"Sshhh, honey, don't cry..."
Frazer's deep brown eyes gazed in concern as he frowned, soft worry lines appearing on his brow. I sobbed, knowing that it hurt him seeing me upset but unable to stop the salty tears from falling.
"Honey..." his hand reached to touch what I knew was my image on his computer screen, the camera's angle making it almost impossible to see the motion, but it gave no comfort, only heightened my feeling of loneliness.
"But it hurts, Fraz," I sniffed, barely seeing him now through my tears, my voice seeming childish to my ears, "I hate it here. I feel so alone. I want to come home."
He blinked several times but said softly, "I know, darling, but you'd honestly regret it if you didn't stay. All the hard work you've put in would have come to nothing. And you've got your friends – your flat mates."
I nodded, knowing he was right but feeling my bottom lip tremble all the same. Reaching for the roll of tissue, I pulled a load off and angrily swiped my red eyes, annoyed with myself.
"I know. I'm sorry."
He shook his head with a little smile and I fell in love with him all over again. "You don't need to apologise, honey. You know you can always tell me how you feel."
"I know," I murmured quietly, "But it seems like every time we talk recently, I've been crying..."
Fraz smiled more broadly, shaking his head again. "It doesn't matter, Steph. You're just lucky men don't cry or it'd be me you were comforting."
I laughed and wiped my eyes again. "Whatever," I smiled in return, "I've seen you cry."
His dark eyes twinkled as he raised his eyebrows. "Me? No...never!"
"I love you, Fraz," I said, laughing.
"I love you too, honey," he answered and I felt my heart swell with affection, "with all my heart. It won't be long and we'll be together again."
"Ten days." I sighed.
"Ten days." He smiled at our daily changing mantra. "Not long."
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Looking at my watch for what seemed the hundredth time since I had woken up, I nearly smashed the cup I was holding against the side and winced as it made a loud clink. Hannah looked up from her 'Closer' magazine. "Leave it, Steph. I'll do yours when I do mine." She pointed to her nearly empty cereal bowl and smiled.
"Oh, would you?" I asked, turning to her, and she confirmed with a nod of her dark head. "Thanks, Han," I sighed gratefully and pulled off the soapy washing up gloves, hanging them on their hook. She squeezed back as I gave her a one-armed hug, my other hand occupied with my glass of orange juice, and I walked out of the kitchen, greeting my other flat mate as she stepped out of her bedroom door.
"Morning, Rach." I laughed at her rough-looking appearance as she glared at me with a half-hearted smile, "Still going out tonight?"
"Of course," she grinned defiantly and then rubbed at her temple with a wince, "No hangover is going to stop me. You coming?"
"No," I replied, suddenly feeling as though I was going to burst with excitement and trying to hide it, "Fraz is coming up today."
Rachel's pale green eyes glinted in her freckled face as she smirked. "An excuse for me to drag Han out, methinks?"
I laughed. "I thought she was going out with you anyway?"
"Well, after last night...?" she shrugged and tossed her long copper hair over her shoulders, "Maybe she's not up to it?"
"She was up earlier than you," I returned, amused.
"That's because I drunk her under the table," Rachel answered proudly, making me cackle.
"You mean you ended up under the table."
Surprisingly, Rachel smirked. "In a sense..." she said mysteriously and I raised an eyebrow, "Well, we both ended under the table, but that was before we got drunk..."
I opened my mouth in a gape of astonishment and she giggled.
"You dirty tarts!" I laughed, recognising that my shock was not that they liked each other that way but more that they'd actually done something about it. Hannah had always been the shy, quiet one and for her to get the nerve to do something like that was a major thing.
"She actually...? You two...?" I whispered, shaking my head in wonderment.