Hello kind readers! So far, I have resisted writing introductions, but i want to take a second to thank you for the support and positive feedback I've received on both of my series. This story in particular is very personal to me, and it means a lot that it has been received so well. It's sparked a renewed motivation to do the hard work of writing and editing every day, both for my own edification, and to share my work with you all.
I am very excited about this section in particular, and I hope you like it as much as I do. I think the characters really come into their own in this point of the story, and I think this is the best sex scene I have ever written.
So grab a glass of wine, or whatever makes you happy, and please enjoy:
Chapter 11 - The Epicenter of the Violence
With no shower to be found, our options for cleaning up were limited. The best we could find was a package of moist wipes lying under the coffee table. Amy cleaned herself up, finally removing her now ruined thong, and walked back toward her luggage to get dressed. I cleaned myself off as best I could, her sent still faintly clinging to my face, and put my clothes back on.
I extracted the DVD from the player and replaced it in its case, the cover art reminding me of several of the anecdotes Amy relayed to me about the movie. A smile crept over my face as I remembered how happy she was watching the film next to me. As I replaced the case on the shelf and closed the compartment, she slipped in behind me and took a seat on the couch.
I turned around and looked at her, smiling, and took a seat next to her. "It was really sweet to see how much you love that movie." I said softly.
She looked back at me, discomfort and gratitude fighting a silent battle on her face. "I do love that movie. And a lot of other movies. It's the violence, in Pulp Fiction. A collection of people who wield violence as a means to an end. In the Mia and Vincent scene, it's the overarching threat of violence from Marcellus that creates the tension, and creates the situation in which Mia almost comes to an accidental violent end. The men ritualize their violence, attempting to civilize it, but in the end we see it's all a pretense for justifying the indulgence of their more base desires."
She let it sit between us for a while and I thought about her insight, about how it looks behind her eyes.
"Mia is drawn to the epicenter of the violence, both attracted to and threatened by it. She thrives in the space between their pretense and reality, indulging her own desires as recklessly as she feels she can get away with."
She paused again, now looking down at nothing in particular. "It feels so reflective of my life. We are violent creatures, thrashing between our pretense and our reality, all of us just trying desperately to feel a sense of satisfaction, no matter how fleeting. Sex is a violent act to varying degrees, sometimes motivated by passion or the pursuit of pleasure, other times motivated by a lust for dominance or even subjugation. Often it is a fluid mix of different drives. Violence is as seductive as it can be terrifying, having as much potential to inflict harm as to force growth, and as much as we would like to think of ourselves as peaceful animals, we have always craved and reveled in our violence."
I felt like she was right, but her conclusion felt so alien from the typical human narrative that I began to feel the now-familiar sensation of uncomfortable, inevitable change. Her experience differed so wildly from mine, who was I to argue with her notions on the nature of human violence? I felt the violence in my own heart. I wanted her. Some part of me to dominate her, some part of me to feel her dominance. I could feel her slicing into me, altering me. And I craved more.
"Do you think men and women have the same capacity for violence?" I found myself saying to her eventually, the question somehow emerging directly from my subconscious.
For once, she didn't editorialize my question. "Yes. Men might have a stronger inclination toward physical violence, but that just means women become adept at inflicting intangible harm."
It was getting fairly late in the day, and it was difficult to maintain a clear sense of time as we raced toward the sun in the west. I wasn't certain how long I had slept earlier, but for her part, Amy was looking a bit tired. I hadn't had the sense to ask more about where we were going or when we were supposed to get there. Up until this moment, it didn't seem all that important.
"How much longer do you figure the flight will be?" I asked her finally, changing the subject.
"Oh, we've got a ways to go still. It's about 15 hours when it's all said and done, and it's a pretty extreme time change once we get on the ground. We will get there about 12:30 in the morning tomorrow our time, which will be 6:30pm in Christchurch."
"The jet lag is going to be a bitch any way we slice it, but it probably makes the most sense for us to take a bit of a nap here pretty soon. It's mid-morning in Christchurch now, so think of it as a bit of a siesta."
She stood up again and took my hand, pulling me to my feet. I was hungry, but not hungry enough to open that door again. I imagined she felt the same way. I supposed she was right, and it did feel like the right time for a nap. We crawled back into the bed together, this time she crawled onto my shoulder and rested her head on my chest. Before long, I felt her breathing slow as she drifted off to sleep, pulling me close behind her.
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Chapter 12 - Otahuna
The rest of the flight and the twilight landing in Christchurch were surprisingly uneventful. Our nap, although pleasant, only reinforced my growing sense of surrealism at my surroundings. It was impossible to get my bearings after waking up, because the position of the sun did not seem to have changed.
We watched a few less auspicious films to pass the remaining hours of the flight, cuddling and occasionally chatting, but a bone-deep weariness began to set in towards the end of the flight. Not to mention a nagging hunger.
When the plane finally landed, we breezed past the captain and the steward without farewell, alighting the plane with all the haste we could manage in our weary state. A black car was waiting for us on the runway, which we boarded with enthusiasm.