Having gotten word from Hannah that Paul had been to see Allyson John left work early. He had his suspicions. He thought somebody had been seeing her, and somebody had tipped over the apple cart regarding the judge. Who else but Paul? Yes Paul was a problem. He had to be dealt with.
Meanwhile back at the house, after Paul left Allyson continued with her usual routines; cleaning, scrubbing, and just generally trying to keep busy. If what Paul had intimated was at all true then just maybe John had changed; maybe he'd return to the 'old John' she'd grown to love and adore. She stopped, looked in the mirror and persuaded herself, yes, it could happen.
She'd just finished the beds when she heard the front door. It had to be John! She was sure of it. She put her cleaning apparel aside and ran down the front stairs.
The house had two sets of stairs; there were the front stairs for everyday use, and there was a back set. It was the back stairs Allyson was expected to use when at work, which lately meant all the time.
Yes, it was John! She was convinced he'd come home early because he loved her. In her excitement Allyson ran head long down the front stairs. She got to the bottom just as John walked in the living room.
He looked at her as she reached the bottom step. She looked like the wrath of god, her nylon work uniform was stained, her hair was a knotted mess, shoe laces untied, and she was out of breath, perspiring, breasts pressing out and up through the zippered top of her uniform. He was angry as hell, "What are you doing young lady?"
Allyson, oblivious of the rule she'd just broken answered, "I heard the front door, and thought it might be you. I wanted to get down as fast as I could."
A stone faced John replied, "You know you're not to use the front stairs."
She hesitated. His comment caught her completely off guard, "But I wanted to get down and see you."
"Well you see me. So why did you break the rule?"
"I was excited. I knew it was you."
"You broke a rule."
"I know. I didn't mean to. Gee John, I'm sorry. I wanted ..."
"Come over here," he pointed to floor in front of his feet.
Allyson ran to the place he pointed and knelt on the floor, "I'm sorry John."
John frowned down at her, "Are we sitting properly?"
When Allyson was being criticized or lectured she was expected to kneel on the carpet or floor, head bowed, eyes downcast with her hands clasped neatly in her lap. She whispered obsequiously, "No." She quickly made the appropriate adjustments.
With her eyes fixed resolutely on the tops of John's wing tipped shoes she couldn't see the sadistic smile on his face. Had she, she would have known how frightening her future, if nothing was done, was to become. He asked, "Tell me Allyson, why do we have rules?"
She stammered out, "Well we have rules to make things..., life I mean, more efficient."
This was fun for John. He asked, "Yes, and what else?"
Allyson recovered a little. She looked up coquettishly, batted her eyes and answered, "Rules give us routines. They give us clear cut ways of doing things."
John wasn't amused, "Eyes down. And what else."
She slumped. Being cute wouldn't work. He might really be mad. If that was the case she had a disheartening premonition of what really might be coming. She decided to try the soft sincere apologetic approach, "Rules are good for discipline."
John thought, 'this was good', a little more and I'll have her where I want her. He looked down and gave her one of his Olympian stares, "Allyson when you ran down the front stairs dressed as you are in your work uniform, all stained and sweaty, were you exercising good judgment? Were you showing self-discipline?"
Allyson didn't like the direction of things. She had to come up with something plausible, "Well I guess no, but I..."
John held up a hand, and turned his head.
This wasn't funny. She smelled of whiff brimstone. She tried again, "I..."
He cut her off, "What if I'd brought a client home? What if I had someone I wanted to show you off to? How do you think they would have reacted if they saw your clumsy display of poor judgment and childish lack of discipline? Look at yourself; you're a mess; dirty uniform, mussed hair, scuffed and untied shoes, soaking wet with sweat, and your bosoms are half out of your dress. What do you have to say about that?"
Allyson worked to adjust the top of her uniform, "John I've been hard at work, and..."
"And?"
She knew she couldn't alibi or offer any explanation. His mind was made up. He liked beating her up with trivia; she dare not defy him, "And I'm just sorry."
John had his apology. Now he could take it to the next level, "Sorry! Sorry for what? Being a mess, or for breaking an important rule."
"I...I guess for breaking..."
He interrupted, "For breaking a rule? But look at you! You look like a filthy pig. A pig! You hear me? A pig!"
"John I'm..."
"Don't alibi. You can't explain or lie your way out of this one. You've been bad, very bad. Tell me, what would you have done if I had brought company?"
Allyson was in trouble. John was on a roll, and there wasn't anything she could say or do. Of course he was right. He was always right when it came to things like this, when it came to her. She had no right to disagree or in any way defend what she'd done. Even when she was right she was wrong. There was no argument; she'd been bad, she knew it. The front stairs weren't for her. She wasn't allowed. She gulped and stammered out, "I...I guess they would have been...well...surprised."
These were moments John had come to cherish; Allyson at his feet, degraded, helpless in the face of his awful logic. He would proceed to engineer her further degradation, reduce her sense of personal worth, strip away her self esteem, denude her of that last morsel of confidence. God how he loved this, "You mean embarrassed. And listen to yourself. You're supposed to be a college graduate, a woman with some poise, some sense. You're stammering and stuttering like some twelve year old child. When are you going to grow up? No wonder I've had to rely on Hannah. You're just too damned childish, too damned backward. I'm engaged to a ten year old child."
Allyson knelt there in awkward silence.
He snarled, "Well! Speak up!"
A crushed and enfeebled Allyson replied, "Yes I guess... I guess...John...I'm sorry."
It was time to drive it home; force her to acknowledge her incompetence, her inadequacy, "You guess so?"
Genuinely scared she tried to answer, "I mean...I guess," She was upset. She realized she'd made a mistake, and John was really angry. He might punish her, "Oh I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. Please John forgive me." She leaned forward, she reached out and touched his knee, "Please John." She looked up pleadingly; sad imploring green eyes looking up at angry brown eyes.
Down came another series of emotionally crushing blows; mental shocks intended to bludgeon her into intellectual impotence, pulverize her into complete dependence, "So you're a sorry housekeeper, a sorry girlfriend, and just an all around sorry little miss."
It wasn't about the stairs anymore. He had something else in mind. Casting her eyes downward again she pleaded, "Oh John, I didn't mean to break the rule. I didn't mean to be so messy."
In the past this was when he'd release her from her torment, end the tongue lashing with a paternalistic pat on the head. Then sometimes a little more self effacement followed by a few forgiving words and a warm smile. Not today. No compassion today! Today he was out for worshipful obeisance, complete contrition. "But you did and you are."
She tried to cling to some measure of rationality, "Yes I guess. I mean yes I did. Oh, yes I am. John I'm so sorry."
John wouldn't have it, "A sorry little maid; Allyson you're just a sorry little maid aren't you?"
She gave up on touching the knee. She knelt on the floor wringing her hands, afraid to look at him. Tears were seeping out of the corners of her eyes, "Yes I guess I am."
Her final degradation came calmly, cruel in its somber gentleness, "Guess what, come on, and say it."
"I'm a sorry little maid," she looked up at him again, begging, "John please."
It was time for her final humiliation, the nadir. He reached down, and with his right hand he tucked up her chin so she had to face him, "You know you have to be disciplined.
She was in tears, "Yes."
She started to cry. She leaned forward and wrapped her arms around his legs, "John please!"
He pushed her away, "Go to my office, take off all your clothes, and wait for me."
Her disgrace had been complete. The last residual locks of self respect had been sheared away. Allyson got up and started to run for his office.
John loved these moments. He shouted out, "What? You're just leaving?"
Allyson ran back and knelt down again, "May I be excused now?
"What?"
She'd forgotten to say please, "May I pleased be excused?"
"Yes you may be excused."