We all had rough times growing up, specially when it seems like one day all your friends seem to disappear. I wouldn't call her an imaginary friend because she felt so real to me. Like having a guardian angel, but with a different kind of relationship.. filled with affection, protection, and indescribable happiness.
It was a casual thing, though mystical and on levels of strangeness I could never explain. But I always found great comfort it in. I would sometimes see "her" in my thoughts when I'm crying. I never knew her name, or in a way I did know her name but it was more of a feeling then a word. I'd be wrapped up in myself on the bed, not caring about anything or anyone, mad at the world.. consumed with so much anger and hurt.
Then I would open my eyes and she'd be there laying next to me... stroking my hair as she watches me. I could see the concern on her face, and the warmth of her caring would stir inside of me. I'd feel embarrassed about impure thoughts, but she wants me to explore them. She understand everything about the human sexual appetite and wants to feed everything that I crave. I reach out and touch her tummy, then waist and she coos like a bird, closing her eyes with a smile. Putting her hand over the flesh covering my human heart. I pull her closer, my lips kissing up and down her tummy. I can feel the tip of one of her wings gently brushing up and down my back.