I'm not very good at all this fantasy stuff... I'm not the most sex-driven guy in the world but I still hold this little hope in my heart (and maybe in my head somewhere) that sometime I could share the most wonderful and amazing day and evening together with somebody who returned all I felt for them and who gazed at me the same way as I did at them. It would go something like this...
I would wake up gently, slowly to sun light streaming through the gap in my curtains into my room, flooding it with a warm glow, matching the glow inside me... my clock would only read 7 or 8 in the morning, but I wouldn't mind it being so early - it just means I get to spend more time in bed lazing around and grinning stupidly. See, I have the most amazing girl in the planet, this morning I've woken up alone, but it doesn't matter because i can lie there with my eyes closed, stupid grin on face and still smell her soft smell on the sheets surrounding me, still see her huge beautiful eyes, still see her amazing smile. I lie like that for a long time, just thinking, basking in my own happiness of what an amazing life I've had dealt to me and how lucky I am.
Eventually I get up, but not before I'm ready, stupid grin still on my face, I throw back the sheets and literally bounce out of bed, excited at what today might contain. Pottering down the hall in my boxers and t-shirt (I always sleep like that) I can feel the cool air on my legs and arms, it's a wonderful day to be alive and as I walk through the dinning room and into the kitchen, I look out the window and see what a beautiful day it really is outside, not just in my head, the sky is clear, the morning still crisp from the cool night and it's just beginning to get hot outside. I love the summer.
Grabbing a glass of juice and a bowl of cereal I unlock the backdoor and embrace the morning face-on, walking down the steps and onto the patio to sit in the sunlight and eat, looking out across the valley and at the mist that still slowly swirls in the bottom where the sun hasn't yet quite reached. I eat my breakfast, surrounded by the birds singing and the sounds of the village awakening, across the valley I see people start to emerge from their houses, all of them smiling at the beautiful day ahead of them; but mine's going to be even better than their's. I'm going to get to see her again today and I literally cannot wait.
It's a feeling that I've never felt before, at least, never with anybody else before, I'd always sworn I'd know when I was in love, and I know it now, there isn't any yearning for her to be with me all day, only a need to share every detail of my day with her when I do see her, to watch her smile that incredible smile again and to make me feel amazing.
I go back inside, leaving the door open to let the air into the house as I grab a towel and head for the bathroom, i shower quickly, deliberately keeping the water cool and refreshing as I later up and rub shower gel into my body, making sure I'm clean; my skin tingling, the air hitting me again as I climb back out of the shower and head for back to my bedroom, leaving wet footprints down the hallway carpet. Once back in my room I throw back the curtains, letting all the light into my room, opening the window wide and drying quickly before diving into my wardrobe trying to choose what to wear. Since it's mid-summer the choice isn't exactly hard - It's going to have to be shorts, no matter how stupid they make me feel and I throw on a pair and pick out a light t-shirt.
I leave the house not long after, leaving the front door to close itself and listening out for the click of the latch as I walk away (only once has it not clicked on it's own and I’ve had to go back to it), taking in deep breathes of the air, I walk up the driveway and head down the road, allowing me another view of the countryside surrounding me, the mist has started to disappear from the nooks of the hillsides now, as the sun starts it's climb up into the sky.
I meet her not far away the walk isn't hard, it's nice and I feel a skip in my step as I anticipate seeing her again, everything's so perfect and I decide to walk beside the canal instead of by the road most of the way, watching the ducks and swans as they cut across the mirror-like surface of the water. When I arrive she's already waiting, sat on a park bench under the shade of a tree, her sunglasses pushed up into her hair, holding her hair away from her porcelain face, her nose buried into a book, her legs pulled up under her, she doesn't even see me approaching as I walk around in a big circle to approach her from behind.
Slowly walking up she doesn't notice me at all until my hands are gently over her eyes, my lips brushing her ear as I whisper, "guess who" and gently kiss her neck. The feeling is electric as she drops her book into her lap and reaches her neck backwards, looking backwards straight into my eyes and we kiss again, our mouths gently touching, opening, tongues entwining, everything else just disappears as our eyes close and our bodies come together in an embrace that could have lasted forever.
Slowly our moths pull apart, my hands moving from around her to cradle her face as I gaze back into those eyes..taking in everything, the smell of her hair, the feel of her skin against mine...
"Hello" she simply says as we kiss again. I come around the bench then, taking her hand and picking her up off the bench, putting her book back into her bag and she slings it across her shoulders, the strap running diagonally across her chest, pushing across her amazing body. I catch myself staring, she looks amazing, her face and body radiates, threatening to push out of the little shorts and top she's wearing, her stomach peeking out... she looks amazing.
We walk then, hand in hand, with a lightness in our step that I've only ever experienced beside her, we skip across the stepping stones and into the village, walking past the grocery stall, the smell of fresh fruit catching in my nose, my senses ablaze, then we walk past the flower stall. I send her quickly onwards to the cash machine. She needn't, she knows we're not going anywhere that she's going to need money but it gives me the ideal chance to quickly pick out a rose for her - the biggest, deepest red I've ever seen, quickly taking it inside, still feeling slightly shy although I've bought roses for her from here so many times before, as I hand it to the woman at the counter and she wraps it up, looking at my knowingly.
I walk back out of the shop and into the sun, I can smell the rose, intoxicating as I turn the corner and quickly hide it behind my back, a sly smile spreads across my face as I approach her again, she knows exactly what I've done and smiles at me as I approach, a glint in her eye as I produce it from behind me with a flourish and she swoons, acting surprised and her eyes light up yet further, the smile threatening to leave permanent stretch marks as she takes it from me and throws her arms around my neck again, thanking me. She pulls away, looking down into the small token of my love for her, smelling it just as I had, and then throwing her arms back around me and thanking me again as we kiss, holding each other.
We spend the day in the open air, walking around hand-in-hand with silly smiles on our faces, we stop at a tiny cafe for lunch, sitting on a table outside and watching the other couples walk past, content in the knowing that no matter how happy those people are, it's not a scratch on how we feel together.
We then walk out of the village and up into the hills, taking a small path upwards to the top of the world, up where you can see for miles. We chat happily, stopping at the idilic spot I produce a blanker from my bag and we sit together, her body snuggled into my side, her head on my shoulder as we sit and watch the world below us. I kiss her hair gently, holding her close and again wondering what it was I ever deserved to have it so good. We spend the rest of the afternoon there, the flower gets put into the top of one of our bottles of water and we just chat and enjoy each other's company. As the afternoon begins to turn to evening we lie together, my arms wrapped tightly around her, looking upwards and waiting for the stars to appear, we kiss as we lie there, up on my hill where nothing could ever come near or ever touch nor harm us and slowly something builds between us.