A/N: "Let's see it's only been, *checks date for City Girl: Part 12* OVER A YEAR?!?!?!?!"
So, to answer a question no one asked, I've been getting my ass kicked by life for a while now. To start with, not too long after I finished Part 12, I smacked a deer with my car, and then after I got that fixed, we had a loss in the family. Then, the holiday season all played out, during which time my internet crapped out. Then, my shift changed at work. Then, I had my final test for my apprenticeship. (Which I did pass) After that, we went on vacation for a week or so. When I got back, my shift at work changed 4 times in about 6 weeks. By the time I got on a set schedule, it was time for spring fieldwork. Then the internet quit again, and then I found myself on a weird shift and trying to juggle things.
I also got started into another project unrelated to this and now I at least have something to show for it. But that's all stuff you guys aren't here for, so I'll shut up and get on to the story.
*Also, the first week of last month, I hit another deer and then 4 days later blew out a brake line on my backup vehicle. Good times. And no, I don't have either vehicle back yet.*
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Sarah was headed home from work on a Wednesday afternoon. Thanks to a conversation she and Stacy had been having, she found herself thinking about the times she'd been with Chase recently.
She wasn't at all complaining about getting to lay half-naked in a bed with him, but it had backfired a little in that it made her want to take the next step even more. Of course, she hadn't really given enough thought to contraception... She knew full well that she wasn't ready to have a kid, but her anatomy was screaming for her and Chase to consummate things.
She mused in the car to herself for the rest of her drive home. Wondering what it was that made him so scared to actually go all the way. Naturally, her insecurities took the opportunity to make her think that maybe he didn't find her attractive in that way. She reminded herself that they had gotten into it a little bit that night they went out.
"Y'know," she thought to herself, "Maybe it is the fact that I'm not on birth control or anything. He probably wouldn't want to ask me to start taking it."
She decided to text her mom for her input after she got home. Her plan to text her mom was interrupted by a phone call. To her surprise, it was from Chase.
"Hello?" She said as she answered the call.
"Hey babe, how are ya?" Came his reply.
"Oh, I just got home from work. How about you?"
"I'm getting ready to leave work right now. I was calling to let you know I just got off the phone with my grandpa, and he's hoping we can get rye chopped this weekend since my cousin will be around to help."
"Ok..." She replied, not fully comprehending what he'd just told her.
"So, the plan as of right now is for me to leave from work on Friday and head back up home to help with that for the weekend. I'll probably be back sometime Sunday depending on how smoothly things go."
"So, you're gonna be gone all weekend?"
"Yep."
"Aww..." She mused. She'd gotten accustomed to being able to spend an evening with him on the weekends.
"Sorry, but we've gotta get it cut while we can."
"Ok..."
"I'll let you know how things are going."
"Ok..."
He sighed. "Alright, what's on your mind?"
"Just thinking..."
"About...?"
"Us." She felt herself start to panic at the thought of telling him what she actually wanted.
"What about us? Are you having doubts?"
"I wouldn't really call them doubts..." She could feel her heart pounding in her chest by now.
"Are you okay? You sound like you're stressing out."
"Well, I am because of what I want to say..."
"Well, if it's stressing you out, it probably needs to be said."
"I know... It just feels so wrong to say it."
"Why's that?"
"Because I feel like I shouldn't be wanting to say it..."
"Well, what is 'it'?"
She took a deep breath and decided to bite the bullet. "Chase," she managed to say, "I want to start having sex. I know you might not be ready for it, but I want it so bad. I feel like as the girl I'm not supposed to be on this end of things, and I've never really felt this way before, so I have no idea how to deal with it. I just want to be intimate with you in a way we haven't done yet. The closest we came was back on our Valentine's Day date, but it didn't sit with me right I guess and maybe I just want some kind of closure from that to know it was right. I don't know. I really don't know, but I just... I want to..."
Chase was silent for a moment. She didn't give him more than maybe a second or so before she hung up and started crying. She wasn't even sure why she was, but it definitely was happening. She ended up making her way to her bedroom and just letting it all out there.
After a while, she wasn't entirely sure how long, she decided to take an early shower, thinking it might help her relax somewhat. It worked, until she got out and looked at her naked self in the mirror. Her insecurities immediately bubbled up and she found herself examining every minute flaw she could find.
She huffed and forced herself to dry off and get dressed for bed. Afterwards she went to the kitchen and made herself something to eat. As she sat down, she checked her phone to find a text from Chase.
"Hey, is everything ok?" He asked.
"Yeah. I guess I really needed to get that off my chest." She replied.
"Sounds like it."
"Yeah."
"I do want you to know, I'm not judging you at all for feeling like that. It's a normal part of being human, and if you're not on birth control it makes even more sense."
"To be honest, I was gonna ask you about maybe getting on something. I thought maybe that was part of why you keep hesitating."
"Well first things first, I've heard enough stories from friends who've had issues with birth control that I honestly think it wouldn't be a bad idea to find some other method. And yeah, I do wanna be smart about contraception, but I also won't lie to you about me having no real experience with regards to sex."
"You act like I do lol. And what method did you have in mind?"
"I mean condoms are the most obvious thing to try, but I've heard they don't feel great for either party. We also could avoid actual intercourse, or even track your cycle and avoid the days when you're fertile."
"I honestly never thought I'd be having this conversation..."
"Me neither, but it's a good thing we are."
"Yeah, I guess it is."
"Plus, we're gonna have a couple days to process everything since I'll be up north for the weekend."
"I suppose. It's still gonna suck being alone all weekend."
"I'll miss you too, but it needs done. Maybe next time I'll bring you with me."
"When will that be?"
"Usually around the first part of September. That might be more than a weekend though, corn silage is always a big ordeal."
"Well, when the time gets closer I'll have to talk to my boss about maybe taking some days off."
"Sounds like a plan. Back to what we originally were talking about, if you're wanting intercourse, I'm tempted to start with condoms for a bit since that's something we can do right now without any other hassle. Going forward, if you want to start tracking your cycle, we should be able to avoid an unwanted pregnancy."
"To be honest, I've never heard of a woman tracking her cycle. Do you know where I might be able to find some more information about that?"
"I've heard there's apps for it and I'm sure the internet has some stuff."
"I guess I'll have to look into that this weekend since I won't have you to distract me lol."
