Author's Note:
Feedback to help me grow is always welcome, and you can chuck me some stars too if you feel so inclined.
For the cherubs who still message me about Summing the Incubus, I've decided earlier in the year to finish the entire story before publishing any more of the chapters. This should mean that once I do start putting them up, you won't be waiting long in-between instalments. You have the patience of saints and the imaginations of sinners! I love you all!
Now, here's a sweet little something to melt your heart on a cold October night...
***
Relentless grey sheets of ice water and distressed looking brown leaves hurled themselves against the single window of my room. A gale blew, but even its distressing urgency was drowned out by my flatmates' dance music coming from the cramped communal kitchen. It was warm indoors, and I relished the feeling of being so snug and cosy while the world outside was so harsh and wild. The other girls were chatting livelily; exuberant as they painted each other's nails and speculated about the availability of boys they'd seen at a distance. They were going to a Halloween party; but I had made another plan.
It's not that I bore my flatmates any ill will. I just rarely clicked with people. I didn't adjust well to university life, and as my second month there was coming to a close, I had yet to make a single real friend. Then again, I didn't exactly make it easy for myself. I didn't have to be alone in my room right now. I could be painting my face and donning a witch's hat too if I wanted.
I put down my history text book and empty hot chocolate mug, locked my bedroom door and pulled a heavy camping rucksack down from on top of my wardrobe. I peeled off my comfy leggings and oversized hoodie. In my mirror stood a tall, athletic girl, in sporty, practical underwear, with a medium brown complexion and a sweep of tight dark curls that told of her mixed Nigerian and British heritage. Me. Zoe.
I dressed, quickly and purposefully, in camo-print cargo trousers, a fitted dark grey long-sleeved shirt and a black fleece-lined lined jumper. I bundled each of my feet into an extra thick sock and heavy black hiking boot. Into my backpack went an array of essentials, and just in case supplies. A long-armed torch with spare batteries, a smaller clockwork torch in case I still ran out, a cheap burner phone that I'd taken to music festivals (one with actual buttons and an almost no-resolution camera), a first aid kit in a compact green box, an assortment of cereal bars and snacks, a print off of a floor-plan in a plastic sleeve and a tiny portable camping stove and pot with utensils, that I knew I wouldn't use, but wanted to take anyway.
I heard the music shut off, and a tremendous giggling as the others headed out into the savage nature. (Albeit, only for the few seconds before they scrambled, all high-heels and fairy wings, into the safety of their taxi.) I sighed with relief, only now aware of how much I'd been craving even further loneliness. The rain on the window now seemed so calming as it slithered endlessly down the glass. I crept into the empty kitchen, boiled the kettle, filled my thermos and folded myself into a waterproof anorak, before finally - with a deep sense of personal satisfaction - leaving the flat.
***
The university campus was on the outskirts of the post-industrial city, having been recently newly built of steel and glass, it was a constant source of local controversy. When the institution was founded however, it had been close to the centre of town, a cluster of buildings in red brick, all austere and elegant. Of the original buildings, only one managed to survive the WW2 bombings; this was my destination, The Old Library. As a listed building, it was too historically and culturally valuable to demolish - while also far too expensive for the university to look seriously at restoring. And so it sat, crumbling and forgotten.
The high street was busy in spite of the bitter weather. Costumed revellers tumbled in and out of clubs and pubs, sparkling with glitter and drunkenness. I moved through them, silent as a ghost. Silent as a library.
I couldn't just march in via the front door of course. It took a little while to work out where daring kids had made a hole in the chain-link fence so they could skateboard on the abandoned steps. It took a little longer still to work out which ground floor window had a loose board that could be pivoted on its one remaining nail, revealing a missing pane of glass and a gap just large enough to push my rucksack through. It landed with a crunch as it hit the broken glass on the floor below. As gracefully as I could, I clambered onto the narrow ledge on the outside of the window, then, very gingerly, sat on the edge, so that my feet were now inside the building. Then I pushed off the ledge with both hands, landing surprisingly deftly on my feet.
I grinned madly. I couldn't believe how easily I'd made it in! This would give me much more time to explore. And though it was still freezing inside the building, it was certainly good to be out of the rain.
A screeching sound of wood on metal came from behind me. I was submerged in total darkness. I didn't turn around, 'It's the plank of wood I moved to get in here falling back into place.' I told myself, stern and logical. But my heart was going like a jackhammer anyway.
Still without turning around, I slowly lowered myself into a crouching position. I reached out to my side, in search of my backpack, careful not to let my fingers trail along the floor where I might cut myself on the gritty broken glass. I couldn't see a thing - my eyes didn't seem to be adjusting to the darkness. I grasped hold of my bag and a wave of relief filled me. Thank God.
I pulled out my torch and clicked it on, and the way directly in front of me was lit in a narrow band of orange-yellow light. My eyes widened in excitement. Save for the books, it was all still here!
Impossibly tall shelves, made from dark wood, with ancient cobwebs nestled in the corners. Grand writing desks, with water-damaged green leather surfaces. Half-rotten chars, stacked neatly upside down on the desks, or in little columns of three against the far wall. Everything smelt like must, damp and feathers. Wherever I shone my beam, dust danced in the artificial light. It was fascinating, but I couldn't convince myself that it wasn't supremely creepy.
I cast my torch about to get my bearings. The space was cathedral-like in its height. The first-floor gallery was open, like an indoor balcony, so that even from my spot in a corner of the ground floor I could see the rows of shelves upstairs. There was a line of narrow doors to the right of stairway; according to my carefully sourced floor-plan these mainly led to offices and reading rooms.
I quietly set towards the opulent staircase at the center of the library. Its discolored grimy carpet muffled my footfall and I found myself gripping the banister tightly as I ascended. I'd need to tread more carefully upstairs, since I didn't know what state I'd find the floorboards in.
The upper level was more claustrophobic. The shelves were packed very tightly together in narrow corridors that I inched along with my torch pointed mainly at the floor. The boards groaned underfoot, but felt sturdy enough to press on. Some of the shelves still bore their decimal system numbers.
I reached the end of the section marked "571" in brass digits and was, somewhat abruptly, met with a mahogany door. An unopened door always has a certain siren song. The handle was missing, so I jabbed the door gingerly with the butt of my torch. I'd expected to reveal a staff room or a small office, but instead, the small room was nothing but four walls around a large hole in the floor, which I now found myself teetering on the edge of. I took a sharp intake of breath. Far below me, a figure of a man was stirring.
***
In silent panic I clicked off my torch. A Ghost? Security? A Criminal? Not a ghost, obviously not a ghost, idiot.
He glanced up momentarily from his work as if he might have seen or heard something. But he tutted reproachfully to himself and returned to his craft.
The room below had most likely once been toilet stalls, but all that remained now were two large grey basins and yawning gaps where other facilities would once have been. A warm red glow came from a lamp on the floor, a chemical smell hung on the air, and strings were suspended haphazardly across the space like washing lines. My eyes strained through the darkness to try to make out what he was doing with them, but were soon distracted by the facts of the man himself.
