Author's comment:
This is the long-delayed third chapter in the story of Amber and Sam. Forgive the delay; life happens. And if you haven't already read the first two installments, go back and visit them before tackling this. Thank you for the comments and support.
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Amber caught her breath, lifting her face from Sam's now-damp shirt. She looked into his eyes, trying to find some sign of his feelings. But all she saw was abject sadness, which she interpreted as a precursor to his ending their short relationship. Sam stared down at her, his muscles tensed to avoid pulling her to him and kissing her tear-stained cheeks. He couldn't find words that would express how he felt, how empty his heart was over losing her. He wanted to beg, plead, fall to his knees ... anything that would convince Amber he was sorry about last night and would never let it happen again.
While Sam was waging an internal struggle for the right words, Amber broke the silence. "Sam, I love you. I don't understand it, I didn't try to make it happen and no matter what you say it won't change that. I do love you. I am sorry if I have been too clingy, too needy, too much of a hanger-on. I don't know how to be a girlfriend, if that's what I am to you. I've never had any kind of a relationship with a boy, certainly not one as deep and challenging as this one. So I guess I've made mistakes. And you seem to be struggling with how to tell me we can't see one another anymore, so I guess those mistakes were pretty big ones."
Sam opened his mouth to speak but Amber pushed on. "Please, don't say anything yet. Let me finish. Losing you will hurt more than anything that has ever happened to me. Losing my father hurt because I thought it was my fault, that I had ruined my mother's life and love. I've been hurt by people saying mean things to me in school. But I've never hurt like I'll hurt without you. And it won't go away. But I will always treasure our time together. Most people never meet the perfect mate. I've met mine. Apparently, I've screwed up the chance and lost him, but at least I've met him. I love you, Sam, and I always will. I am not angry that you want to move on and I don't hate you for it. I hope someday I'll understand it, and I hope in time that we'll find a way to be friends." Amber finished her speech and dropped her head. Her shoulders sank and she stood like a ragdoll, limp and lifeless on the boardwalk.
Sam took a tentative step toward his girlfriend and then paused. Clearly she wasn't angry about last night but she thinks he's ready to dump her because she's too needy. What can he say to reassure her that he'll never leave, never be upset at her, never feel that she's being unreasonable? Finally, the words come to him as he steps into an embrace. Taking Amber into his arms, he pulls her to him gently, reaching down and lightly gripping her chin to turn her tear-stained face up to his. "I love you, Amber. Deeply, completely and without reservation. I never want to lose you, never want to be away from you. Nothing could make me say anything to separate us."
He kissed her gently, then pulled her hand as he strode down the boardwalk. "Where are we going?" Amber asked, still overwhelmed that her misperception almost cost her the love of her life.
"Just come with me," Sam said. "I know how I can reassure you that I'm not going anywhere."
The pair walked briskly down the boardwalk in the lengthening evening shadows, arriving at the door of a shop Amber didn't recognize just as the owner was backing out to close for the night. "Are you closed?" Sam said. "We really wanted to make a special purchase."
The owner turned and smiled at the attractive young couple. "Well if that's the case then I'm not closed," he said, turning the key and pushing the door open again. "We'll just close the door behind us so we won't be disturbed."
Amber was so caught up in the exchange that she was in the shop before she looked around. She realized with a start that it was a jewelry store specializing in custom-designed necklaces, rings and bracelets. Still holding Sam's hand, she felt herself being propelled toward the back counter of the U-shaped shop. In a case before her were several beautiful wedding sets. Amber's heart lept in her chest and she turned sharply to look at Sam. He was staring steadily at her. "Amber Jacobsen, will you marry me? We'll have the longest engagement in history but if you say 'yes' we can pick out a ring and you'll never again wonder if I want to leave you."
Amber's faucets opened again, this time in unbridled joy. "Yes! Yes! Yes! I love you, Sam, and I want to be your wife. And I don't care if we're engaged for 20 years as long as we'll be together forever. You don't have to buy me a ring to prove your love. Just bringing me here, saying those words has proven it beyond any symbol." They kissed, oblivious to the shopkeeper who stood quietly by and watched perhaps the most-beautiful exchange of vows he'd ever witnessed.
After long moments, Amber and Sam became aware they weren't alone and unclenched, blushing with embarrassment. "We're so sorry," Amber said. "That was totally uncalled-for. And you've been so kind to stay open for Sam. I don't know if we're really ready to buy a ring yet, though."
Sam put his arm around his now-fiance. "We're ready," he said. "You aren't going off to school with a bunch of desperate jocks, nerds and ne'er-do-wells without something that lets them know you're taken. So forget your protests and tell this nice man which of these rings you like best. And no asking prices -- this isn't about budgeting or anything else. I'm only buying one ring in my lifetime so it has to be priceless. The girl who's getting it certainly is."
Amber was overwhelmed. "Sam, I just don't know. I've never even thought about a ring. I guess I never imagined I'd meet anyone as special as you, someone who actually wanted to spend their life with me. And I'm not a big jewelry person as you may have noticed. I'm just an ordinary girl." She turned toward the display cases with a frown, wanting to please Sam but clearly unnerved by the whole process.
The shopkeeper broke his silence and addressed Amber. "If I may, could I show you a few pieces that I think you might like? I am a designer -- these are all my original work -- and I try to imagine the buyer when I'm working. I think I can find something that suits you, something that I saw you in when I was designing it." He walked down the left side of the shop and bent to retrieve a tray of rings from a locked case. "These aren't displayed," he said. "They're pieces I created for special people and I only take them out when one of those people comes into the shop."
He set the blue velvet tray down and extracted two rings. Both are simple in design, one in platinum and one in gold. Both, rather than solitaire, have emerald-cut diamonds in a row around the top third of the band. The stones are so carefully matched, so expertly mounted that they look like one oblong faceted stone, glittering in the showroom light. As she looked at the rings, Amber's breath caught in her chest. She had never seen anything so beautiful. They were simple but exquisite, plain but captivating. They really did look like they had been crafted just for her! Reaching for her hand, the jeweler slipped the platinum band on her finger. It was a perfect fit and Amber couldn't take her eyes off it. "That would be my choice," he said. "I think it suits you best, though I like the 24 carat ring equally well."
Amber was still staring at the ring when Sam spoke over her shoulder. "I think you've picked the perfect ring for a perfect girl. And it apparently doesn't even need sizing. So let me give you my credit information and we'll let you get home for supper. Thank you so much for staying for us and for selecting the most beautiful engagement ring I could have imagined. We'll be back in a few years for the wedding bands so please keep us posted if you move the shop."
He handed his credit card to the owner and turned Amber to face him. He reached down and pulled the ring off her finger, dropping to his knees as he did so. "Amber, I love you more than life itself. I want to spend my life with you, build a family and grow old together. Please accept this ring as a token of my love and fidelity. Will you be my wife?" He slipped the ring onto her finger as she pulled him to her in a warm embrace.
"Yes, my love, I will be your wife. And the mother of your children, the grandmother of your grandchildren and the great-grandmother of your great-grandchildren. And I will never love you less than I do at this moment. Thank you for being you. And thank you for this beautiful symbol of your eternal love."
The shopkeeper returned with Sam's receipt and a small box. "The ring is part of a set. The wedding band is in the box but it's bad luck if she sees it before the ceremony. I can craft a mate to it when you're ready. Thank you for coming in, and for reminding me why I do what I do. It's not about the metal or the stones or the price ... it's about the love two people discover that unite them on a lifelong journey. Please enjoy and come back to see me from time to time. I want to make sure the ring continues to shine as brightly as your love. God bless!"
Amber's head was swimming as she walked out of the shop in Sam's grasp. She turned instinctively toward her cottage but Sam propelled her in the opposite direction. "Not so quick, lady," he teased. "We have a stop to make before I take you home. And I promise it won't be long because I don't want your mom angry at us on our engagement day."
Turning down a side street, Sam held Amber more tightly. Suddenly she realized where they were, and where they were headed. "Are we going to your house?" she asked. "Why are you taking me there?"
Sam chuckled. "Yes, smarty, we're going to my house. And we're going there so my parents can toast their new daughter-in-law-to-be. If we went to your house first we'd never get away from your mom again and I wanted my parents to know right away."
"Do you think they'll be upset that we're moving too fast," Amber said, her sensible side kicking in finally after a night of not-sensible-at-all events.