"Because it won't end well hombre. It will only leads to lots of suffering for u." Ariana added "I think we should stop here for the night. We'll chat again tmr ok?"
"Ok. Good nite angel." Was John's simple reply.
What Ariana could not see was the hurt in his eyes. John finally realized that the feeling he had for Ariana is deeper than he thought. The pain he felt was that of rejection even though he knew she was right. They are both married to others. It would take a series of painful events for them to have a chance of ever being together.
Ariana still seated in front of her now off computer feeling shocked at the slight disclosure of John's feelings for her. In the past she had came across lots of men professing their undying love for her only to move on when she discouraged them. Only John was different to her. Though it's been only a short time, he had somehow manage to steal his way through the defenses of her heart. She now can clearly see that before every night's show she would feel a certain hope for John to be there in her room. A certain feeling of sadness when its time for them to part. Can it be that she too had fallen for him?
For the next few days, John did not go online to see Ariana. He was so distracted that he nearly forgotten his daughter's birthday if not for his other 2 children reminding him to buy a birthday cake for their younger sibling. He really needed to sort out his feelings. to have a better understanding of what actually happened.
Ariana's heart sunk in disappointment the past few nights whenever she saw that the familiar moniker "Lonelyhubby" was missing from her room. She never thought she would be missing John so bad when he is not around. It affected her mood and for a few days in a row she logged off earlier than normal because she found it harder to fake a smile. After much thought that she can't carry on this way. She had to move on, as much as it would hurt her she decided that its best she took herself out of the equation.
After nearly a week, Ariana wrote a message to John using the site's messaging service. Hoping that he will understand her position better, that what she was going to do would be best for everyone. At the same time John finally decided to face his demons and have a talk with Ariana. When he signed into the site he saw that his message icon was blinking. Upon opening it he saw that its a message from Angeldust.
"Hi John. I am writing to you to tell you that I have joined another site. You won't be able to find me so please don't try. I would be a liar to say that I don't feel something for you. I do. I missed you when you are not here. But I have too much baggage. Although I nearly divorced my husband last year, I am glad that I did not. He may not be the best man in the world but he is the father of my child and he is a good father. I have seen what a broken marriage can do to a young child so on the account of my child, I will not leave my husband for another relationship or for anything in this world. I am doing this for my child. Also you are married too. Think of your children. So I am leaving the site to spare us any further pain from an impossible romance. Don't ever think that you are alone in heartache. Though it has been a few weeks, every time we speak you make me feel special. My heart would soar with happiness when i see you in my room. You gave me something that was missing from my marriage. For this I thank you. If fate wants us to meet again, we will meet again. And for what's it's worth I love you. Missing you forever Ariana."
The dull ache in John's chest became more and more unbearable as he read her message further.
Tears formed and rolled down his cheeks. For the first time since the passing of his father, John cried for something that died when it barely began. Accepting that there is nearly nothing could be done the grown man turned off the computer, went to bed heartbroken once again. "I love you too Ariana."John whispered to himself as tears rolled down his cheeks to soaked the pillow.
