Good Morning Beautiful, the song playing again on the boom box, as she awaits him at the Marriott overlooking the city. The song fills her with the sweetest images of waking beside him. She stares out the window, watching every car being parked. Studying the passengers of each, searching for him, anxiously, hoping he will arrive soon. The music fills the room as she intently gazes out the window, when she finally sees him climb out of his car. She says to herself as he grabs his bag from the trunk, hello beautiful. Grabbing the room key, hurries to the elevator to be there when it opens with her love. His tired face lights with amusement at the woman who he took a plane ride and then drove 2 hours to see just to spend the night with.
I throw my arms around him, says," hi beautiful." He sighs, as I hold him tight in my embrace.
"I am far from being a patient woman," I remark!
He says, "You are a demanding creature by nature."
She laughs and replies," whom me? I am just a woman in love. Love sure looks good on me, don't you think?"
He agrees, wonders how he was so lucky to have found her and what does she sees in him.
I tell him it is his job to be logical, to keep my feet on the ground.
He says," you are a distraction, and an complication that I can't resist." Questions his sanity and hers yet they come together risking their marriages and the world they know for the sweetness of a kiss, a touch. Seeing the smile on their faces as we gaze into each other eyes its apparent to anyone looking how we feel, love looks good on us.
The questions flood his mind yet the answers elude him. He only knows that this sensual creature stirs him as no other has in years. He juggles his schedule to meet his obligations to his firm, to his family; yet, here he is miles from his world in a hotel room with her. An analyst by trade, yet here he is with a woman who drives him to distraction, her passion and those blue eyes that haunt him always with only a need for her that challenges all of his logical thinking. All the two know is the overwhelming need for the other that fills them both with an intensity neither has known before.
We hurry into the room; he sets his bag down sweeps me into his embrace sighing as he holds me against him. He smells my scent; the feel of me against him instantaneously I arouse him. We kiss each other deeply, each seeking more and more with our passion. He pulls back for a second, taking his coat off, I reach for it and hang it up for him. He walks across the room setting his bag out of the way, looks at me with an intense loving gaze.
He says," You are so beautiful." I blush with his praise stepping closer I seek his lips again, needing to fill her hunger for him.
Thinking to herself that he looks tired but so handsome in his red shirt and tan slacks. He slips his shoes off and draws her to the bed. Then decides that he wants to feel her next to his skin. He unbuttons his shirt tossing it into the chair and then undoes his slacks. He unbuttons her gold top and reaches for her breasts that he adores so. He slips the shirt from her shoulders, leans down to sample her tempting nipples.
He suckles my hard nipples, giving each his intent attention as I whimper. It feels so delightful. The sound of my moans and whimpers and my words of endearment to him are music to his ears. He seeks her eyes again, says, "I love you so much!"
I feel so content in his arms I know I belong here. "Why is life so complicated?"
My fears linger in my mind as she snuggles into his embrace. I was dreading that he was coming to tell me that he wanted to make his marriage work. I know that his daughter is at home still and his son has just begun college. The complications of his personal life wearing on him heavily, the emotions involved with committing adultery also taking their toll.
Our conversations have been heavy the past week and I was feeling insecure of the direction he was going. I tremble with every second; the need of him and the fear of losing him weigh heavily on me as well. I hadn't slept; scared of the talk we agreed to have in person. I love him, so very much. My heart is flooded with the feelings only a lover can understand, the rapid beating that comes when you see your lover, the flutters as you kiss and the tightness that occurs when you are leaving. The weight of all my fears and desires juggling inside as I waited for him scared of the answers. He might give me when I ask the questions I need to have answered. Yet, the answers may be what I fear most, I have to know where we stand. The unknown is far more terrifying to me.
The relationship we have, distance the largest determent, depends on our ability to communicate our thoughts and to keep that link open always. I quiver in his embrace, feeling the length of his body against me as he answers me. He answers my questions as truthfully as he can. Questions his sanity and hers, the feelings that both share with the odds against them, yet can either say its over, no! We know how difficult the reality of our love is and what price we pay for loving each other.