to do, Brian?"
I knew what she was getting at. She wanted to know how we were going to cope with an impossible situation. We were from different backgrounds, our homes were hundreds of miles apart, and we had responsibilities that prevented us from even considering a long-term life together. I did have a half-baked idea, but it was too soon to talk about. It probably wouldn't work anyway.
"I hate to admit it, but we may be in for a life of misery. Let's not become depressed about our situation. Let's live for today," I suggested, and watched her turn her head and run her hand across her eyes.
We got dressed and went to a small cafΓ© to have dinner. I tried to keep the conversation upbeat. "We have three more days and nights. Let's make the best of them," I said.
"Five nights," she corrected me. "I'll catch an early bus on Tuesday."
"That's even better," I said.
We put gloom behind us and did our best to enjoy the weekend.
We got up on Friday morning to find the refrigerator virtually empty. I opened the mail and updated the estate's financial picture while Paige went shopping.
I paid bills and wrote checks for a distribution. We mailed my parents' check, Paige was to deliver her parents' check, we dropped checks for the Library and Church off at the judge's office and we took the one for the food pantry to Nadine. She invited us to a New Years Eve party at their home.
We thought we knew everything about each other. We had talked continuously over the last four months. We knew the names of each others friends, their personality quirks, and what made them unique. I knew about Paige's affair after Patrick's death and she knew about my day and night with Georgia. I knew her body, intimately, and she had heard the story about how the scar on my thigh was the result of a bicycle accident when I was eight years old.
We talked incessantly, and there was no subject that we didn't agree upon, we thought. Why did such a trivial matter as choosing a realtor to market the house cause such a major dispute? When I took her to the bus early on Tuesday morning, we were no closer to agreement than we had been on Friday and we were still hung up on the method. We hadn't interviewed anyone.
We argued about minor details, like the sex of the realtor. I would have been happy with a duplicate of Lois Barns. Paige said that males were more thorough. I cited my experience with rental property. Paige countered with her years of dealing with realtors all over the United States.
What should have been a simple matter of picking a realtor was stalled. I knew that if we put it to a vote of the committee, we would be divided with forty-four votes each way. Could I count on Nadine's vote? I knew which way Nancy Dickens would lean and she could probably sway Gordon McMahan to vote with her.
The following weekend, I told Paige that I was becoming impatient. "I have nothing else to do here. I have responsibilities at home."
"You keep telling me how well John Larkin manages your business."
"John can't see my children off to school or tuck them in at night," I said, appealing to her motherly instincts. She agreed to interview realtors.
We invited representatives from six companies to tour the house, appraise its value, and to give us an overview of the marketing campaign their office would conduct.
There was a wide variance in the estimates of what the house would bring, but there was one common theme; winter was a slow time for a sale of a home of this type. It would be spring before we could expect to move the property.
It took another week to narrow the choices to two candidates. Paige liked a male, who claimed ties to a nationwide chain of offices, saying that we would have thousands of realtors working for us. I preferred a female with a proven track record in sales of antique homes.
We were at odds. I was stubborn, but Paige knew I was anxious to leave. She had the upper hand. I held out for another week before relenting, accepting her choice of James Harvey. Paige surprised me by saying that she had changed her mind. She would go along with my preference.
We reported that we had signed the agreement for a ninety day exclusive to the other members of the committee, and I made preparations to leave on Monday. Charlie took possession of Mackey's tools, agreed to keep watch of the house, and I directed the post office to forward the mail to my home. I considered taking Mackey's computer and the four drawer file cabinet, but decided to leave his office intact.
Paige cried after we made love for what was to be the last time. She admitted that she had held me hostage by disagreeing with me about my choice of the realtor. I told her that I knew what she was up to, but didn't blame her. "I held out because down deep, I didn't want to leave."
February 2008
After nearly five months away, it took a couple of weeks for me to get up to speed on the status of the business. The inventory was higher than I would have liked, but cash was flowing, and the dealers were happy. I told John that he'd done a good job while I was absent, and I expected to rely on him to continue in the role of general manager. I'd lost interest in the day-to-day operation of the business.
My involvement in the estate was minimal. I kept in touch with the realtor and Charlie, and kept the judge informed when there was any change in the financial picture.
Paige and I talked frequently, about our families, our work, but mainly, we talked about the weekends we'd had together. Eventually, the frequency of the calls tapered off, until we only talked once each week. Hearing her voice gave me the same thrill, but we were tired of talking about the same cloud that hovered above. There was seemingly no solution.
March 2008
Reconnecting with my children was going slower than it should have. I decided that they resented my deserting them for five months with only one short trip home.
I told Paige that I was going to make their birthdays a special occasion, but at the end of the day, I had to report that things had not gone as smoothly as planned.
First, they wanted separate parties, which I vetoed, reminding them that it was a tradition to celebrate their births with one party. As a concession, Mary baked two cakes, and we had two sessions of eating cake and ice cream, singing happy birthday, and opening gifts.