May I share a daydream with you?
It began when I was dwelling on this never-ending hunger I have for you.
A desire so perfect it pours throughout me till I overflow with this desperate expression; yet it is exotic and mysterious as well. Eventually I will be exhausted and emptied by your love for me.
If it is possible, you seem to have no faults. You amaze me over and over again with your willingness and patience.
Most men cannot satisfy me; or understand what I need and want, because they don't know who I am. Because of this, may my lust for you be your reward, grandly tantalizing you each moment and every hour of all your days.
My daydream tells me you are spirit, but I am flesh. Your spirit is what I long for most. The way it twists and turns with my spirit to meet me in places foreign and strange to me, yet refreshing and exciting.
I see you making love to me, and I'm not afraid. Not afraid to look into your eyes because you watch me continually. You are never displeased. You care deeply about my pleasure; as well as admiring and enjoying my body.
You watch my face, my eyes, because you know my soul is who you want to please. Any man can please a woman's body, but to please the mind of a woman, a man must be totally selfless, even though many times it wages war with his nature.
Here, in my daydream, you wrestle with this self-centeredness, but you don't want me to know or to see your struggle. You want to appear strong, giving yourself with ease so that I, your lover, can relax. You want me to be free, and enjoy love-making for the first time in my life, exhilarated by physical pleasure, fearlessly.
You are the first man to do this for me, because you are spirit. You are super-human. Not in the sense of some childhood hero, rather you have the ability to look beyond flesh and bone, beyond the temporal.
I see a room in my day dream; the bedroom we are in. Or possibly, it's that flash of red you spoke of once in your description of me.
Or maybe it's fire the hottest of its kind. There's a yellow-orange tint all around us - an elixir, a spell conjured of heat and warmth, mixed with an odd, sweet protection, other-worldly in its presence.
You want to be in control, and you are. Your desire is to make love to me; to give me pleasure. It's all so easy. So easy for both of us. I don't fight you. I rest and enjoy. I am not tense wondering how you feel, because your concern for only me is obvious, arousing me beyond measure.
There is one thing more wonderful than all other things. Not only is my lust for you spiritual, as well as physical it is good and right. I feel no shame.
The red daydream continues. We don't change. Our feelings don't change. There is a metaphysical quality about you. You waver over me, floating like Spirit, yet you are so real.
Your body is positioned perfectly over mine, our pubic bones, like hot molten lava, melt together, becoming one. Your spirit is strong and becomes one with me, because I am too weak to provoke this collision; this fiery fusion.
I'm not wise or strong enough yet. This doesn't concern you. You meet me where I'm at. You understand because you knew it would be this way. You are not disappointed, not disappointed at all.
Our bodies are the perfect size, one perfect for the other. You lean over me comfortably, with your hard, heavy cock inside me. My legs fit perfectly around you, but they are never still. I have no desire to lock myself around you like a vise. I only want to feel of you, and I use everything I have my legs, my arms, my hands. Even my fingers are grasping and stretching for you; all of you muscles, tendons, flesh. Each finger is separate and reaching for a mere taste of only you.
In time, I become so weary from wanting every part of me to be constantly in touch with you, I give way my arms over my head, relaxed. My hair, long and in strawberry waves, like a mist or a fog of red against the red sheets and the soft scarlet comforter, billowing the red cloud surrounding us all the while.
The heat, I see it changing now, to shades of yellow and orange. I can see myself as you see me, and I am beautiful.