Auld Lang Syne...Never Forgotten
Was it a Christmas dream, a sexual fantasy, or the eternal attraction of soulmates?
It was Christmas Eve. Old man McKinsey settled into his favorite reclining chair that faced the living room window. The fireplace warmed the room and nearly the entire, small house.
He warmed himself from the cold that seeped through the cracks in his drafty, old windows, by covering his legs with a throw blanket. Not turning on the TV, content looking out the window, he watched the snow silently falling outside. Something amazing about nature, with no two snowflakes exactly alike, the fresh falling snow was beautiful.
As surprised as he was happy that he found it hiding on the shelf way in the back of his bar, forgetting it was there, he found a bottle of a very old scotch called Auld Lang Syne meaning old long since or old times. Auld Lang Syne was a Scottish song created by Robert Burns in 1788.
Glad that he still possessed the unopened bottle, his Christmas gift to himself to find, Mac remembered saving the bottle of scotch for a special occasion. Yet, not having anything to celebrate in years, today was as much of a special occasion as any. It's almost Christmas. Why not open his bottle of good cheer today?
While hoping that it hadn't gone bad, he opened the unopened bottle, sniffed it, and sipped it from the bottle before pouring himself a drink, neat, with a splash of water, and no ice. It tasted good to him. Sadly alone, he didn't have anyone else to share his scotch or celebrate the occasion of him opening the bottle. He never thought that his life would be as empty as it was. Yet, satisfied living alone, he was happy to live a quiet life without distractions by burdening himself with the feelings of someone else.
He had no family and most of his friends had either moved or had passed away. Like every other morning, especially in this cold and damp weather, the arthritis in his knees and fingers painfully reminded him of his more than seventy-years that he survived on this earth. While wondering how much longer he had to live, he remembered his near fatal mishaps, between car accidents, work accidents, and falls. Lucky to have survived as long as he did, he sometimes questioned why he was still alive.
Suddenly feeling lonely, he wished someone had invited him somewhere. He looked out at all of his neighbors' houses decorated with lights and lawn decorations to celebrate the spirit of Christmas. Not having anyone to celebrate the holidays with, and with him no longer in the holiday mood anyway, he hadn't decorated his house in years.
Compared to all of the other houses on the street, his house looked darkly haunted. He didn't even have a Christmas tree. He had no decorations. With him not sending out any Christmas cards, he hadn't received any season's greetings. The only reminder of the season, barely a decoration, was a very small artificial tree that he had on the small coffee table in front of him.
'Humbug,' he thought while wondering if he had turned into Ebenezer Scrooge from Charles Dickens' novel, a Christmas Carol.
Depressingly alone, there were no brightly wrapped presents piled under his non-existent Christmas tree. Not playing any Christmas music, and too stormy for carolers to be singing outside, he sat in silence, sipping his scotch, and dozing off while thinking of better and happier days gone by. Having snoozed with the scotch in his hand without spilling a drop, he didn't know what time it was when he awakened.
# # #
Then, imagining he was hearing things, as if he was a character in Edgar Allen Poe's poem, The Raven, instead of a rap, rap, rap on his chamber door, a faint, albeit distinct knock on his front door awakened him.
'Knock. Knock. Knock.'
Not knowing if the knock was real, imagined, or the wind, he slowly and carefully got up from his chair, and looked out of the window. Too snowy to see anything, he didn't see anyone.
Glad that he wasn't out there, he noticed that the wind had picked up and was really blowing the snow everywhere. The increasingly heavy snow, beautiful to see, made deep snow drifts along his walkway and by his front door. He returned to his easy chair to finish his scotch. Then, as soon as he sat down, he heard the knock again.
'Knock. Knock. Knock.'
He peered out his living room window from his chair while listening.
'Who in their right mind would be out in this weather at this time of night,' he thought to himself.
While waiting to hear it again, he wondered again if the knock was real or imagined?
'Knock. Knock. Knock.'
There it is again. There was another knock, three knocks, faint but distinctive knocks. He wondered if a shutter had loosened and was knocking against the house. Could it be the wind? Yet, whatever it was, not stopping, the knocking continued.
'Knock. Knock. Knock. Knock. Knock. Knock.'
McKinsey yawned, rubbed his eyes, and was now wide awake. He put his scotch on the table, leaned forward, nose over toes, and with his hands firmly pressed on his padded armrests, pushed himself up to stand to answer the door. Before opening the door, he grabbed his cane, an imported Shillelagh, Irish walking stick handcrafted from Blackthorn wood.
Always suspicious of strangers, his cane was a good weapon. He looked out of the side window but the window was frosted over with ice and snow. Unable to see anyone, too dark to see, he hadn't turned on the porch light.
He turned on the porch light, looked out again but still didn't see anyone. Carefully and gingerly, he slowly opened the front door. When he did, he was hit by an icy blast of wind and snow. As if a lawn ornament covered in snow, he could barely make out the silhouette of a small figure bundled up with only a light, hooded coat. It was a woman.
'Who is she,' he thought? 'Why is she out in this storm? Was that her knocking on my door? Why did she knock at my door? I don't know her,' he thought.
# # #
"Sir, may I please come in? I'm so cold." Her arms were tightly wrapped around her while she shivered. "I'm freezing. I'm lost," said the little voice that was nearly silenced by the wind.
Unable to get a good look at her, especially with her hood pulled tightly over her head, the shivering voice came from a petite, young woman, who couldn't be much older than twenty-years-old. Not wearing gloves, a hat, or boots, clearly, she wasn't dressed for this freezing cold weather and this sudden winter storm. Again, he wondered why she was out in this storm. Maybe, her car had broken down, and she needed to use his phone to call for a tow.
'Good luck getting a tow truck in this storm,' he thought.
Showing her the generosity of his holiday spirit, he opened his door wider, stood to the side, and smiled at her. Had she been a man, especially a big man, he never would have opened his door. Yet, with her a petite woman, he didn't feel threatened by her surprised presence.
"Oh my god! Yes, of course, you may come into my house. Get in here before you freeze to death," he exclaimed while opening his door wider and taking her arm to help her inside.
He closed the front door behind her while she wiped her shoes on his rug and shook the snow from her coat. He escorted her to the living room. With a wave of his hand, he motioned her to sit on the couch in front of the fireplace. Before sitting down, he placed another log on the fire.
"Would you like anything to eat or drink," he asked, willing to share his scotch with her?
Then, he wondered with the drinking age of twenty-one, maybe she's not old enough to drink. Yet, a good shot of his scotch would help warm her insides. She smiled up at him and surprised him with what she asked.
"Do you have any hot chocolate with cinnamon and marshmallows," she asked in a quiet voice with a lovely smile?
An odd request but with him having what she had asked for, he was able to honor her request. With her hood covering her head, tightly tied, and pulled around her face, he still hadn't clearly seen her face. He quickly made her a big mug of hot chocolate with cinnamon and marshmallows. He brought one out for himself as well. He handed her the mug, placed his mug on his table by his chair, and sat in his chair across from her.
With him so lonely, thankful for the company, he didn't want her to leave. Strangely enough, suddenly feeling connected to her, he felt as if he knew her. Not waiting for her to answer the first question before asking her another question, and another, he asked her a plethora of rapid fire questions?
"What brings you out on a night like this," he asked? "Why aren't you with your family tonight? It's Christmas eve," he said. "You said you were lost. Who are you looking for," he asked? "Where are you from? What's your name?"
Seemingly waiting for him to finish his volley of questions, she smiled while sipping her hot drink. Then, she let out a little laugh. She paused before answering him while looking at him and smiling.
"My family doesn't live around here anymore. With the snow making everything look the same, I got turned around. I was looking for someone. I think he lives somewhere around here, but I don't remember where," she replied while not answering all of his questions.
Still cold, she shivered. He stood, picked up a blanket, walked to her, and put the blanket around her shoulders.
"I'm so cold," she said with another shiver. "May I stay here for a while to warm up? The fire from the fireplace feels so good."
Happy for the company, he smiled at her.
"Of course, you may stay as long as you'd like," he said, surprised that he said that. "Let me grab an extra blanket for you," he said.
He went to get another blanket from the linen closet. Then, he returned and handed her the blanket before heading out to the kitchen.