Early in their 30-year marriage, Heidi would have told you that erotic fantasy was an unforgivable sin.
But now, her husband Matt wants to fulfill a decades-long dream that involves Heidi accepting fantasy as a way to explore pleasure. And he's made some significant progress.
In their younger days, Matt and Heidi had sex once every two to three weeks. Matt never understood why but the truth is that both of them struggled with communication. He felt deep sexual desire and didn't know how to direct it towards his sweet bride and Heidi thought lust and desire was bad. Each time they made love, Heidi would change the sheets immediately. Every single time, like she was cleaning the sin from the bed. Matt once called Heidi his "lover" and she got upset: "I'm your wife" she huffed.
Now, years later, lovemaking is still not as frequent as it should be but it is more enjoyable. Heidi orgasms repeatedly, moans loudly and talks dirty, urges him to shoot cum all over her, and loves to watch as he draws out her wetness and rubs it thoroughly over her swollen pussy. She likes to grab her nipples and play with them when she's really excited. But the problem is that as much as Matt loves to give her pleasure, Heidi is and always has been a taker and not a giver. Heidi is an incredibly creative woman, but not on a mattress. And Matt would like that to change.
After making love one night, Heidi remarked how amazing he was. "You exhaust me," she said with a flushed smile. Heidi says that a lot.
Matt's not big or well-endowed, but he's good with his hands (Heidi says he could be a masseuse) and spends lots of time on foreplay before getting more rough, which is how she likes to get-off nowadays. Matt appreciated her complement but he had a secret. A dirty secret.
Although Heidi oftens says how great the sex is and that Matt is a wonderful husband, the truth is that her loving, caring husband had also been jacking off to porn to compensate for lack of sex. And Heidi had no idea. Granted, Matt didn't always look at porn, but some days Matt would moan loudly in his empty house, cum pooling on chest as he stared at a Penthouse magazine featuring tight-bodied models fucking each other.
Other days, he rented an adult DVD and looked with envy while two pretty ladies licked and sucked white sperm dripping down a thick cock.
Matt soon found himself jacking off furiously as a submissive husband allowed his wife to take stranger's stiff cock deep inside her. Matt would slowly stroke himself as the once innocent wife aggressively changed positions so she could feel the full force of another man's generous erection. Over and over again the other man's shaft slammed onto her open cunt until he finally gave in, bursting a load of new pleasure so deep inside her that she shook in response, her mouth open in silent ecstasy. And at that moment, her husband, dazed and confused, would pitifully orgasm all by himself, cum dripping down his hand as he came to the realization of what a poor lover he was all these years. Matt really enjoyed those videos, he liked to jerk off while fantasizing that Heidi was the one getting the hard pounding. He thought he was a pretty good lover but wondered if she had secret desires or pent up needs that she refused to admit. After all, sex every three weeks seemed odd to him.
The porn haters love their little cliches about how porn "destroys intimacy" and Matt would agree that some people go overboard with porn. But the reality is that Matt and his wife already lacked intimacy and porn helped Matt become more honest about what he liked. In that sense, porn hadn't negatively affected their sex life, it helped expand it. Matt still desired Heidi and he wasn't a compulsive masturbator but sure, after sex every three weeks FOR YEARS Matt definitely shot some big loads watching other couples freely fucking.
As much as he loved having sex with her, it was routine. When he did try new things, lustful things, she responded very well at times, but Matt noticed that he was always the one proposing something new. It was almost never Heidi.
Still, Matt wanted a deeper connection and for Heidi to know what he was doing when she's busy and preoccupied and that he had long-held dirty fantasies. So he finally decided to reveal one of his secrets. But this wouldn't be a sad confession. This would be playful and unashamed. And he started planning YEARS ago because he's so devious and dedicated to her.
Over the years, Matt took the lessons he learned from porn to try to expand her mind, like sex toys, oral sex, and rough finger fucking (which they never did early in their marriage).
For example, one time some years ago Matt lay in bed, white cum dripping down his neck. He had just watched a compilation video of couples giving and receiving oral sex. It was delicious. And then he tried it on Heidi and wow! He remembers her panting and spreading her pussy and saying "oh fuck yes, yes! Lap it up baby!" It was so erotic but he never would have tried it if he hadn't watched that video and worked up the courage to ask.
