All the characters in this story are fictional. The story is fictional based on imagination, eroticism and a little speculation. Hope you enjoy it! Thank you, the author.
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Friday, April 4, 2006
"Scoundrels are better in bed, Rebecca," Gary said to me.
"And, you are not a scoundrel," I replied. But, I knew it was true based on womanizing traits who were indeed sexy scoundrels, of a sort.
"Anyway, how would you know whose better, Gary? You've been out of circulation for too long. But, tell me, you're not the best lover on earth because of my college training when you were still a virgin?" I asked.
"Rebecca, you just don't know what you've been missing all these years," he said grinning ear to ear.
"Well, I'm remembering a young shy man. I would have taught you more but instead I wontedly aggravated your fantasy mind to no end. As I recall, you love to kiss and be teased. You love watching a woman show off for you. You love, love and love giving oral sex. Furthermore, you love giving pleasure to a woman, in general. The sweet trembling of a woman on the edge and the perimeter of an orgasm turns you on immensely."
He knew I was right, as usual.
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When Gary was going through some difficult times in his marriage with Sally, he made an inference to me about having an affair. I was reluctant to get involved with him on so many levels. I told him exactly I felt at the time.
I loved a man around me. I loved to see one naked. I loved to cook for one and be with one constantly while in a relationship. I was never interested in solving anyone else's relationship or marital problems - or being a fifth wheel in an extramarital affair. I never wanted to be a go-between Gary and Sally while he was figuring out his own problems and desires.
Back then, I didn't know what would happen if I got involved with Gary again. College had been a long time ago although we remained friends over the last two decades. I knew we loved each other at a lot of different levels since college although I never really wanted to marry him back then.
Professionally, Gary and I were both successful. With personal affairs, we both sucked.
Gary needed to figure out his marital situation ... to stay or to stray ... I was only there to listen but not be trapped in an affair where I may get hurt as he meandered and experimented with another woman. Especially, not me β one he had known for years.
At 45 and not 21 anymore, a massage meant sex and coming over to a single girl's apartment meant sex. These offerings I took seriously from him.
I wasn't completely opposed to a relationship with Gary. I didn't think the timing was right. An affair might be good ... it may perhaps be terrible. We didn't share enough about our present lives for me to even imagine an escapade with Gary.
I would go out for dinner with him. I liked going out in public. I liked being in front of people with a man. He, on the other hand, was not in that place at this time to be seen with another woman in public.
Gary went to group functions but had few close relationships. I didn't think this was unusual for a man, in general. Men tend to form stronger friendly and intimate relationships with their wives, family or relatives, in my opinion. Gary had been with Sally for many years. From the sound of it, their relationship never seemed quite normal or participative as a couple.
I sent him a letter about my by decision to not become involved with him.
It would be for the better if I stuck with my decision.
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Monday, July 7, 2004
Dear Gary,
YES! You made me very nervous with your propositions and many suggestions that we pursue an affair with each other.
Although, fun may be in store and a casual affair would be desirable, I do panic at the thought of this at this time. I need to dissuade you and push you away. I know this is my tendency based on history especially when we were younger. I don't judge you. I would never assume anything about you or what we have shared in confidence as man and woman. Don't ever worry about this.
I'm sorry ... Gary. My life is complicated on a lot of different levels at this time. I know that I can be overly sensitive and worrisome. Although, this is not a light topic or subject matter, there are certain feelings you provoke in me so it is best we go about our own ways at this time.
You are an intelligent man. You know what is best for you as I know what is best for me. You are not completely at fault ... I found the attention from you flattering and desirable. Realistically, you know the situation that you are in. It may be okay with you now until someone comes home one day and says ... I have something I need to tell you ... and that is my last comment on the subject.
Maybe, I have been more open with you about my personal life than I should have been. You are just acting like a man and responding like one.
I've never gotten involved with a man who has a wife or a girlfriend. I always wanted to be first and in the heart of all hearts, we will always be that to each other on some level.
Gary, of course, at this moment I'm feeling bad. You really didn't do anything wrong or offend me. Yes, I do become a little melodramatic at times. When something is up by butt, along with other stressors simultaneously I tend to overreact or show poor judgment. We all have the regular trials and tribulations of life each day.
I know you do not go aboard a decision light-headedly and you never did.
I never want to hurt you. I value our friendship, too much. I GUESS, I just was feeling frustrated in a few regards (what you were telling me about your personal life, which was no surprise to me) I was glad you were confiding in me. But, I've told you so much more (and like a man) you didn't share with me until recently the serious problems in your marriage.
So, when I guess you communicated to me your desires, I was overwhelmed and consumed on the implications that most people would take for granted, but not people like you and me.
We should have talked the last time we met. Not on a computer or in writing.
Anyway, I got that off my chest. I'll be going back to life as it stands.