"Don't listen to anybody. Nobody knows the magic bullet. If they did, they'd sell it and make a fortune. Follow your gut. Follow your instincts. Every once in a while, take a chance." - Michael Cudlitz
Samantha looked around her second-floor room in her parents' home. It was like a 5-star hotel suite with a furnished living room that included designer furniture, a 60" 4k television Super HD television that could retract with an amazing surround sound system that was built in as to not spoil the flow of the interior design. An area to eat that could seat 6, a fully stock bar, a small kitchen area with a frig, stove, and micro-wave. Off to left the side of the living room was a set of double doors that led to a bedroom fit for a princess. She was Daddy's little girl and though 'Billionaire' Benjamin David Harrison was an extremely busy man, he kept his family close. Family was everything. It was the one of the many things he impressed on all his children when the opportunity presented itself.
Samantha picked up the service phone and asked Maria, one of the family's long time live in staff to bring her a coffee before she sat down. She had been carrying around her cell since her conversation that morning trying to decide if she should follow Cheryl's advice. Maria knocked on the door before entering to serve Samantha. Maria had been working for the Harrison's since Samantha was a young teenager and knew her moods. After pouring the coffee and placing it on a small table she asked Samantha, "Is everything ok Miss Samantha? You look a little sad."
Sam looked up and said, "Oh Maria, I met a nice guy last night. I mean really nice. And Handsome? Yes...yes...and yes! You know that actor, Jake Gyllenhaal? He's his identical twin."
"That's a good start. Show me a woman who doesn't enjoy the company of a handsome man and I'll show you a woman who prefers other women. Did you have a nice time?"
"Seriously? Yes, I did, but he's is couple years younger than me and..."
Maria laughed, "Miss Samantha, you're only 25. Was he wearing diapers? How much younger is he and do you have trouble with him being less experienced and mature than you?"
"No, no, that's not it. Well, some of it is... it's complicated."
"Miss Samantha, men are not that complicated. They are quite simple. Either they are good or they are bad. You say he's handsome, but are you attracted to him? "
"You mean like, 'having sex with him', attractive?"
"Is there any other kind?"
Sam smiled at that thought for a moment, "I wouldn't kick him out bed. But,I don't know if he's worth the effort."
Maria looked compassionately at her young miss. She knew the young woman's unfortunate social life history with men. Men could be such bastards. Maria had experienced her share of disappointments in life.
Maria's first husband was a handsome a man as she was as beautiful a woman. He was also a cheating shit that gave her a serious STD after being married just 6 months. When she came home with the doctor's report, she seriously considering stabbing him to death with a kitchen knife, but thank Mary mother of Jesus her sister was there and held her back. She convinced Maria to throw all his clothes out of the their home and kick his ass out as soon as he came home that same evening. Maria was divorced 6 months later. That happened when she was just 19 and set the foundation for her trust issues with men. Now 16 years later and at the age of 35, Maria was still single. Sure, she had dated but she needed a real man. A man who would love her for who she was and not just because she was a Latin bombshell any man would use as masturbation material. This was the common thread shared between the exotic beauty and the beautiful young woman she attended. Both wanted someone not only to love, but to entrust their heart with.
"Do you see him lacking in traits you define as manly? Did he show respect to you? How was respect shown? How similar are your tastes in music, entertainment, recreation, holidays, sexual appetite and physical fitness?"
This is exactly the reason why Samantha enjoyed confiding with Maria. She asked the hard questions. Samantha could take the hard questions and decided a few years before she would ask her parents permission to take Maria with her when she finally moved out.
"Maria, it was just a blind date. We talked some but..."
"Miss Samantha, was he easy to talk to?"
Samantha laughed, "Yes, he was easy to talk to, but ...I want a future with a man. How do I know if those plans should include him?"
Marie replied, "They're people who are able to plan their career, their future, and their love life, but I've never had any luck with that. I just do things and hope for the best. All I can suggest is to say yes, take a chance. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't."
Samantha looking at her phone, replied, "My father told me once, every time he moved ahead in business, it was because he was willing to take a chance, put his head on the block, and would try something new. The problem for me is after a while that gets to be a pain in the neck. "
Maria thought a moment, "Listen to what your gut tells you. Not your heart. The heart is so foolish it can't help its way of behaving. Of course, you have to find the man attractive first, no? You will want to make love with him no? Who wants to sleep with an ugly man? Second, did he treat you with respect and like a lady? Was he more interested in talking about himself or you? Third, is he a real man ready to devote himself to one woman? To care for you only and love you only? That is what I look for and demand. I would rather live alone the rest of my life than to be with a man that did feel the same way. Why? Because if you do get in involved with a man like that it will be like living alone anyway. In the end it will destroy you."
Maria finished bitterly before she could bite her lip. She looked down at Samantha. No, this wasn't the fair way to finish this conversation. With her own bitterness and frustrations. She must be positive for her young miss. "You need a man who is proud to love you and willing to risk it all just to be with you".
"Maria, where do I find a man like that?"
"Samantha, it may be as simple as taking a chance and grabbing some young man's hand you're interested in." After a pause, "Is there anything else I can get you now?"
Sam looked up from her phone, "No thank you, Maria. Before you go, one more thing. May I ask, where did you learn these things about men?"
Maria sighed, "Oh Miss Samantha, I learned what I want from a man by experiencing what I didn't want from a man. A meaningful life is about being real. Only then will you and I or any woman be able to share ourselves completely with another to have a full, happy and contented life. I want a real man, not someone doing his impersonation of a real man."
Looking around at the wealth in the room for a moment, "Please don't be angry with me for what I am about to say, but things will not make to happy. A good man and a nice family are what would make me happy. You are a woman too Samantha and this is our world. Look at your mother. She is a wonderful woman who watches over your family like a she-wolf. Believe me now. A mother pass's that on to her daughters. She has passed that on to you. I see it in you! Be a proud and strong woman like your mother. That is her gift to you. It is your destiny!"
Maria was not the house maid now. Maria was a freaking 'Master Jedi". Jesus Christ! Samantha was amazed as she saw a passion in Maria she'd never displayed before. A passion for life. A passion for a life she wanted but did not have the courage to pursue. Life was so unfair at times. Samantha needed answers and had to ask, "Is there anything you look for... you know...in a man?"
Maria smiled, "Well, for me? A man, how you say, he has to make the hair on the back of my neck stand when he is near. At least in the beginning. He should be handsome but as a couple... YOU should be the more attractive one. Do you understand want I am saying?"
Samantha nodded her head in agreement. "Maria, I think I should have written this all down. This is really some good advice."
Maria had to get back to work but she felt happy to have the young miss listen to her advice, "And no matter what, if you're not attracted to him like that, forget him! You will end up being miserable. And with a beautiful woman like you, he should put you up on a pedestal!"
Samantha broke out in laughter at that.