April~
I've been married for 3 years. The spark is completely gone Mark doesn't even notice me anymore, he all but looks right through me. When we first met 4 years ago I couldn't breathe when he smiled at me. The sex was life changing for me especially since he was my first. Id hear him on the phone with family saying how April is all he could ever ask for. This is me of course.
Now it's like I'm nothing. I often catch myself imaging he's off having an affair which tears at my heart like you wouldn't believe. Mark was my whole world since we met, he was my dream guy. Tall, handsome, great body and a huge heart. He also carried my secret favorite characteristic in a man...he had a possessive side. Another guy couldn't so much as look at me without pissing him off. This used to happen a lot since I'm not that bad looking myself.
The point is that I've come to the conclusion that my marriage is over. At age 24 I have to deal with the fact that I've wasted time on a man who barely talks to me anymore. We still have sex once in awhile but I feel like he is just going through the motions, barely enjoying what I give to only him exclusively.
Mark has a great paying job as a business man, I am equally well off with my own job. So I've decided I have the means to leave Mark even if it feels like I'm dying little by little doing it. I'm going to start my life over in a different state living close to my family and far away from here. I've made job and living arrangements there already, it's also a place I know Mark would never suspect me to be. I would file for divorce once I made the move. It would be too hard for both of us if I said to his face that I was leaving, he still has a possessive streak now and then.
Before I leave though I have to feel him one more time even if it's all mechanical for him and no passion. I decided I would just surprise him tonight since my flight is tomorrow while he's at work of course and I can't wait for him to come to me. As if I'm the only one he comes to sex for.
Around six, I laid out on our bed soon to be just his completely naked with my body ready for him. I hear the front door open and close and feel my heart speed up. It had been awhile since I had so openly offered myself to him. He walked into then bedroom and stopped in his tracks. He looked my body up in down with a look on his face like I was something to eat. I felt a pain in my chest when his eyes never reached my face, I'm just a warm body to him. I love him how can he act like this with me. I push the thoughts away this is my last night with him anyway.
He finally speaks "Come undress me." I get up from the bed and do just that. Once were both in the buff I can't help myself but to appreciate his body and the hard on he's sporting. Mark picks me up and drops me on the bed. He starts kissing me all over, paying special attention to my breast which are on the large side. My body is aching by the time he's done. I push him off me and on to his back on the bed. I kiss him once on the lips even though it's almost foreign to feel his lips on mine now a days.