The story continues in Galesburg, Illinois
- Prof. Richard W., formerly of _________ University
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The morning after the memorial service, Karen slept late. She awoke in her old bedroom, and a flood of memories filled her mind as she opened her eyes. It was chilly in the room, and she tried to stay under the covers as long as she could. The old grandfather clock chimed, but she ignored it.
Finally, the aroma of breakfast reached her and she had to get up. When she had washed up, she went downstairs in her robe and found her brother frying bacon. The sizzle and snap in the pan, the coffee dripping into the carafe, the toast burning a bit on the edges, all merged together.
"All of this stuff, somebody says, is BAD for you," her brother laughed. "How much do you want on your plate?"
Karen had to laugh with him. She ignored her diet and filled her plate. Yesterday had been bittersweet, as friends and family had remembered her mother. Today, it felt good to laugh.
Turning serious, her brother reminded her that today they had to go downtown to see the lawyer and sign some papers.
"You'll remember the lawyer. It's Fred Schmidt." He scraped the rest of the bacon onto his plate and sat down at the table. "Didn't you go out with him once?"
Karen's brother was younger than she was, and apparently didn't remember that she and Fred were "steady" for a while. And, reflected Karen, her brother apparently didn't know how far Fred's Chevy had taken them... with the parking brake on.
So many memories were coming back to her on this trip- why not these? As she sipped her coffee, Karen remembered how sweet Fred had been, and how excited she'd been, him being on the football team and so forth. They had been out at the lake on a warm early fall evening after a show, and everything had been perfect. Kisses had turned into caresses, and then she had realized that his hand was inside her blouse. Instead of objecting, she had sighed a bit and pretended that she was too busy kissing him to resist. He had lifted her bra off her nipples, and then unbuttoned her blouse.
She had never let a boy kiss her there before, but somehow it seemed just right with Fred. Her sighs had become genuine as his lips circled and then sucked on her hardened nipples. Their excitement sent warm messages down through every part of her, and for the first time, she had realized how easy it would be to go just a bit further... and further yet. She had slid her hands between his knees and worked her way up, until she felt how ready he was, too.
She had started to picture the two of them tumbling, embracing into a four-poster bed, when a car had driven by slowly behind them. Karen and Fred both had jumped upright at that, did some deep breathing, and somehow discovered that they both had gone far enough. Fred had given her one last kiss on her left breast, and then he had gently covered her up, rebuttoning her blouse (with some difficulty).
"Next time, this is where I'll start," he had whispered.
It was to be her last intimate kiss from Fred. Karen took another sip of coffee, and realized that her hands were clutched tightly around the cup when she thought of it that way.
"Karilee, the bitch!" She muttered the name to herself, and then wondered if her brother had heard her. He did not look up from his bacon. Things had been so wonderful, and then the starting quarterback was injured, and then Fred was moved into the starting slot, and then Karilee, Fall Harvest Queen had moved into Fred's life. The only thanks that she'd gotten was victorious sarcasm from Karilee.
"Thanks for warming Fred up for me," she had purred as she passed Karen at her locker. "He was really great for me at the lake." Karen had already heard from the rumor mill how great it was. Fred's place as quarterback was now complete, with his not-so-Virgin Queen selecting him as her consort.
Now Fred was married to Karilee. Karen had seen them together at the memorial service; to her satisfaction, small town cooking had started to show on Karilee. The breasts, bigger than Karen's, were getting a bit sloppy. The waistline that seemed smaller than Karen's had now overtaken her. It even looked as though she was wearing a larger shoe size. This had flashed through Karen's mind when she should have been thinking Serious Thoughts, and she had shut off these ideas as unworthy.
The thoughts had come back to her as she dressed, however. In her old room, the teddy bear watched as she inspected herself in the mirror. She might not be a beauty queen, but she was staying in shape. Lingerie from one of the City's finer boutiques would add to the effect. She chose a cheering-up bra and panty set with lots of lace, then put on a serious-looking blouse and skirt. She was ready to go downtown. ---
At the law office, Fred was running late, but his secretary had the papers ready. Karen and her brother read them over. She found herself wishing that her mom and dad were still around to do this part.
Finally, Fred showed up. She hadn't gotten a very good look at him at the service. He was more mature looking than she had expected, and must have kept working out somehow, because he had stayed slim. She concentrated on listening to him explain what they had to sign, and on the details of signing, but every so often her memories kicked in.
"And lastly," she heard him say, "there's this note from your grandmother to you, Karen." He handed her a sealed envelope with her name written on it in a familiar old-fashioned hand.
"How odd," Karen blurted out. She reached out in a tentative way, and then took the envelope. Fred handed her a letter-opener, and she ripped into the flap. There was a short message; Karen read it silently, and then aloud:
"Dear K'ren (her grandma's nickname for her), since I do not have a safety deposit box. I have left some papers with Fred, including this letter. There is a ring of mine which I would like you to have. It is hidden behind the molding in the southwest corner of my bedroom.
I know that you will be careful with this ring, but you must not just treat it carefully, but also be careful in how you choose to use it. May it bring you as much pleasure as it brought me."
Beneath the message, she reminded Karen of her love, and then had signed in large, bold strokes.
Her brother started packing up his things, looking a bit miffed.
"I have to excuse myself now, because I've got to get back into the office. Can I drive you home now, sis?" Karen looked at her watch and realized that more time had passed than she had expected. Fred intervened, and pointed out that his next appointment was for lunch out at the country club. He could drop Karen by the house, and her brother could get right over to his office. ---
In the car, he laughed as he admitted that his real reason for volunteering the drive was to drop in and help her look for the ring. They talked the rest of the way about mutual friends. Karen noticed that he never mentioned his wife. As they rode along, she couldn't help but think of the drive out to the lake so many years ago. --- Their voices dropped to quiet tones as they entered her grandmother's bedroom. Fred knelt at the baseboard molding, and pulled at it every so far into the corner. There was a loose piece in the corner, which he pulled away, and there was an old-fashioned ring box tucked into a spot hollowed out in the plaster.
He handed it to Karen, almost shyly it seemed to her, without saying a word. She opened it and the ring glistened dully in its velvet nest. It needed polishing.
"Try it on," Fred urged. She did. It fit perfectly. She held her hand out to Fred, who took it in his. He held it steady as he inspected the ring. "Very nice on you," he murmured, and he let her hand go.
"I wish," thought Karen, "that he'd held on a few seconds longer." All the yearning from school days was coming back to her.
Fred took her hand again and kissed it.
"You look so good!" he exclaimed, stepping back to look her over fully.
"You do, too!" Karen blurted and blushed.
"I need to get going now," Fred hurriedly whispered. Karen thought that he looked sweet when he was trying to sound like he was in charge.
They went out of her grandmother's room, down the hall, towards the stairs, past Karen's old room.
"Just a minute, I want to show you something in our Senior yearbook." Karen and Fred had disagreed on the first name of a mutual acquaintance from school days in their recollections. She turned and entered her room. Fred stood in the doorway, watching her.
Her head spun with the thoughts of him; she remembered how she had spent nights, afternoons, mornings ("Hell, whole days," she mocked herself) dreaming about him in this room. She remembered Karilee's scorn; how Karilee's whole circle of friends had condescended to her after they took Fred in.
"I want him. Right here, right now! Too bad he's married to that bitch," she told herself, and then she started to reach to an upper shelf for the yearbook.
Somehow, Fred was right behind her now, embracing her and leaning his head over her shoulder to kiss her ear. His hands swept up from her waist and cupped her breasts through the blouse. As his embrace tightened, she felt the urgent pressure building below his belt, nuzzling her firm rear-end. He was unbuttoning her blouse.
She squirmed free long enough to turn and face him; the embrace resumed, two-sided now, as she ran her hands over his muscles.
Tiny, tentative kisses quickly turned into hungry explorations. They tried intermittently to get words out, but their passion carried them along without verbs. Her blouse opened, his hands caressed the mild curve of her tummy, and then his lips were tracing the lace of her bra.