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David's Journey Part 3
Caroline helps me to our bedroom, after my emotional break, I didn't have much in the way of energy or strength to make it myself. As she helps me lay down in bed, I can feel her taking off what clothes I had on then lay beside me.
"Honey, I don't know how but I love you. You have made me feel complete in such a short amount of time. You have shown me more love, more compassion than I have had in my entire life. It scares me a little, more importantly, it makes me feel like I have a future now. Thank you my love. I hope you feel the same for me. Good night sweetheart." Last words I hear before darkness overtakes me.
NEXT MORNING.
I awake the next morning to Caroline lying next to me. I can feel her breasts up against my side and her pert, hard nipples poking me.
I gently ease myself out of bed, taking care not to wake her. I feel like shit, I think to myself. Don't think I even slept much at all. Or maybe that's the emotional shit I've held in me all these years. I hope it gets better!
I look at the clock and notice it is just about 6am. I look over at Caroline and feel a desire to just curl up with her and go back to sleep. However, I get up and go to the bathroom and get ready for a shower. As I run the water to heat up, I get a clean towel from the closet and look in the mirror. I see I need a shave. As I wonder if I should keep the mustache and make a goatee or shave it all off, I see the door open beside me and a very sleepy woman enter. She smiles at me and leans on my shoulder. "Hmmm, thinking of a shave today? I think you should keep it and let it grow, lover." She purrs in my ear.
"Think I should? It's gonna get scratchy, not sure how it'll feel down below for ya." I wink to let her know I'm teasing.
"Well, I guess we'll just have to find out, huh?" Caroline whispers to me with a silky voice!
I can feel myself getting very aroused with her in my ear. I turn my head just enough and brush my lips against hers and I can feel her lips part. Her hand slides down my stomach to wrap around my hard dick. I moan in her mouth and wrap my arm around her waist, reaching down and grabbing her ass as I pull her closer to me. I slip my tongue into her mouth and search for hers. Caroline pulls away from the kiss and, smiling up at me, starts sliding her body down, kissing my chest, nibbling on my nipples as she continues her exploration of my body. All I can do is stand there and gasp at each and every nibble and kiss. She gets down on her knees in front of me, turning my body so she can get access to my engorged member. I feel her tongue going from base to tip and slide back down to my base underneath as she slowly sucks in one ball after another. I gasp as I feel her tongue playing with them, bouncing them and wrapping around each one while tugging each deeper into her mouth. My hands fall to my sides as she has me paralyzed with pleasure. Soon I hear a pop and both balls slide out of her mouth, I look down and see those gorgeous blue eyes looking up at me with that seductive smile on her full lips.
"Oh baby, what are you doing to me!?" I beg!
"Nothing yet, lover. Just wait though." she says.
I watch as the tip of my dick is slowly sucked in between those full luscious lips of hers and can feel her tongue start sliding around the edge of the mushroom, spiking my pleasure. As she sucks more and more of my shaft into her warm mouth, her tongue continues to glide over the undershaft, just enough to feel yet soft like silk. I have to grab the bathroom sink edge from the pleasure. I have NEVER had a blowjob this fucking fantastic! She wraps her hands around my hips and grabs my ass and starts pulling herself further onto me. Her mouth envelopes me deeper and I can feel the head start touching the back of her throat. I reach around and grab the back of her head gently and hold her to me, I can hear her as she tries to swallow me. I feel her pull back and let her, the only thing left inside her is my head as she starts to bob back and forth, cradling my shaft on her tongue.
"Oh god, I'm about to cum baby! Do you want a facial or breakfast?" I ask her with a devilish smirk.
Caroline slams my cock all the way back as I start to fire off round after round down her throat. Halfway done and she pulls back a bit and I can feel my cum pooling inside her mouth. After my last round is fired, she pulls off my cock and opens her mouth to show me the load she has, as she closes her mouth I can see her throat move as she swallows the entire load.
"That was a delicious start to a beautiful morning baby!" She smiles at me as she licks and smacks her lips in satisfaction. My god, she is full of surprises! "How do you feel this morning after last night honey? Do you still feel the same way about what we want?" She has a look of love and concern in her eyes.
I take a step back and sit down, my legs feel weak after that blowjob. As I sit, I contemplate what she asks me. Do I feel better? I ask myself searching my soul. I look up at Caroline as she bends down even with me. "I think so. I'm still raw about last night. It's tough to reconcile what I was taught by my parents and brainwashed by society to accept and revile. Plus the fact that T'Keyah died the way she did and my inability to put that behind me. I still feel as though I'm not good enough. I hope you understand, I'm not making this easy, am I?" I see her smile at me on that question and ready to answer but I struggle on, not giving her a chance to respond. "I guess my biggest worry is doing to both of you what I did to T'Keyah. Thinking the worst when she needed me the most. Not able to be there when needed, it killed me. Do I really deserve a second chance? A chance at love not just with one amazing woman, but two? That question of being good enough, I guess it will always haunt me until time decides to let me go or I learn that I am worthy enough."
Caroline sits on the floor between my legs as she looks up at me. "First, the question you asked me. You're not making this easy on yourself. You need to see how good of a person you are. Would a person who is dead inside have rescued Jessica? Would a MAN, who is dead inside, have given me a home after what happened to me? NO he wouldn't! He would have walked on by, he would have ignored everything. YOU didn't! That makes you a good man who is alive and can be loved, who can feel love, and CAN love another. There is nothing wrong with you. What you're going through is grief unfulfilled. She has been gone for how long now? Maybe we all should go to her grave so you can get some closure?"
"I can't, I don't know where she is buried. Her parents have shut me out completely. They blame me for her death because I wasn't there to help her. I foolishly told them how I felt, how I reacted, and what I had planned to ask her. They blamed me for her being on the road, instead of me driving her. They believed I should have picked her up and taken her and she would be alive. I tried to tell them that she wasn't at home, I couldn't have picked her up as she was using my car as hers was in the shop. There isn't any way I can get closure. I have to live with this. Only thing I can do is hope that time will heal and maybe, being with you both and the kids will help me heal as well?" I looked down as I was talking, not feeling very confident in myself. Knowing full well I will never get closure in that part of my past. I thought I had buried it deep. But falling in love again has a way of bringing the buried past to light and not gently either!
I can see Caroline tearing up, she knows I'm in pain and wants to help. Unfortunately, she also knows she can't with this. "Ok honey, let's get a shower and get ready. We have Jessica coming over today for lunch. Is everything ready in the kitchen so I can help you cook?"
As we climb into the shower, thankfully I upgraded it when I did (the old shower would not have held both of us!). I look at the shower clock and see it is almost 6:30am, "yea everything is ready except for the steaks. I just need to put some seasoning rub on them and let them sit until we grill them. The rest of the food is easy to make, depending on what you want to do. The baked BBQ beans can be cooked on the stove and the coleslaw is in the fridge. I just need to get the pool ready and the hottub primed. Those can be done an hour or just before Jessica gets here though."
As we shower, I can hear my phone go off. Odd no one calls me this time of morning. I let it go to voicemail. "Do we have any potato salad to go with that? I love the Amish potato salad."
I think back and can't remember buying any, so I shake my head at her.
"That's ok. Mind if I go buy some?" she asks me.
"Why are you asking me, baby? It's your home too. I want you to feel comfortable here. Mi casa es su casa." I told her.
She smiles at me and asks, "what does that mean, the spanish?"
I laugh as I tell her, "It means 'my house is your house.'"