I heard your voice even before I saw you, instantly my stomach tightened and that tingle swept through me. I was helping in the kitchen, preparing platters of goodies for the table. It was a celebration for our mutual friends. The guests were all milling about, talking and laughing with each other. The only voice, the only laugh I heard was yours; my hands trembled from the excitement I was feeling inside. I was drawn to you the moment I met you, you were intelligent, easy going and funny. Had I had the guts I would have told you right then, but I didn't and now I felt like a schoolgirl, blushing as I was thinking of you. My friend hadn't told me you were coming, she knew better, and she knew of my feelings for you. When I dropped the silverware on the counter, I caught her eye and knew she knew why my fingers had suddenly become useless.
"Are you okay?" she said with a knowing laugh. I could have crowned her!
"Of course I am" blushing with my replied, knowing I was caught. She just laughed more.
I did not see or hear you come into the kitchen, probably because my senses were so overloaded at that moment. I had all I could do to just breathe. As I turned to ask where the platters were, I saw you. My heart skipped a beat, I know it did. Your eyes, stunningly beautiful, were piercing into me. I could feel the blush, no flush, overcome me, damn why do I have to do that I thought. I have no way to stop it and no defense from it, immediately giving me away. My mouth opened as if I was about to say something, but there were no words, only feelings.
With all the milling about it was strange to be alone in the kitchen with you, it seemed as though everyone disappeared quickly. Fumbling with the plates and bowls, you offered a helping hand.
" Hi, Cate, may I help you with those", you asked, looking almost as if you knew something I didn't.
"Oh, hello, sure, that would be great, thanks. These can go out to the dinning room now. Its nice to see you." I said as I handed you a platter and then quickly returning my eyes to the table.
I knew I was talking fast, without a semblance of order, so off balance, hands shaking. How was I going to get through this evening without making a fool of myself? I was so lost in my thought I didn't notice that you were still there, holding the platter. Thinking I must have said something wrong, I glanced up at you. Now I knew, it's your eyes, there is no way I could think and look at you at the same time. My whole body seemed to be shutting down, my knees felt weak, my lips parting, just a total betrayal of my feelings. I turned my head back to my tasks, trying to stay busy. I saw you put the platter down, not sure why you did that, I turned my head up towards you again.
That is when I noticed your hand and it was reaching towards my cheek. Your hand was so gentle. Thinking I was in a dream, I raised my hand to yours, placing mine over yours, shocked to actually feel it. You turned me to face you now, the stir in me was so deep and real, I knew right then, this was not a dream.
"Hello, Cate", was all you said. My mouth opened to respond, but no words came out only my breath, which I had been holding for what seemed like a lifetime. Just when I thought I could muster a word, your mouth came down on mine. Softly but firm, tender but sure. You were kissing me! My head was swirling with thoughts, but my body was not confused any longer. I pressed my lips against yours, my hand reached round to your neck. I felt you pull me into you more, holding me around my waist. Our kiss grew more passionate, your lips parted and I felt your tongue at my lips, urging me to open my mouth to you. As your tongue touched mine for the first time, a moan escaped me, and I fell into your embrace.