I had been active of the net for a long while. I had hundreds of cyber buddies. I had kinky ladies that I chatted to about outrageous things. I even had a cult following on the forum. I was even respected. Yet I was so afraid!
Against all my better judgment, I had agreed to meet one of my cyber mates! We had been chatting for over four years. I backtracked, yes, she had posted, and I had sent a PM in 2003. She had responded and we had exchanged views and opinions in increasing confidence over those four years. She shared her favorite fantasy with me. I told her about my favorite kink. I started a thread on the forum for her about shoe fetishes. She started one for me about golden showers.
I looked at all her posts and smiled surely it was no big deal to meet such an honest forthright young woman.
Now I am not going to make any excuse, but I will try floating one. I somehow got caught up in the St Valentines hoo haa. And before I could stop it, I had agreed to meet this cyber mate of four years.
Neutral territory over a thousand miles for me to travel, about eight hundred for her. We had booked into the same Vegas hotel. I posted her my confirmation booking and she replied with her confirmation. We were committed, well that or lose our booking fee.
Actually, we were lucky on St Valentine's Day Vegas is usually full. We had booked January 2nd.
All January I was in what can only be described as frisson of fear. Plain unadulterated fear. Just what had I gotten in to? Why in Gods name after four years of cyber friendship risk everything on a real life meet. I was surely mad! As February marched forwards my fear was palpable I phoned to cancel the booking several times I never let it actually ring.
I stood before the mirror it was just hours before I flew out west. 'You are fat you are no oil painting. You are a geek and odd-looking one at that. What the fuck are you doing?'
I threw a few rags into a suitcase. Old clothes, I made no attempt to disguise myself in good duds. I had a few smart casual clothes, but I always looked like a looser posing as a predator in them. I snapped the bag shut.
'What the fuck she either likes me or not.'
Why had I not posted at least one picture? Why had she not asked to see one? Why had I not asked her to send me a picture? How can you go on a blind date with some one who professes to like kinky sex?
In a blue funk, I almost missed the plane. I was last aboard. As I flew westwards, I reviewed what I knew about the cyber mate I was due to meet in a few hours. She was as kinky as all get out. We had had cyber sex dozens of times and we seemed to like the same sort of kink. I could type and drive her responses to the point where I came in a gusher of cum or an other times she drove the bus and it was me that responded. She seemed to indicate that her orgasms were genuine I knew my climaxes were.
The hell with it I would bluff it out. I could always duck and run.
I tried to distract myself from the coming ordeal. I began a conversation with the person sat next to me. A plain Jane. And yes, she was going to Vegas for the St Valentines weekend. Her boyfriend worked at a golf course there. I exchanged pleasantries with her for three hours. I almost knew her life story when the descent began.
As the plane descended into Vegas I began to get uncomfortable really uncomfortable. I was out in uncharted territory.
The conversation dried up. Miss plain Jane was also in deep thought. All I could remember was how hot cyber sex with the young, well I hoped young woman, had been. I remembered telling her outrageous stories, fantasy plays about golden showers and bondage and all sorts of kinky stuff. I remembered her telling me about her first anal sex.
I was a virtual virgin; I knew everything about all sorts of Kinky sex. I knew all the positions all the words yet in fact I was a male virgin at 24. A very unattractive virgin I might add. 6'2" of flab, 250 pounds of fat. A face that belonged on a prizefighter, yet I was a coward at heart. I had never been in a fight. My broken nose was the result of falling off my bike at age eleven. My cauliflower ear was the result of my only exposure to football. I was clobbered in the first game, I never played gain. I was a Wuss, a Sook, a Nerd and a Geek. And in just three hours, I was going to meet my cyber mate of four years!
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I knew I should not have done this. What possessed me to ask for us to meet? We had a satisfactory cyber relationship. He stroked me when I needed stroking. I am sure I did the same for him. I had only told one lie and I do not know why I did that. He had said he was from Florida so I said I was from Seattle. Putting a lot of distance between us seemed sensible because this was a cyber relationship and I did not want a real life interaction, yet over the years, we had grown close. He laughed at the same things I did. He was bold enough to venture opinions that I found myself agreeing with.
Ok I was on a plane to meet a person with whom I had had a cyber relationship for over four years. I had back scanned his Emails and forum posts. I could not find a single inconsistency. His interaction with others at Literotica seemed balanced and above board. He seemed to be a genuine good guy, but why was he still unattached? Why had he agreed to a real life meet with little old me a cyber mate of four years? Why had we never swapped pictures? I had a good collection mostly self-taken.
I parked the car at enormous expense. I queued and then boarded the plane to Vegas. I was wrapped up in my own problems when a real blimp tried to strike up a conversation. He was at least 100 pounds heavier than I was. He had halitosis, he was gross! I ignored him but as the flight progressed, I began to listen to his questions and found myself responding. It seemed easier to respond than put up with the barrage of his questions. Yes, I was going to Vegas to meet a boyfriend. No, I had not been there before. No I did not gamble and nor did my boyfriend.
'Who was I kidding I loved to gamble but I did not know if my date did!'
I found myself lying to this stranger when there was no need to lie. My traveling companion waffled on and on, his questions an inane babble, but it helped pass the time and kept me from thinking about the first meting.
'No it did not!' Almost every question broached another aspect of this meeting with a person who had been a cyber space friend for four years.