I sat at my Vanity table getting ready to go out. Our family was dining with the Holisters that evening. I guess it was by way of apology. My Dad said it was to show everyone that Mr H supported me and Jake, as well as the Dean.
I sat staring at my reflection in the mirror as though I were a stranger to myself. My mind far from my task.
In a few short years I had put my step father in prison for raping me and taking my virginity, I had had Billy Dunnham and Curtis Flemming expelled from Harvard for attacking and raping me. The jury was still out on the verdict. But tonight wasn't about that. It was about showing solidarity and I had a part to play in this class act. Like it or not.
I put my heavy hair up in ringlets and clips. It looked young and flirty. My white gown was layers of shear floating gauze that became opaque from the vast number of layers. It clipped at the breast with a gold clasp creating an empire waist effect, showing my figure to best advantage. The fabric flowing gracefully to my feet and swirling around my heels just peeking out at the bottom. I looked youthful, sexy and incredibly beautiful.
I knew I looked the way I was expected to on the outside but I was trembling almost uncontrollably as I applied very little make up on my face. Mascara and sheer lipgloss. Light perfume. No jewelry.
I didn't want to go out, I didn't want to dress up, I didn't want to look sexy. I wanted to disappear into my own skin. As I appeared in the living room my parents faces lit up. They were pleased with my choice.
Our arrival was announced. As Mr H rose to greet us his shock was evident. His face cleared and he greeted my parents. Kissed both Moms cheeks, shook Dads hand.
His eyes fell to me. I could see desire in his eyes but there was no lust. Just open acknowledgement of seeing a beautiful woman. I felt admired and beautiful. It was very nice. He kissed my hands and put an arm around my waist. "let's meet everyone shall we?" I couldn't help it. I tensed up at the intimate touch.
The evening was long but turned out to be enjoyable. I was well insulated from the dirty looks the wives and older daughters threw my way by Mr H and his wife, my parents and Jake. Mr H had invited jake too and made him my dinner partner! With Jakes help I was comfortable and relaxed the entire night.
Unknown to me this made me glow with beauty and confidence. Mr H's son Luke was on one side of me and Jake the other. Before we left Luke stood aside with my father and his. He asked permission to court me. Both our fathers came over looking very pleased! Luke said goodbye to me and asked if he could take me out Friday night. I could tell by my dads face that he wanted me to say yes.
I did not hear from Jake for several days. My date with Luke came and went and still no Jake. I caught glimpses of him but he did not approach or text me. Saturday I went looking.
I finally found him clearing tables at the student bar called the Hub. I touched his arm and he turned to stare down at me. He didn't say a single word. Just looked at me without any expression.
I began to feel nervous. I asked if I could talk to him when he was done his shift. He simply nodded. No one spoke for a minute. I was starting to feel like a freak when his boss yelled for him. He said " I will pick you up from your dorm when I'm done." then he just walked away. I felt tears well up but I walked away quick.
I was in my room dreading his arrival when the knock came. I looked out and opened the door to let him in. He just leaned on the door frame staring down at me with those huge sexy eyes. I noticed they changed shades of grey with emotion. They were very dark right now!
I started to feel flustered. My voice sounded breathless when I asked him to come in. He just kept staring. Finally he held out his hand and said "let's walk." His deep sexy voice vibrating in my most feminine places!
I grabbed my keys, sweater and wallet, took his hand and left.
We walked until we were near a secluded part of campus. Park like in it's quiet beauty. Large trees, benches and thick grass. Bountiful manicured flower pots hung from light posts and beds dotted the path that cut through the gently rolling ground, winding out of sight. The beauty of the old buildings peeking out here and there.
I loved the architect and feel of the school. We sat under a tree much further from the path than I ever would have sat if I were alone. I felt totally safe with Jake and sat close to him. He looked like he felt kinda awkward for a minute until I touched his arm. Then he smiled at me and I lost all my breath.
He was so sexy and large. He towered over me at 6'4. I was a big girl but i felt dainty beside him. I really liked his protective streak but I also loved the time we had spent together as well. He was quiet and restful like me. I really wanted to get to know him better.
Jake took my hand and started rubbing his thumb absently over mine. His eyes just kept looking at me but he never spoke. It was like he was content to just look at my face forever.
I started to feel a warmth bubbling in my tummy. I could feel a blush spreading over my face and neck. Jake just smiled.
I finally started to just talk. I told him about how safe I felt with him. I shared about how much I liked our time together. I shared with him my gratitude for saving me and protecting me without concern for the cost to him. How warm being with him made me feel. He just watched my mouth move and held my hand. I talked for at least half an hour and finally just fell silent.
My mind was racing like crazy! What was he thinking?! I just poured my guts out and he never said one word. He barely blinked. If it weren't for his thumb moving I might have thought he was asleep. That and the way his eyes watched every move my lips made! It was very sensual and I felt flustered. Heated and excited in a strange way.
Then, ever so slowly, Jake pulled me onto his lap and kissed me. My heart was pounding out of my chest! His arms came around me slow and gently pulled me in so close I could feel every muscle in his upper body.
My nipples peaked hard as desire raced up from my belly. His large hands spread over my back and up into my hair. His kiss got deeper and more intense as I opened my mouth to receive his tongue. He ran his tongue along mine and I felt my body respond. Wetting my panties and pebbling my nipples incredibly harder. I wanted to rub my body all over his.
I sucked his tongue in and he moaned. Then I suckled it and He pulled away. I whimpered. He pulled my head down and cradled it to his chest. His heart was pounding out of his rib cage. I burrowed in closer and sighed.
I felt incredible and incredibly safe. I could believe how my body was responding to Jake and his gentle onslaught. Miraculously I wasn't repulsed or upset by Jakes kiss. In fact, I was turned on, despite all I had been through. I was a little unsettled by that.
Jakes hands rubbed me gently up and down my back and legs. His lips nuzzling and kissing my neck and ears. I was exploding with new sensations everywhere all over my body. It felt like electrical currents were running through my blood and pooling in between my legs!
"Jake... What's happening to me?"
"I don't know," He whispered "but I hope it's the same thing that's happening to me!" Was all he said.
