We've been friends for years. We know most of each other's secrets, if not all. We've seen each other go through heartaches, and been there for each other.
But tonight felt different. We went out for dinner, had a few drinks and talked. Some serious stuff, but mostly just daily life, like always. It wasn't what we said that gave our time together a different mood. It was partly what wasn't said, and partly the way you looked at me. And I guess the way I looked at you. It was almost as though we saw something that we've either ignored all these years, or just really never saw before.
For me, I saw a man I felt I could trust with my life. Yes, you knew my secrets, and I knew I could trust you with them. This wasn't that kind of trust. This was, I could give you my heart, my love, even my life, and know you would always cherish it. That kind of trust is not something I give freely. And to suddenly have seen I could give it to you, that just blew me away!
Here we are, in a crowded restaurant, distractions everywhere, and I pick now to suddenly "see" you! Talk about timing! You ask how my food is. The steak is delicious...at least I think it is. My taste buds shut off about the same time I realised my feelings for you are more than friendly. And about the time I saw that look in your eyes that said you might feel the same about me, well, that's when my heart began racing against my lungs to see who could be fastest! So here I sit, blood charging through my veins as my heart pounds in triple-time! My breathing is so fast and hard I'm near to hyperventilating! And I just know I've got a goofy grin plastered to my face. That or I've got such a look of shock it's bound to scare you off!
Long Island Iced Tea. You know, I've never had one. And even after just finishing one, with you watching me, I can honestly say I've still never had one. I have no idea what it looks like, or tastes like! All I see is you, all I feel is you watching my every move. French fries...my weakness! Well, at least they usually are my weakness. Tonight they could have been made of liver for all that I tasted them. My stomach says I ate, my mouth is more than willing to debate that. My mouth. It's very dry all of a sudden. As I lick my lips, I see that look in your eyes again. I see them watch as my tongue traces first my upper, then my lower lip. I try to swallow. Hard to do when your salivary glands seem to have gone on strike! I reach for my water and take a drink. Very cold, very refreshing, it helps for the moment.
As I look back at you, I smile shyly. Why am I shy? I wish I could say. As I gaze at you, I feel lost. It's like you aren't the man I've known all these years, and I'm confused. I know you are that same man, and that just confuses me more. Why didn't I see this man, the one who seems to have appeared out of nowhere, all these years? This sexy, caring man has been here all this time and I didn't see him?! Talk about blind!
After our meal, you pay the bill and we leave. As we get into your car, you tell me you aren't ready to drop me off yet. I smile. I'm not ready to leave you yet either. You ask if I'd like to go somewhere. I reply, anywhere, with you. We head back to your place.
As we enter the house, it's caped in darkness. Holding your hand, I follow you through the house to your room. A soft glow is created by the street light as it bends and reaches through your partially closed blinds. Entering your room behind you, I see the huge bed in the center. As you close the door, the click startles me. You come to me, slowly. Nearing me, you reach out a hand and run it through my hair. I close my eyes and marvel at the sensations that course through me. As your hand slides down, caressing my face, I turn into your palm and gently kiss it. Opening my eyes, I look up just as your face is nearing mine. Our combined breaths upon our faces are hot and quick. We touch our lips together, so slowly. Feather-light, soft, gentle, our first kiss feels almost sacred. Your hand still on my face, in my hair, you pull me closer and wrap your other arm around me. I oh-so-slowly slip my arms around you and lean into your body. Our next kiss, though just as soft, is deeper. It pulls at us, drawing our tongues and our emotions into each other.
As we drown in the flood of emotions rising around us, our kiss deepens, strengthens. Our hands are no longer content to remain in one place. They begin traveling, caressing, seeking out areas to touch and feel. My hands travel up and down along your spine, my nails gently grazing through your shirt. I feel you stiffen your back, tighten your arm around me, and grab at the hair wrapped around your fingers as you pull me deeper into our kiss. I gasp into you, my eyes pop open as all these sensations bombard me! Finally, we break the kiss. WOW! We both say it at exactly the same moment.