It had been a while since she sat and took the time to really day dream. Today gave her one of those rare moments when she would allow herself the luxury of loosing herself in a fantasy world. It was a warm day outside. The windows were open and the breeze was gently blowing. No one around to interrupt her. She settled into a lounge chair on the screened in porch. Tea in hand, legs propped up and nothing but time. Closing her eyes, she allows herself to drift off into that wondrous world of fantasy. Where she could linger on the promise of a different life. A life with someone special. ...
It all started with a glance, or was it a just a glance. Sometimes she could swear that there was something else there. A glint in his eyes or his crooked grin. What was it about this one man? There had been others that attempted to catch her eye and yet they never really did. This one was different. He was devilishly handsome, yet unassuming and real in the best ways. There was something about him that made her pulse race, made her heart beat faster at the mention of his name. The way he looked at her when he didn't think she was paying attention. The look in his eyes told so much more than he had ever said to her. And yet was she just imagining it, hoping that it existed. Sometimes it was so hard to tell. That mystery intrigued her. He was a puzzle. He seemed so playful at times and then at other times so serious. He could be funny, charming and cantankerous all at once. She found herself thinking about him more and more these days.
He challenged her in ways she hadn't been challenged in a long time. She liked that. It seemed to awaken parts of her that she had almost completely forgotten. They had grown so close and yet there was still so much to learn about each other. It felt like a real friendship, but there was no ignoring the pull that was there. Whether spoken or not, it was there. She found herself wanting so much more, but afraid to lose the friendship that they had begun.
She is lost in thought now. Not aware that someone has walked up to the screen door. She opens her eyes and there he is. She had completely forgotten that they had plans to hang out together... you know... like friends do. How could she have forgotten that? She blushes at the thoughts that had been running through her head. He looks at her quizzically. Can he tell what she had been thinking? Is it written on her face? She feels the heat rise and she knows she's blushing, but why? He can't possibly know what she's thinking.
The heat seems to spread like a wild fire radiating from parts that had long since lost that urge. She feels warm and yet she shivers. Her eyes meet his gaze and she gets lost in them. Neither of them speaks for what seems like forever. Or was it just a few awkward moments. She couldn't tell anymore. Time seems to halt when he is around her. And then it would seem to be over in a flash after he left. But for now, here he is staring down at her. His eyes seem to see all the way into her soul. He has to sense what she's thinking, feeling. She slowly rises to her feet, feeling uneasy on them. She isn't sure that they will even hold her up at this point. They both exchange awkward hellos. She can tell that he knows what was going through her mind.
At that moment she wants nothing more than to feel the slight swell of his lower lip touch hers, to have him nibble on hers. She's staring at his lips now. As if reading her mind, he moves in quickly and pulls her into an embrace, almost as if he is afraid of losing the moment. Slowly he lowers his head looking down at her. Moving his mouth toward hers and she draws her breathe. It's caught in her throat now. He was being so damned slow and deliberate. Their eyes are locked, neither looking away. How she wishes she could read his mind right then. To know what he is thinking. What he really wants from her, what he wants for them. It's in that moment that she realizes that all these feelings are real. Is it really happening now... like this? They are friends. Wasn't that the important thing? Her pulse is so quick. She feels all her blood rushing threw her veins. Every sense is heightened. And yet his searching eyes are calming her at the same time. He seems so sure of this and she simply relaxes in his arms. No words need to be spoken. They both just know. This is what is meant to be, why fight it?
His lips brush hers softly at first. Her lips are tingling with the softness of that touch. Then a long slow deep kiss. The kind that reaches down into your loins and wakes you up from the inside. She completely surrenders herself into the embrace, allowing fate to take hold. Their bodies molded together. How many times had she envisioned this moment and here it was. Both their bodies responding in tune with each other. A perfect fit. His tall muscular stature against her smaller more delicate frame. She curls her arms up under his and wraps up over his shoulders. Her body is fully leaning into him now. Her head tilted upward and back taking in every inch of his body that she can. His hands are cupping her chin and then her head. He moves then with deliberate course. Stroking her back, feeling her hair in his fingers. Their lips feel perfect together and his tongued flicks in and out of her mouth in just the right rhythm. Not staying in one place too long and not wildly moving about too much. Their heads adjusting sides with that same rhythm. It is the most sensual kiss she has ever experienced. And she is lost in it. How odd that it would be their first kiss and yet feel so strangely familiar. Like it is the most natural thing for them to do. She almost forgets that this is their first real kiss. Not the kind of friendship kiss on the cheek when they would greet each other or before they parted, but a passion that seems to have been unleashed from a cage.